On a upswing.. and it's fucking me up.

[CrystalLight]

For most of us our interest in tickling seems to ebb and flow. It lays dormant for awhile, but then it rears it's head and affects us all differently.

For me, because I don't have a steady reliable play partner, I turn my 'desires' to writing it out. My tickling interest isn't really settled into the 'strictly playful' format, so when this "awakening" happens, it's more so of a torture style play.

The problem I'm having and I can't figure out if it's to be attributed to myself still evolving within certain lifestyles, is that I can't get all of my thoughts and/or desires out correctly. I begin writing several fragments and just end up stopping in the middle of them. There's no consistency.

It's incredibly frustrating.

Why is this?

Am I the only one?

No.

Right?

RIGHT?!

Thanks.

- Jo

 

[Kunzite]

I completely understand: I work the same way myself, and I've found the best thing to do is write fragments of torture (or whatever you feel like at the time), and go back and tie them together with a plot once the "upswing" subsides. Nobody says you need to write a story from beginning to end: I've certainly never done it.

 

[Wolf]

Of course not...

Tastes change, appetites ebb and flow..

Sometimes, you're just in mood for a little snack...

Sometimes, you could eat a whole cow. Raw.

 

[CrystalLight]

But I can't find a center point. It's like 5 billion things at once.

It's frustrating.

 

[Kunzite]

I admit, it helps to have an idea about where your writing is going. Sometimes when you're on too much of an upswing to focus on anything, it's not an ideal time to be writing. Indulge in a favorite piece of art or story and come back to writing later.

Of course, this is how the male libido works, so i can't say how applicable this is, but I can only speak from experience

 

[JesseinSD]

Drowning In Waves of Dark was fantastic. If that's what fucked up looks like for you then may it ever more be so.

Ebb and flow is a normal part of everything in nature. Our erotic nature is no different. Just go with the flow. If a story develops that is different from the others that you have written, then thats a good thing.

 

[Wolf]

Relax...

But I can't find a center point. It's like 5 billion things at once.

It's frustrating.

Sometimes, a center point isn't necessary. So, you're a little manic, and the stuff is only coming out in fragments. Let it. They might start to fit together, and make a coherent bigger picture. Or, maybe not. : shrug : As long as no one's getting hurt, and you remember to brush your teeth before bedtime, everything's cool.

 

[CrystalLight]

I admit, it helps to have an idea about where your writing is going. Sometimes when you're on too much of an upswing to focus on anything, it's not an ideal time to be writing. Indulge in a favorite piece of art or story and come back to writing later.

Of course, this is how the male libido works, so i can't say how applicable this is, but I can only speak from experience

Sometimes I think my libido is that of a man's. Thanks.

 

[milagros317]

As far as writing goes, just write when you feel like it. Don't worry about finishing something if you stop in the middle. I've got several unfinished fragments lying around (figuratively, on the hard disk) and may or may not ever complete them. That's not important to me, I just write down my fantasies when I want to do it. I suggest that's a good way to go.

 

[Kunzite]

Drowning In Waves of Dark was fantastic. If that's what fucked up looks like for you then may it ever more be so.

Ebb and flow is a normal part of everything in nature. Our erotic nature is no different. Just go with the flow. If a story develops that is different from the others that you have written, then thats a good thing.

Seriously, I second that. Drowning in Waves of Dark was excellent. Even if you end up not writing anything this time, you should take pride in that.

 

[CrystalLight]

See, I think the issue too is that I can't seem to find the correct outlet.

You know how you write or partake in something and it sates you?

I can't seem to find that. :\

 

[maria.elaine]

hey what do you think about my plot at requst forum

 

[CrystalLight]

Seriously, I second that. Drowning in Waves of Dark was excellent. Even if you end up not writing anything this time, you should take pride in that.

I actually recently wrote and posted something. Which more or less spawned this thread, because I posted it at a cut-off.

 

[CrystalLight]

hey what do you think about my plot at requst forum

Go back and look at my response to that.

 

[TklDuo-Ann]

I find this as well. In my case, it's primarily that my physical health issues often prevent us from playing...or from the intensity of play that we'd like. Over time, it's become more of an issue because I've come to a greater acceptance of what it is that I desire rather than stifling it. So, it's a double edged sword. Recognizing and accepting it more is good because I know what I want. But, that knowing also makes it more of an issue when I can't do anyting about it.

What do I do about it? Writing is one of the best tools for me. I put myself into my characters and immerse myself into the writing of the experiences. I let my mind take it's own path rather than attempting to go in a specific direction. Sometimes it helps. Other times it doesn't. I don't think that we'll ever find something that works all the time.

One of the things that I've come to realize is that there's a big difference in what I write purely for myself and what I write to share with others. I have to be in a certain frame of mind to write to begin with. But, when I'm writing for others, I tend to hold back. I suppose it's partly the old "what will they think?" junk that we all worry about at times. It's also that I tend to be a very private person in many areas...this included. So, if I really need to vent things, I write it for myself alone. If it's incomplete or disjointed, so be it.

Is there any way to avoid the frustration and heartache that can come with all of this? I don't think there is. And honestly, past experience has taught me that this is a good thing...IF we learn to use it. Identifying those things that we do or don't desire helps us to grow. If we never struggled, we would never grow in strength, knowledge or understanding.

Fight the battle as it comes to you. But, be patient with yourself in doing so. If your current writing no longer works for you, explore a different form of writing or a completely new outlet.

 

[Lord Doctor]

I get this problem with writing in general. I'll write like crazy for days and then it just grinds to a halt and nothing further comes from my mind. Infuriating is an understatement.

 

[Marquis De Sade]

5 bazillion things at once huh? I don't know how you work but whether or not I have a workable plot I keep a little notepad on me (in my case it's on my phone), for when I'm not writing or when I'm in the mood to but can't filter my thoughts enough to actually sit down and write, or don't have time to, and if anything hits me at all - a line of dialogue, a scene, a character name, I'll type it down and save it. After a while it becomes easier to form something out of it, see where it's going, where it wants to, and if it'll even work or not.

Also, when I write for other people that doesn't tend to work very well either. It's much more difficult. It has to be something for me, some issue I'm dealing with personally and a means to express it. Lately anyway. My early stuff was certainly a cheap bunch of thrills.

 

[OmahaTickler]

As a freelance writer/proofreader, I can tell you that writing about tickling is like writing about any other topic. "Writer's block" does indeed exist, and it's worse when you're close to the topic emotionally.

The "fragments" are all valuable. Save them and go back to them later. I have found that ideas often must percolate. Then later, when you go back to them, something often clicks right off the bat. If you dwell on an idea for too long, you're too focused, and paralysis sets in because your mind collapses around itself onto this one idea, which then becomes smothered and unable to expand into something bigger.

Also, this isn't a publishing house, so you're not writing for fans. The only thing readers of your work here have in common is tickling. Don't write like you have to satisfy every sub-group of the ticklesphere. Writing that tries to please everybody usually is bland and unimaginative.

Remember, during his time, Shakespeare was viewed by many as a hack who wrote vulgar, common plays for the masses.

Good luck.

--The Jester

 

[Babyshambles]

I find this vulnerability very nice for some reason.

Sharing an issue in public makes you vulnerable, of course, but it also makes you more human to me.

You're not just a girl who gets pissed off at me for being a bad communicator on this forum.

 

[BrightEyes1082]

Baby, you are an amazing and intense writer. You should never give that up.
I know you sometimes struggle with getting what's in your head out on paper,
but you always do it eventually. Remember, you have to back off of your own
thoughts and just let it come in its own time. Remember that list of things we
filled out that we're into, when it comes to s/m play? Maybe use that list and
start describing in detail how you want to experience each of those things.
Then, you may be able to tie some of them together in erotic writings.

 

[Babyshambles]

Babyshambles, you are an amazing and intense writer. You should never give that up.
I know you sometimes struggle with getting what's in your head out on paper,
but you always do it eventually. Remember, you have to back off of your own
thoughts and just let it come in its own time. Remember that list of things we
filled out that we're into, when it comes to s/m play? Maybe use that list and
start describing in detail how you want to experience each of those things.
Then, you may be able to tie some of them together in erotic writings.

Why thank you

I do try

 

[BrightEyes1082]

Why thank you

I do try

You're my baby now?

 

[Babyshambles]

You're my baby now?

Yup.

 

[tommytikl]

But I can't find a center point. It's like 5 billion things at once.

It's frustrating.

That's called passion! But yes, it does seem to ebb and flow and I find it really starts to flow about a month after NEST(about now), when the NEST high has worn off, but video clips just don't cut it anymore.

And I wouldn't try to pin down your feelings, let them wiggle a bit.
Keep writing and post the bits you want here and see what people say, that could spark a whole other idea/thought/avenue.

Damn Crystal, always with the good thread!

 

[BrightEyes1082]

Yup.

Maybe in another world.

To my real baby, my little sister, always remember we NSD.