Well, definately not a linear path leading from there to here but somehow it worked, at least imposing the urge of finding a way to deal with that traumatic (not strictly in the bad but in a wider meaning) experience
Thanks Budgie! For sure my deepest fantasy is to live the same scenario and to face the full ordeal. My mind is still not ready for it and that's the main reason I haven't looked for it yet. Another public scenario would be similar in terms of emotions. But, again, I feel not ready to recreate...
Thanks guys for your reactions and replies. Feel free to send me a private message or ask here if you have questions. I'll be happy to share more details with the community, as long as these are polite requests. Renfaires stocks (and public tickling) are my obsession since then, so I'm happy to...
Hello, after I opened a thread about being tied and tickled in public, some of you suggested me to write about my experience, which took place 10 years ago (I'm 29 now) during a medieval fair. That was my first time tied and tickled in my life and, at the time, I didn't even know tickling meant...
In the weeks I've found myself more often thinking back to it, to the feeling of complete loss of control, to the enormous embarrasment I felt, and all that mix of strange feelings gave me butterflies in my stomach and make me shiver just thinking about it. I realized I was in it after trying to...
Can't say I enjoyed it, nope. Mentally it was way beyond my limits. But I've found out myself obsessed with that experience the days and weeks later, to the point I had to investigate it.
Someone after me went in stocks, but I didn't really stop to watch cause basically I only needed to recover...
Basically a lot of tease was at the beginning, waving feathers in front of me without touching, while I laughed my head off and begged not to tickle me, which I'm conscious is the worst thing you can do, but as said I was in panic and couldn't help. Next big tease was verbally, like commenting...
Hi Budgie, thanks for replying. Actually the renfaire staff caught me and locked me into it, but I couldn't imagine that I would have been tickled into it or, at the time, I would have done anything to avoid it. Basically, as long as I discovered later, they used to tickle girls of the staff in...