hotchytick
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- Joined
- Sep 2, 2002
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I am bipolar. You don't know me, so I don't worry about your judgement. But being this way, I also have stronger emotions that most. I don't know why I like tickling women's feet so much, but when I do, my emotions are so strong I can't stop thinking about the scenario for years. Being bipolar means ups and downs that just come and go with out your control and not necessarily related to anything that is happening at that moment. It's a bitch because you can be walking down the street and depression hits you out of nowhere. Bipolar people have a lot of other complicated symptoms like obsessive compulsive disorder. I have OCD and it is challenging. When I was younger all I could think when I saw girls I liked was tickling their feet. It was bad, because I ONLY wanted this. Not sex or intimacy . When I got the opportunity to tickle a girls feet, my emotions would be so strong, that I would shake and my heart would pound out of my chest. I had memories racing through my head over and over again. I had a hard time having normal relationships with women, because despite the fact that they wanted to have sex, I was addicted to their feet. At 16 no less. My thoughts were often erratic and fixat on one thing. Depression was always there. I take lithium and an assortment of other medications that I will be on for the rest of my life. I am well in control now, but i don't wish this disease on my worst enemy. Please understand that bipolar humans are suffering. Many people are very smart. If fact, some of the greatest historical figures where bipolar, such as Winston Churchhill, Van Gogh, Earnest Hemminghway and many, many more. I don't know if my fetish is related to my situation, but that part of my sexuality is what it is. I may be warped, but it is who I am. I love women, I love my girlfriend, but I suffer a lot. Please take the time to understand people who suffer with bipolar disorder.