Eternal Tomboy
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I've been having consistent tickle sessions since November 2018 and I'm still trying to figure out all the physical and emotional aspects that seem to come along with this kind of intense play. I wrote a post about "subdrop" a couple months ago, and I've found ways of minimizing and even eliminating that after effect. But now "subspace" is a new area of interest for me.
Before playing, getting tickled was the only goal I had. But now that I'm getting that on a fairly regular basis, I find myself wanting to explore different levels of intensity within tickle play to try and achieve the coveted "subspace" I've read about on BDSM websites. Having zero experience with anything surrounding BDSM, I'm very much a novice with all of this. But I'm fairly certain I've reached subspace a couple of times in the five months I've been playing.
The first time it happened, it was during a particularly intense tickle session that went on for about two hours (with limited breaks for sips of water or to change position). At one point, I thought the 'Ler was ending the session, so I got up to use the bathroom only to come back and see him setting up the restraints on a different bed (we were in a hotel room that had two beds). It was during round two of this session when I experienced total surrender for the first time. When he first started tickling me on the second bed (this was already after about 1.5hrs of tickling), I could barely laugh at all because I thought I had nothing left. Then he put one of my feet in his mouth, and jump started my tickle response again and it was like the session started from the beginning again. But there was one difference - my body totally surrendered to him. My muscles refused to fight anymore and I almost went totally limp. His touches still tickled like crazy but there was nothing I could do about it except lie there and take it.
I have no idea how long this second round lasted (my guess would be another half hour or so), and my memory of it is really fuzzy - almost like I wasn't really there. And when he finally released me from my restraints, I had this full-body, fuzzy, floaty feeling; like someone had shot me full of the world's best pain killers and I was totally high. That sensation lasted long after I left the hotel room. I was walking around my neighborhood (walking my dog) but feeling nothing but this fuzzy, warm feeling from head to toe.
I had another really intense session yesterday (different 'ler) and felt something similar to the "fuzzy" feeling I had during that other session. The 'ler and I had agreed beforehand that I would let him tickle me a bit beyond my safeword (we've had several sessions before this and I've grown to trust him enough to give him a bit more control over the session). In an effort to try and reach the level of subspace again, I've been trying like hell not to use my safeword. In the beginning, I used it every time things got intense. I think it was my way of retaining control over the session. But now that I trust my 'lers more, I want to give up the reigns and allow them the control they should have over the session. This mental surrender has brought me to much higher levels of intensity during play.
But yesterday I did safeword a couple of times during our two hour session, and as agreed, he went about 30 seconds or so beyond it. When he finally stopped tickling me, I was completely limp and (to my surprise) non-verbal. He checked in with me to make sure what he did was ok, and all I could do was nod my head. After a short break, he started the tickling back up again and I had much less fight in me and experienced some of that muscle slackness that didn't allow me to struggle anymore. After the session was over, TOTAL exhaustion kicked in, and after I went home, I slept for most of the afternoon. I did experience some of that fuzzy feeling from the first time, but to a slightly lesser degree. The predominant feeling was just being completely spent.
I would love to hear your thoughts, opinions, and experiences surrounding the idea of subspace and whether or not you think it can be achieved with just tickling. In my experience, I'd have to answer with a big, fat YES
Before playing, getting tickled was the only goal I had. But now that I'm getting that on a fairly regular basis, I find myself wanting to explore different levels of intensity within tickle play to try and achieve the coveted "subspace" I've read about on BDSM websites. Having zero experience with anything surrounding BDSM, I'm very much a novice with all of this. But I'm fairly certain I've reached subspace a couple of times in the five months I've been playing.
The first time it happened, it was during a particularly intense tickle session that went on for about two hours (with limited breaks for sips of water or to change position). At one point, I thought the 'Ler was ending the session, so I got up to use the bathroom only to come back and see him setting up the restraints on a different bed (we were in a hotel room that had two beds). It was during round two of this session when I experienced total surrender for the first time. When he first started tickling me on the second bed (this was already after about 1.5hrs of tickling), I could barely laugh at all because I thought I had nothing left. Then he put one of my feet in his mouth, and jump started my tickle response again and it was like the session started from the beginning again. But there was one difference - my body totally surrendered to him. My muscles refused to fight anymore and I almost went totally limp. His touches still tickled like crazy but there was nothing I could do about it except lie there and take it.
I have no idea how long this second round lasted (my guess would be another half hour or so), and my memory of it is really fuzzy - almost like I wasn't really there. And when he finally released me from my restraints, I had this full-body, fuzzy, floaty feeling; like someone had shot me full of the world's best pain killers and I was totally high. That sensation lasted long after I left the hotel room. I was walking around my neighborhood (walking my dog) but feeling nothing but this fuzzy, warm feeling from head to toe.
I had another really intense session yesterday (different 'ler) and felt something similar to the "fuzzy" feeling I had during that other session. The 'ler and I had agreed beforehand that I would let him tickle me a bit beyond my safeword (we've had several sessions before this and I've grown to trust him enough to give him a bit more control over the session). In an effort to try and reach the level of subspace again, I've been trying like hell not to use my safeword. In the beginning, I used it every time things got intense. I think it was my way of retaining control over the session. But now that I trust my 'lers more, I want to give up the reigns and allow them the control they should have over the session. This mental surrender has brought me to much higher levels of intensity during play.
But yesterday I did safeword a couple of times during our two hour session, and as agreed, he went about 30 seconds or so beyond it. When he finally stopped tickling me, I was completely limp and (to my surprise) non-verbal. He checked in with me to make sure what he did was ok, and all I could do was nod my head. After a short break, he started the tickling back up again and I had much less fight in me and experienced some of that muscle slackness that didn't allow me to struggle anymore. After the session was over, TOTAL exhaustion kicked in, and after I went home, I slept for most of the afternoon. I did experience some of that fuzzy feeling from the first time, but to a slightly lesser degree. The predominant feeling was just being completely spent.
I would love to hear your thoughts, opinions, and experiences surrounding the idea of subspace and whether or not you think it can be achieved with just tickling. In my experience, I'd have to answer with a big, fat YES
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