Am I the only one that has been "in denial" about having a tickle fetish?

Tickling has turned me on my entire life. It is for me what sex is to most; vanilla sex doesn't do it for me. For most of my adolescence, I felt weird and ashamed of this. I never told anyone about it. When my friends would talk about sex, I would just try to fit in and even make up stuff to say to fit in. I always felt out of place, almost like I was some freak. For a while, earlier this year, I stopped masturbating to tickle stuff and forced myself to watch vanilla porn every night and jack off to it. I was able to finish sometimes, but it took so much effort, almost like I had to "force myself" to like it.

Luckily I am not doing that anymore and I have come to accept my fetish (which is why I am here now) and I am so glad. I now understand that there is nothing wrong with having a tickle fetish; society is to blame for me having felt that way. I'm glad to have accepted it while I am still young.

Anyway I was just wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences

So i can't technically call my tickle thing a fetish, because sex "in general" kinky or not, doesn't appeal to me. I am gonna say mine is more like an addiction? But yeah, you're right. Without the tmf it's likely I'd still be fighting myself in an attempt to stay straight n narrow. But i realize, I'm allowed to like what i like. I'm not depraved. I'm not going to hurt anybody. It's not like I'll ever actually run up on a stranger for this and make it weird. I mean i don't and can never understand why tickling makes people uncomfortable and neither will i understand how anyone can hate it but i do understand people's tastes differ and that's ok i won't judge anyone for disliking it and i can prove to myself tickling is fine for ME because i can be responsible about it.

As you both said. Many of us have been on the same journey before eventually accepting and enjoying who we actually are.

I've never been "in denial" but somewhere during my teen years (say, between 10 and 14), I started to minimize tickling compared to the rest of my fantasies. See, the lack of representation, people around me all seemingly oblivious to it, mainstream porn featuring BDSM but never tickling, sort of led me, consciously or not, to bury it somehow. To give it less precedence over the other things that also turned me on. I had almost convinced myself that there was no such thing as a tickle fetish.

It resurfaced with the force of a tsunami when I finally got the Internet in 2001 (I was 15) and discovered that not only I wasn't the only one with such fantasies, but that there were TONS of tickling content out there. Videos, photos, and above all, ART. I can never overstate how important this was to me. It changed everything, all of a sudden I had become my true self. Tickling was finally retaking its rightful place in my mental universe. Words hardly suffice to express the magnitude of this change and what it did to me; I'll simply say that had this not happened, I'd now be only half the man I am today.

ZoopDeScoop said:

For a while, earlier this year, I stopped masturbating to tickle stuff and forced myself to watch vanilla porn every night and jack off to it. I was able to finish sometimes, but it took so much effort, almost like I had to "force myself" to like it...
Anyway I was just wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences

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I matured very late, being short, and was also intelligent enough to have been selected along with several other students to complete grades 3, 4, and 5 in two years. As a result I was a few years behind my 'normal male' classmates in development and even more behind my female classmates. I would wander about, a head shorter than everyone else and still with an unbroken voice (that finally happened, but in French class when I was 16, and I got a humiliating round of cheers and applause) in a rolling sea of eye-level bosoms.

My male classmates would often bellow away in the locker room about their daily masturbatory prowess, citing multiple orgasms and height of ejaculate.

And I vowed to myself that if I ever hit puberty (doubtful as that was...) my first orgasm would occur with a girl, and so I resolutely avoided masturbating. My only celibate ejaculations occurred during wet dreams about guess what, which of course couldn't be helped, but somehow I held out until I was 17, when a lovely girl named A. exercised her arm on me one day when my parents weren't home.

I figured having managed that far I could continue abstaining, and that every orgasm would occur with a woman (I was in high school at the time, after all, so the word 'woman' is wryly amusing in retrospect) and I used that spur to go forth seeking. And I've kept that vow all my life, whether you believe it or not. It's made me promiscuous of necessity, and since the thought of hired sex appalled it made me read a lot of books on female psychology, and get out there and practice talking to 'them' even though I was completely useless at that side of things for years. I have often amused people with rueful tales of my ridiculously non-erotic adventures.

If you want to have sex in any of its permutations don't play spit in the carpet with Mary Palm and her five daughters.

Get out there and find it.

My absolute guarantee is that it will be difficult and humiliating and a lot of girls will turn you down, sometimes quite viciously.

My other absolute guarantee is that once in a blue moon you'll be successful, and your hit rate will increase vastly once you discover your style and what to say.

While doing all of this you will as a necessary consequence develop the hide of a rhinoceros so rejection will not hurt as much, but also as a consequence sex will not be as amazing psychologically as it used to be when it was a such a rare and unknown quantity.

That's the price you'll pay for your self-control and cold showers, but I found it worth it, and you might too.

Good luck.

And chat to five girls a day. It's a numbers game.

Wasn't in denial, but minimized it, as Tenebrae put it. I felt like I was developing an addiction to tickling porn at one point in my late teens, so I tried forcing myself to take breaks from watching it. Eventually I got tired of those "breaks" and told myself "fuck it, I'll watch tickling videos whenever I feel like it". And so I did. I haven't felt like I was going to become addicted since then, which is good. I think I was just paranoid at the time.

Tickling is more of a kink for me, so I can still enjoy vanilla and other kinds of porn. It's one of my biggest kinks though, so I enjoy it a lot more than others.

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I denied tickling as an inseparable part of my sexuality because I didn't understand how or why this was a thing. Without answers, I was extremely ashamed. It's a horrible struggle when your constantly ashamed that something as normal as tickling is something that arouses you more than anything else you can think of. However, thanks to internet forums and others sites we know that this fetish is common.

From my current understanding, a fetish is formed through the trauma of feeling continuous powerlessness when were young. Tickling is a response to that feeling of powerless and it's how we release this frustration and is probably why we are incredibly aroused and engaged when engaging in our fetish. I wish I knew the actual neurological mechanics of fetish formation but I don't and I'm fine. Learning more about fetishes in general has helped me be so much with the constant anxiety. Tickling, among many another fetish, is light on the spectrum of fetishes.

There are way more shamefully intense fetishes out there, ours isn't that bad. In fact, the more I open up about it is the more specific I become with it. I do with I knew of a way to measure just how ticklish a girl really was and where because then I wouldn't have to waste anytime with anyone else. Tickling is fun, it doesn't always have to be sexual or overly dominating. Let's just make sure that it doesn't take over our lives because there is more to life than the things that charge us sexually.

TickleFetishism said:

From my current understanding, a fetish is formed through the trauma of feeling continuous powerlessness when were young. Tickling is a response to that feeling of powerless and it's how we release this frustration and is probably why we are incredibly aroused and engaged when engaging in our fetish.

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That's a first I hear this. Where did you get this idea from?

When I was young I was tickle tortured a lot. A few times I was even restrained and one time Tied up and tickle tortured ( it was not sexual but it was torture and against my will ). Years later it became sexual for me.

I am like you....i grew up without any computers let alone websites. Sex and tickling have always been entwined in me. I could have vanilla sex but it was never as intimate or hot as some tickling thrown in. Ive always been frustrated by it, like being from an alien world and forced to live in a foreign place. I just wish it was more common....thanks to sites like these i now know i am not alone which is alot better than it used to be

Im kinda the same. I wasnt in denial of having it but I remember trying to get rid of it. Same method as you. I would try to watch vanilla porn instead of tickling porn. Did nothing for me. It probally just made my tickling addiction stronger lol

There have been a couple of times in my late teens and my early 20s where I tried to stop watching it and give it up all together. It took me a while to realize that watching this stuff isn't a bad thing; but letting it consume my finances and life was what I needed to stop doing. After I realized that I needed to develop boundaries and maintain a balance with how consumed I was with tickle porn, then my life became a lot better.

At one point, I was obsessed with tickle porn. I was spending thousands of dollars on it when I really couldn't afford to. I don't do that shit anymore. I have other kinks and fetishes that turn me on too. There are some periods where I will go 3-4 days without even thinking about tickling or tickle porn. I don't view this fetish as a bad thing, far from it. Ultimately, it was how I was being irresponsible about it was what caused problems in my life.

And also, I stopped giving a fuck about what other people thought about me liking this fetish a long time ago. My whole family knows; some of my friends know; but the thing is, none of them give a fuck. And if they do give a fuck; that's their problem, not mine and I'm not going to worry about it. Quite frankly, fuck em if they have a problem with it.