AmandaBear
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Hello, all. I just joined this place in March, but it took me a while to pluck up the courage to write an introduction post, so here I go.
Well…where should I start? First of all, my name (if you haven’t guessed already) is Amanda, I just turned 18 years old this year, and…I am probably the only one on the TMF who has NEVER been tickled in their whole life. As in, not even by a friend or a family member. I know, I know...it's a bit of a paradox to have someone here with a tickle fetish who's never even been tickled once. It's weird because for me when I watch someone get tickled, I can imagine the sensations they must be feeling, but at the same time it's hazy because I lack any sort of experience. xD
Anyway, to start off, ever since I was around 8 years old I’ve always had a strange obsession with tickling. Whenever I saw two people tickle each other, I would just stop and stare at them in fascination. And when I did, I would have conflicting thoughts in my head, like I wanted to join in while at the same time being mortally terrified of being tickled. And if I was reading a book or watching something on TV that had content related to tickling, I would either watch or read that part over and over. I’ve always wondered what was wrong with me…my whole life I thought I was some kind of freak for being so obsessed with it. I didn’t even know what the word ‘fetish’ meant until I started my Internet research on tickling when I was around 11 years old. I think I found the TMF when I was 13 or 14, so I’ve been lurking on the forum for about 4 or 5 years.
And then, there’s something else that’s been complicating things regarding my sexuality. I really hope my story doesn’t turn off some people here, but I’m just gonna say it anyway…See, all my short life, I’ve been dreaming about an older (or a taller) female tickling me and throughout my adolescent years, I’ve always thought that that fantasy was just a playful, sisterly thing and that it didn’t say anything about my sexual orientation. But just this year, I’ve discovered the fact that I am indeed a gay girl. A lezzo, lesbo...whatever you wanna call it. At first, I thought I was some kind of demon or monster for having these desires that I’ve always been taught were unnatural or perverted. It was like I was falling into a dark pit of both confusion and understanding. I kept thinking to myself that if I was a lesbian, my whole world would end and that it'd be even harder for me to find love or even just friends. It took quite a few months for me to sort out my feelings and embrace who I am…and oddly enough, this all happened the year that I would turn 18 and finally able to join the TMF. So this year was also another big change for me in that I was able to fully accept my obsession with tickling as a fetish and not be afraid to call it that without being disgusted at myself.
So yeah, I appear to be a member of a minority group in a somewhat rare fetish, but I’m okay with that because it makes me unique and it’s a large part of my identity.
Another reason why I was hesitant to post was because I was a bit terrified at the idea of coming out of the closet on a forum…strangers or not, this lesbian label is still really new to me and at this point in my life I’m still quite a bit insecure about my sexuality even though I’ve gotten past the acceptance stage. I’m only out to my mom and my brother, if that tells you much. So I really hope that the good people of the TMF won’t hesitate to befriend me or talk to me. I know this is a hetero-dominated fetish, so I’m perfectly happy to be the pink unicorn in a field of blue unicorns. =^_^=
Hope to see everyone around the boards. I’ll be mostly spamming the SSF, as my dear friend Carsomyr can vouch for.
God bless
-AmandaBear
Well…where should I start? First of all, my name (if you haven’t guessed already) is Amanda, I just turned 18 years old this year, and…I am probably the only one on the TMF who has NEVER been tickled in their whole life. As in, not even by a friend or a family member. I know, I know...it's a bit of a paradox to have someone here with a tickle fetish who's never even been tickled once. It's weird because for me when I watch someone get tickled, I can imagine the sensations they must be feeling, but at the same time it's hazy because I lack any sort of experience. xD
Anyway, to start off, ever since I was around 8 years old I’ve always had a strange obsession with tickling. Whenever I saw two people tickle each other, I would just stop and stare at them in fascination. And when I did, I would have conflicting thoughts in my head, like I wanted to join in while at the same time being mortally terrified of being tickled. And if I was reading a book or watching something on TV that had content related to tickling, I would either watch or read that part over and over. I’ve always wondered what was wrong with me…my whole life I thought I was some kind of freak for being so obsessed with it. I didn’t even know what the word ‘fetish’ meant until I started my Internet research on tickling when I was around 11 years old. I think I found the TMF when I was 13 or 14, so I’ve been lurking on the forum for about 4 or 5 years.
And then, there’s something else that’s been complicating things regarding my sexuality. I really hope my story doesn’t turn off some people here, but I’m just gonna say it anyway…See, all my short life, I’ve been dreaming about an older (or a taller) female tickling me and throughout my adolescent years, I’ve always thought that that fantasy was just a playful, sisterly thing and that it didn’t say anything about my sexual orientation. But just this year, I’ve discovered the fact that I am indeed a gay girl. A lezzo, lesbo...whatever you wanna call it. At first, I thought I was some kind of demon or monster for having these desires that I’ve always been taught were unnatural or perverted. It was like I was falling into a dark pit of both confusion and understanding. I kept thinking to myself that if I was a lesbian, my whole world would end and that it'd be even harder for me to find love or even just friends. It took quite a few months for me to sort out my feelings and embrace who I am…and oddly enough, this all happened the year that I would turn 18 and finally able to join the TMF. So this year was also another big change for me in that I was able to fully accept my obsession with tickling as a fetish and not be afraid to call it that without being disgusted at myself.
So yeah, I appear to be a member of a minority group in a somewhat rare fetish, but I’m okay with that because it makes me unique and it’s a large part of my identity.
Another reason why I was hesitant to post was because I was a bit terrified at the idea of coming out of the closet on a forum…strangers or not, this lesbian label is still really new to me and at this point in my life I’m still quite a bit insecure about my sexuality even though I’ve gotten past the acceptance stage. I’m only out to my mom and my brother, if that tells you much. So I really hope that the good people of the TMF won’t hesitate to befriend me or talk to me. I know this is a hetero-dominated fetish, so I’m perfectly happy to be the pink unicorn in a field of blue unicorns. =^_^=
Hope to see everyone around the boards. I’ll be mostly spamming the SSF, as my dear friend Carsomyr can vouch for.
God bless
-AmandaBear
It's also great fun to post with you in the Silly Stuff Forum, and bicker with you on Facebook. LOL!
to both of you ladies. This is the place to find out about
as you have already experienced. I am looking forward to your posting in The Silly Forum.
Please enjoy your stay here.
