1.] Was there any time even for a brief moment that you actually thought The Rapture was really going to happen?
Lmao, not for a second.
2.] What do you feel has changed most about yourself within your fetish based off using the forum/meeting folks/chatting/ect ?
I'm much more open about it...
I completely agree with this statement. Just because there is an attraction doesn't mean anything. If there was a real connection then you would have heard back almost immediately, most girls don't play games and go for what they want before someone else gets it.
I'd probably ask what the situation between you two was, but it seems like she wasn't that interested, otherwise I think it would have at least come up.