Hey everyone,
Like many of you, I have loved tickling for as long as I can remember. Even before I knew that it was a sexual thing, I can remember getting tickled as young as 4 or 5 and enjoying it. Who knows where it came from?
Anyway, around the time that all of my friends started talking about sex, porn, boobs, vaginas and masturbation, I felt very outside of all those. I have never been able to get off from just regular porn, ever in my life. It honestly grosses me out.
Right around the time I found out that tickling was... like... my thing, I never even thought of telling anybody. I dated a girl for 9 months around that time, never once did I bring it up. I ended up telling another girlfriend a couple years later. She was the first person I ever told in my life, and it took A LOT of strength and stealing myself and deep breaths to admit it. She reacted wonderfully. She was my first, real, awesome tickle experience. She was more than happy to indulge in my fetish.
I've told other girls since her, but it has always been this huge secret of mine. One time, a group of guy friends were hanging out and one of my buddies casually asked the group if anybody had any fetishes. He, with no deliberation or internal struggle at all, brought up that he kinda had a foot fetish. He said it like he was telling us his favorite color. It blew my mind. What also surprised me, was that my other friends hardly even acknowledged it. It was nothing. No big deal. I, however, held in my secret that day.
The more I have told people about it, the less I've realized that it's not such a terrible thing to hide. I had written about it in a journal, and recently this journal fell open to that specific page (damn you fate!!!) and a friend from work had picked it up and read that part. She confided in me what she read and she seemed not at all put off or disgusted or weirded out in anyway. In fact, she has been trying to persuade me to be more open about it, saying that I shouldn't be afraid to bring it up in casual conversation. This is all very new to me, as well as scary. I would go so far as to say that this fetish is probably one of my biggest secrets of all time, but does it even have to be? What am I so afraid of? I'm afraid to even say the word tickling out loud in public, let alone come clean with all my friends about it in the same, nonchalant, casual way my other friend did about his foot fetish. How did it even become so hard to admit in the first place? Do you guys have a similar experience with this? Any advice?
Like many of you, I have loved tickling for as long as I can remember. Even before I knew that it was a sexual thing, I can remember getting tickled as young as 4 or 5 and enjoying it. Who knows where it came from?
Anyway, around the time that all of my friends started talking about sex, porn, boobs, vaginas and masturbation, I felt very outside of all those. I have never been able to get off from just regular porn, ever in my life. It honestly grosses me out.
Right around the time I found out that tickling was... like... my thing, I never even thought of telling anybody. I dated a girl for 9 months around that time, never once did I bring it up. I ended up telling another girlfriend a couple years later. She was the first person I ever told in my life, and it took A LOT of strength and stealing myself and deep breaths to admit it. She reacted wonderfully. She was my first, real, awesome tickle experience. She was more than happy to indulge in my fetish.
I've told other girls since her, but it has always been this huge secret of mine. One time, a group of guy friends were hanging out and one of my buddies casually asked the group if anybody had any fetishes. He, with no deliberation or internal struggle at all, brought up that he kinda had a foot fetish. He said it like he was telling us his favorite color. It blew my mind. What also surprised me, was that my other friends hardly even acknowledged it. It was nothing. No big deal. I, however, held in my secret that day.
The more I have told people about it, the less I've realized that it's not such a terrible thing to hide. I had written about it in a journal, and recently this journal fell open to that specific page (damn you fate!!!) and a friend from work had picked it up and read that part. She confided in me what she read and she seemed not at all put off or disgusted or weirded out in anyway. In fact, she has been trying to persuade me to be more open about it, saying that I shouldn't be afraid to bring it up in casual conversation. This is all very new to me, as well as scary. I would go so far as to say that this fetish is probably one of my biggest secrets of all time, but does it even have to be? What am I so afraid of? I'm afraid to even say the word tickling out loud in public, let alone come clean with all my friends about it in the same, nonchalant, casual way my other friend did about his foot fetish. How did it even become so hard to admit in the first place? Do you guys have a similar experience with this? Any advice?
