Current events in my life. (Good read for a romantic who's losing hope.)

Hosetickler23 said:

You wouldn't go to jail over this unless you are forcing the pills into her throat or you slipped them into a drink and she died. If you see somebody getting ready to jump off a bridge and you just ignore them, and they jump killing themself you will not be guilty of Homicide, Manslaughter, or Murder, A big misconception is that if you witness it you are guilty by association. Murder requires intent. Manslaughter is usually unintentional but resulted in death. This is based on NY State law.

I know I said you were being dumb or stupid most of it was that I had similar experiences and want to try to stop you from making a huge mistake. The old saying Love is blind fits when you find a possible life partner you become blind to what other people see in somebody. My ex-girlfriend had me blinded until I saw it with my own eyes and the evidence was in my lap, in 20:20 hind sight I should have listend to my family and friends, but I came to my sences.

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Yah, but see, I saw everything from the start. From the very first letter I typed in this topic, I knew how it would turn out. From the second I talked to her, I knew how it would turn out. Why did I go on? Because I wanted to be proven wrong, for one thing, and for another, even if I wasn't, I wanted to see weakness and snatch up what I could as far as information is concerned, and I learned more than what I wrote up there from this, and the rest of my knowledge is saved to be used, not discussed.


Am I a bad person for all of this, well, that's in the eye of the beholder. Personally, I think if somebody let's it get to the point she was at, then why not gather information from it.


I didn't make a mistake at all, I made progress, far more progress then I can explain. Far more progress than likely anybody here can understand. And no, that doesn't mean I'm smarter than thou, or you are stupid, it simply means we are different. The way I work can be described as many things, and is not meant to be understood or accepted by all.

This is a public forum with a general discussion area. I simply posted this for other's to look at and decide what they think of me. Not because I care, but just because if somebody doesn't like it, they can put me on ignore and save the trouble of reading my posts in various threads on this same forum.


In the end, thinking and learning doesn't matter. What matters is what works and what doesn't. What I tried to accomplish in this worked. No, I didn't find love, but I did learn enough from it to study it and continue my search.


OH, and by the way, love is an overused word. And obviously the love that may jump to mind isn't the kind of love I'm seeking.


So from now on, let's call it "love through submission". And no, that doesn't mean I say, she does, she does everything, I do nothing. Maybe one day I'll write a book on all of this and explain what it means to me, and maybe some other people around the world will take up on it because it's for them.

Until then, this is how it's been, how it will be, and how I want it to be, until I find my love through submission.

I've learned that all poeple are different and each of us choses a different road and usually every road is different but the same in many respects very bumpy with jam up, accidents, and consturction. Some of our roads may intersect others merge, some come close together but never meet.

Don't get disappointed if you don't find what you are looking for.

Leo tickles said:

Maybe one day I'll write a book on all of this and explain what it means to me, and maybe some other people around the world will take up on it because it's for them.

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^ I'll buy this idea. So far this one makes sense...I just hope I'm not mistaken if this has other meaning...