ticklebunny 2
4th Level Red Feather
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The reason that I post to threads is because I enjoy it so much and it really feels great to get a chance to verbally express my thoughts and views on different topics and tickle related in written word. I used to be someone that was a lurker and barely posted very much in the beginning when I first joined the forum back in October 2002. I was very shy and I felt really must admit out of my element so to speak. I did not have that many tickle experiences, sadly when I was younger I was tormented badly with tickling in a negative light-not fun and not pleasant-a form of torture and anguish for me. Whereas now over time I have discovered and tickling has become a great passion and joy for me. I now love to tickle and love to be tickled. It brings me joy and helps my troubles seem lighter and more bearable-a stress therapy also for me, a great fun creative stress outlet. It is a whole lot of FUN too. 😀 
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Yet for the longest time like I said earlier I lurked and I was content to do so. I let myself only be a spectator for the most part-unless a certain thread or threads drew me in and I felt I had something good I could add and contribute to the thread. However if I did not feel I could add something good to the thread, then I did not post. Sadly I did this for the longest time until just towards the end of 2007-late fall Oct -Dec and from then on-I started to delurk and I really started to login in to the TMF more and I slowly bit by bit-started to "delurk" really get out there and try to chat on pms and make more friends and started to really start posting. It made all the difference! Now I have a lot more friends on the forum. I am a happier person. I don't feel so alone anymore like I once did in the beginning-don't feel like such a odd ball now. Now I feel like for once in some ways I belong, don't feel that sad empty feeling like I did when I was lurking-looking in on what was happening but not posting.
I think it really did help when bear and me, dimpletoes and tickleshotel threw NWOT-the very first gathering we ever hosted all of us. I think it helped a great deal, in lots of ways I feel it helped open my eyes to show me that you can really meet some real good and nice people, make friends, and find things you have in common with someone that shares the kink of tickling-that you can for once be yourself. You can feel at ease and get a chance to talk about tickling and other topics, feel you don't have to hide, don't have to no longer feel you are alone. That helped a lot. I could not believe in lots of ways, yeah at first a bit awkward but as the night went on during the big tickle party we held that Saturday of NWOT-how easy it was to talk about tickling-but not only that-we also talked about other interests and your everyday kind of stuff-not as freaky or scary like I thought it was going to be.
Even though for me social events can be still a bit scary a cause of anxiety at times for me. I found that weekend for the most part-I had a lot of fun and it was nice to be able to talk about tickling and other interests and laugh and tickle and be tickled-hang out and mingle and make friends-not have to worry if someone would think me strange or not-since all of us had same thing in common-in some form or other-we enjoy tickling, whether that be being a ler, lee, switch, doesn't matter-it was a interest that all of us shared. So yeah I know what it is like at first being afraid not sure you have enough tickle experiences to share or not real sure you have much good to offer to a thread when a newbie in the beginning-so I can understand and relate to others hesistation and pain on that. But I must say "delurking in lots of ways out of the tickle closet" was the best thing that I have ever done for myself. Because now in lots of ways I feel free and feel like I can be myself.
It has also helped me a great deal as a person. This is who I am. I enjoy and love tickling to tickle and be tickled. I LOVE to laugh and I love to be playful and have fun-goof around. Tickling definitely has become a big time passion for me and it something I greatly enjoy. This is me, no more hiding, I have delurked and I have accepted this about myself. Those that are going to be friends and be here for me-important that they realize this a huge part of who I am, don't make up all of me-a big part of who and what I am. With my love of tickling also I have flaws, some things not so cute about me, but I am who I am. Each person has flaws, but I think what is key-is focusing on one's strengths and focus less on one's weaknesses-least that is what I would want my friends and others that care for me-do for me, that is what I try to do -focus on strengths of my friends and others, hope they would try to do the same for me. ( I think it is important to try to see the best in each other)
So while the idea of "delurking" might be a bit spooky at the same time it might be a good idea and it might help you feel you are not so alone feel that maybe once you just might belong. It did for me. Granted it did not happen right away-sadly for me since I waited so long to truly "delurk" it did not come to pass until many years later-while it happened later, yeah I do feel bit sad it had to happen so late, but I don't really regret it. It happened when it was meant to happen. For me it has been a truly wonderful adventure and journey for me. I hope for many others that are "lurking" it will be helpful and might give those other "lurkers" courage to truly "delurk" but my advice-don't rush it, take your time, don't push it. It will happen when you are truly ready-but try not to wait too long-you could miss a chance of making some really great friends and miss some great experiences. Just know when you do decide to, it is going to be one of the greatest things you can do for yourself, hope your "delurking" has a happy story like mine did, sorry for going on such a long tangent-guess just the bunny's trademark 😉 peace, laughter to you all, ....good luck to the "lurkers, newbies, and to you all, may this be a fun and great new chapter that opens up for you, a whole new exciting world.
May the tickles forever play on and play out, hugs. Forgive bunny's tangents😉
😀Yet for the longest time like I said earlier I lurked and I was content to do so. I let myself only be a spectator for the most part-unless a certain thread or threads drew me in and I felt I had something good I could add and contribute to the thread. However if I did not feel I could add something good to the thread, then I did not post. Sadly I did this for the longest time until just towards the end of 2007-late fall Oct -Dec and from then on-I started to delurk and I really started to login in to the TMF more and I slowly bit by bit-started to "delurk" really get out there and try to chat on pms and make more friends and started to really start posting. It made all the difference! Now I have a lot more friends on the forum. I am a happier person. I don't feel so alone anymore like I once did in the beginning-don't feel like such a odd ball now. Now I feel like for once in some ways I belong, don't feel that sad empty feeling like I did when I was lurking-looking in on what was happening but not posting.
I think it really did help when bear and me, dimpletoes and tickleshotel threw NWOT-the very first gathering we ever hosted all of us. I think it helped a great deal, in lots of ways I feel it helped open my eyes to show me that you can really meet some real good and nice people, make friends, and find things you have in common with someone that shares the kink of tickling-that you can for once be yourself. You can feel at ease and get a chance to talk about tickling and other topics, feel you don't have to hide, don't have to no longer feel you are alone. That helped a lot. I could not believe in lots of ways, yeah at first a bit awkward but as the night went on during the big tickle party we held that Saturday of NWOT-how easy it was to talk about tickling-but not only that-we also talked about other interests and your everyday kind of stuff-not as freaky or scary like I thought it was going to be.
Even though for me social events can be still a bit scary a cause of anxiety at times for me. I found that weekend for the most part-I had a lot of fun and it was nice to be able to talk about tickling and other interests and laugh and tickle and be tickled-hang out and mingle and make friends-not have to worry if someone would think me strange or not-since all of us had same thing in common-in some form or other-we enjoy tickling, whether that be being a ler, lee, switch, doesn't matter-it was a interest that all of us shared. So yeah I know what it is like at first being afraid not sure you have enough tickle experiences to share or not real sure you have much good to offer to a thread when a newbie in the beginning-so I can understand and relate to others hesistation and pain on that. But I must say "delurking in lots of ways out of the tickle closet" was the best thing that I have ever done for myself. Because now in lots of ways I feel free and feel like I can be myself.
It has also helped me a great deal as a person. This is who I am. I enjoy and love tickling to tickle and be tickled. I LOVE to laugh and I love to be playful and have fun-goof around. Tickling definitely has become a big time passion for me and it something I greatly enjoy. This is me, no more hiding, I have delurked and I have accepted this about myself. Those that are going to be friends and be here for me-important that they realize this a huge part of who I am, don't make up all of me-a big part of who and what I am. With my love of tickling also I have flaws, some things not so cute about me, but I am who I am. Each person has flaws, but I think what is key-is focusing on one's strengths and focus less on one's weaknesses-least that is what I would want my friends and others that care for me-do for me, that is what I try to do -focus on strengths of my friends and others, hope they would try to do the same for me. ( I think it is important to try to see the best in each other)
So while the idea of "delurking" might be a bit spooky at the same time it might be a good idea and it might help you feel you are not so alone feel that maybe once you just might belong. It did for me. Granted it did not happen right away-sadly for me since I waited so long to truly "delurk" it did not come to pass until many years later-while it happened later, yeah I do feel bit sad it had to happen so late, but I don't really regret it. It happened when it was meant to happen. For me it has been a truly wonderful adventure and journey for me. I hope for many others that are "lurking" it will be helpful and might give those other "lurkers" courage to truly "delurk" but my advice-don't rush it, take your time, don't push it. It will happen when you are truly ready-but try not to wait too long-you could miss a chance of making some really great friends and miss some great experiences. Just know when you do decide to, it is going to be one of the greatest things you can do for yourself, hope your "delurking" has a happy story like mine did, sorry for going on such a long tangent-guess just the bunny's trademark 😉 peace, laughter to you all, ....good luck to the "lurkers, newbies, and to you all, may this be a fun and great new chapter that opens up for you, a whole new exciting world.
May the tickles forever play on and play out, hugs. Forgive bunny's tangents😉
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