I want to explain my thread

[Ler&Lish]

i put up a thread saying i couldnt connect with anyone and that i was leaving this.

and i got a few responses, so i feel like i need to elaborate.

i have two disorders that i do not want to name for fear of giving others with those disorders a more difficult time.

but basically, i cant trust myself on this site.

over the past few weeks, i havent been taking my medication and have been behaving in ways that were detrimental to my mental health.

this came to a head during the night when i sent a series of messsages to the one person i have talked to on this, lashing out at them. and i cant really forgive myself for that, i apoligized and i hope they know it is not there fault. but still, i went too far, way too far, and i really hate that i did, she didnt deserve it and what i was saying wasn't true


I cannot delete my account, but i will be staying off it, or at ;east trying too

i appreciate the sentiments behind most peoples messages, but i am not in a position right now to establish any positive relationships

i cant trust myself, i get too paranoid and self-destructive

if my account can be deleted that would be ideal, but in the mean time, i'd ask that people refrain from sending me messages or anything

and i'm sorry to anybody who i may have caused stress

good bye

 

[CapturedDoll]

Well if you see this...

I applaud you for apologizing to people who you offended. But since I obviously don't know anything about those situations... I applaud you for taking the time to realize you probably aren't in a good enough head space to handle this. It can be overwhelming! Moreso if you're not abiding by your doctors orders. Go back to your doctor asap. Good luck to you and best wishes.

 

[Mrcool]

I wish you the best of luck in the future

 

[OmahaTickler]

Indeed, good luck. The over-arching problem with the web in its 20-plus years of existence is that we often think all this interactivity with people all over the world through computers means we really KNOW these strangers on the other end, when more often than not, we're just seeing the surface. People have deep, textured, often-difficult and complicated situations that don't show up in 140 characters or wherever you connect with people. Something to keep in mind the next time we dismiss someone outright over some comment.

 

[Nedstacey2]

The over-arching problem with the web in its 20-plus years of existence is that we often think all this interactivity with people all over the world through computers means we really KNOW these strangers on the other end, when more often than not, we're just seeing the surface. People have deep, textured, often-difficult and complicated situations that don't show up in 140 characters or wherever you connect with people.

Well said.

 

[Rickytickly]

I can relate as I've had similar problems on Facebook and other social sites, and it can get frustrating not knowing what the hell is actually going on. I've been lurking here for so long but finally decided to become active, but this is because my interest in tickling is so strong, that I felt I needed to reach out, and this is pretty much the best place for it. I know things will not always be smooth-going, but there are enough advantages to make it worth it too. All I can say, Ler&Lish, is to take your time and look after yourself, and hopefully it will all work out better for you next time.