I've decided....

[Headsnap]

When I was about 15 me and my mate made a pact with each other. If neither of us were millionaires or in jail by the time we were 25, we would piss off to France and join the Foreign Legion.

Ten years later and my mate has two kids, a mortgage, a car on finance, a decent job and a lovely fiancee. He isn't a millionaire but he loves his kids, he loves his missus, and he's happy.
I'm not a millionaire either, however I've spent the past ten years addicted to either computer games or cocaine, racking up debts of £15,000 on an average income of about 12 grand a year (although I'm not all that bothered about the debts; unsecured debt plus lack of assets equals some very pissed off banks and credit card companies 😀), watching life basically pass me by. I've had 18 jobs and 6 addresses since 2003 because I can never seem to settle anywhere, and I'm finding it increasingly hard to resist the pull of helping the scumbags in my area shift their tablets, despite the fact that I know getting involved with these people is what's gotten me into coke before on two seperate occasions. My family is slowly kicking the shit out of itself, I haven't had a girlfriend since my last one finished me two years ago because I was too fucked-over to pay her any attention, and most of the mates I knew from college and school have either gone the same way or just drifted off into the ether, and because I'm a bit awkward it's a bit difficult to make new friends outside of the "friends" you meet when you're sitting drunk and stoned and beaked off your trolley in some stranger's flat. I haven't been happy in nearly a decade, I'm sick of sitting around wishing I had someone who wasn't a blood relation who gave a shite about me, and I hate the fact that the best thing I've done since leaving school is get my driver's license.

So, as a result of that, I've decided that I really can't be arsed living like this anymore. As of last Thursday I've started a physical training regime which I hope will get me fit enough to go to Paris after Christmas and sign myself up to be a Foreign Legionairre, and I've started brushing up my French (which I've always been good at so hopefully that'll be one less thing I have to worry about doing alongside all the Alpine training and coping with the scumbags they normally get in an intake). I did initially think about just joining the Royal Marines, but I'm told that there's no way they'd take me unless I pay off my debts, which, let's face it, would've happened ages ago if it was ever going to happen 🙂. I've had a look at a few websites and got some info and as far as I can see it's a decent life, a proper fresh start unlike those second-rate ones you get by going to the county court and petitioning for bankruptcy, plus it's good military experience which would open a few doors for me at the end of my term.

There really is no point to this thread other than getting a few things out and wanting to brag about my new purpose in life, so feel free to ignore it or wish me luck or whatever. Also, if any of the Frenchtickling girls want to come down to Aubagne to see me off, please feel free 😀

- Headsnap

 

[isabeau]

good luck..at first i thought you were going to off yourself..thank goodness that isn't the case...

 

[Bugman]

Good luck to you Headsnap,it sounds like you have a goal to work towards and i hope you are able to get some order and direction in your life.

 

[maniactickler]

The foreign legion is a tough outfit. good luck if you go.

 

[Headsnap]

So I believe, but to be honest I'd rather spend the next five years of my life shitting blood and sweating guts than sit here and rot. Tough as it might be, it's better than anywhere else I'm headed. I'd never off myself though; I'm not depressed, I'm just fed up. Plus the fact I'm 24 years old and I know however bad I've made my life at this point, there's still a fair few years left to make something of it 😀

 

[Bugman]

So I believe, but to be honest I'd rather spend the next five years of my life shitting blood and sweating guts than sit here and rot. Tough as it might be, it's better than anywhere else I'm headed. I'd never off myself though; I'm not depressed, I'm just fed up. Plus the fact I'm 24 years old and I know however bad I've made my life at this point, there's still a fair few years left to make something of it 😀

Man at your age you have your whole life to live.Get out there,grab the world by the balls and make your presence known.

 

[venray]

A journey always starts with the first step....you have taken it....best of luck along the way and may your life turn around for the better....

 

[DannyMc]

I'm happy to know you want a change of life . Never heard of anyone joining the Foriegn Legion .Five years is a good term , just be sure to read the fine print before signing . If you do happen to change your mind , you could always become a person that council's people that have gone through the things you have , to help turn their lives in a more positive direction . What you decide to do I wish you well and the forum will still be here for you .

 

[thelionroars]

Good for you, Headsnap!!! Great that you recognize you're not depressed. I'm sick to death of every one jumping on the depression bandwagon and suggesting counseling or offering all sorts of pills just because people have a bad day, attempt to deal with grief--a normal activity!--get lost, burned out, or, like you, just plain fed up. As another poster said, you've taken the first step. Keep going. Whatever road you follow, no matter how many twists, turns, dead ends, doesn't matter. It's your road. Go forward, enjoy the discovery, and learn from the good and the bad. Well wishes for you!

 

[slacker2114]

Wow, and here I thought going off to join the French Foreign Legion was just something that happened in the movies. I never knew people actually DID it.

Anyway, good luck. It sounds like something you need in your life. Good way to kick the habit too, I bet.

 

[Headsnap]

Nope, people do it in real life as well, although it tends to be Eastern Europeans and people from the old French holdings in Africa and stuff more than bored Englishmen like myself. Thanks for the messages and stuff 🙂

 

[Dário F]

Good luck on your goal Headsnap, and since you're only 24 years old you have more than enough time to make the world give you what you want, and to make a mend in the process. I wish you the best of luck!