My inner struggle with doubt

[SpectacularAshe]

If anyone has ever told you they don't struggle with doubt then they are blowing smoke up your rear. Everyone does myself more so than others(the I am broken post) the thing is just when you accept the fact and get swallowed by the darkness and at the last second there is a hand there that grabs you and pulls you out. I was lucky to have one friend do exactly this.

As she put it "be yourself and show them the funny and loving person that I know" so that is what I have done. In the chat room i interact with others and make bad pun jokes. Everyone loves puns! Granted sometimes if there is a lot going on around me in the room I do sometimes get overwhelmed, not because anyone is being mean but because there is a lot to process.

As my friend suggested sometimes I will leave the room take a deep breath and repeat a calming phrase several times then come back. I think the next thing I am going to work on is dressing more cutely and admitting I have a tickle kink. I am still going to keep my geek look (super hero t shirts because its my signature look.

I am going to be my self and chill out😉