ticklejunkie
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Hello to everyone here on the TMF
I have been loitering around these here parts for many years now, and even been a member on here for several of those years. Despite that fact, there are very few members on here who would have any idea who I am and it is my desire to change that. If you will kindly indulge me, I intend to explain how I plan to go about doing that, and my reasons behind it. I will warn in advance that once I get going this may become a bit of an essay so I apologise in advance to those who are very hungry or are bursting for a wee!
Allow me first to provide a bit of background on myself. Like so many people on this planet I am currently wrestling with some of the bigger concepts that surround our lives, namely the pursuit of an overall balance in my life that makes me happy and allows me to best give back to the world around me. This is something that permeates throughout every facet of my life; my career path has now reached a point where I’m content with the direction I’m going. As far as my working life goes, I believe passionately in helping those who are less fortunate than myself, and I am currently finding great fulfillment in that, working as a support worker and studying for a degree in Health and Social Care, with the aim to become a qualified counsellor and ultimately run my own counselling practice. Having reached this point where I know what I want to do for the rest of my life and have a clear gameplan has brought me huge joy, however it has also made me very aware of how little clarity I have in other areas of my life that is preventing me from living my life fully. For example, although I have done my fair share of travelling, I still have no idea whereabouts in this world I would ultimately like to settle. As you can see from my profile I currently reside in England, have done most of my life, and it may well be where I ultimately end up settling, but I feel I won’t know that until I’ve explored the world and what it has to offer a lot more. Another area that plays a huge parts in my thoughts, feelings and desires every day that I have not come close to gaining clarity on yet is tickling.
Tickling has been a presence in my mind and my every day thoughts for as long as I can remember. I can recall centring games as a child around tickling people and getting other people to tickle me, and that childlike fascination has never gone away. As a teenager and throughout my adult life so far there has however materialised a lot of guilt associated with this fascination, something that I know many people who share our fetish or indeed anything outside the parameters of ‘vanilla’ often have to deal with. The feeling that there’s something wrong with you, and the desire to hide that aspect of your personality. Although I have revealed it to and explored it with a select few people over the last several years, it is still something that I have kept hidden from the majority of people. Often this would take the guise of me attempting to downplay it in my own mind and convince myself that it was something I could change if I just pretended it wasn’t there. Of course that has never been possible, and in the last year I have grown to fully accept and love my fetish and what it brings to my life, which has led me to the point I am at now.
As I sit here now and type this, my mind is flooded with the possibilities that are available now that I have finally embraced something that is such an important part of me. I have gained huge levels of self awareness as relates to this part of me, and I have realised that a lot of my problems leading up to this point in my life in finding where tickling fits in has been as a result of two fundamental errors. Firstly, of the few people I have tried to explain my feelings too, even fewer shared any such passion (or indeed anything other than fear or disdain) for tickling, and the majority were unable or unwilling to try to view things from a viewpoint other than their own. My second error is that I realise I have been sitting around on this tiny island waiting for people who share my passion to turn up at my doorstep. Not literally of course, but the fact is I have made minimal effort to actually reach out to people who would be far more likely to share and understand my passion. So here is where you guys come in. I am now at a point where I have freed myself from the shackles and restrictions I had placed on my own mind and am finally ready to truly explore what tickling means to me and to so many other people around the world. The answer of course has been staring me in the face every time I have come on this forum in the last 10 years, so many people who share these feelings and who are exploring the same questions and seeking or have found the same understanding are right here on the TMF. So right now I am inviting anyone and everyone on this forum to share with me in my journey to find out where this subject that I am so very passionate about and that runs through every fibre of my being, fits into my overall life. And yes we could do that sitting behind our computer screens, we are incredibly fortunate that we live in an age where so many people with a similar interest can connect so easily with one another. However for me this just isn’t enough. The awakening of this awareness I have described above in this already phenomenally long post (I am so sorry to those of you who have made it this far!) has aroused a deep desire to truly experience what tickling means to people from all different walks of life. I am very fortunate at the moment in that I am currently a university student which provides a very flexible schedule for the next little while. I have a summer stretching ahead where I am not bound to anything until October, and I plan to begin my exploration of the world I live in during this time. I will then return to complete my degree before setting off once again on my travels to find my home for the rest of my life. I would therefore love to take this opportunity over the next few years to meet as many people on this forum as is humanly possible. I mean everyone! Men. Women. Young. Older. Lers. Lees. Those for whom tickling is a central part of their life and those for whom it is a passing interest. Those who are entirely open about their fetish and those who like me for so long have hidden it away. Those who have tickled and been tickled thousands of times, and those who have never tickled or been tickled but have always wondered. Those who run companies that distribute tickling videos, and those who buy those videos religiously.
Right now the world is an overwhelmingly exciting blank canvas to me. Although I have vague ideas of places I might visit, the reality is I am happy to go anywhere where I will have the opportunity to meet people on this forum, so get in touch! Post on this thread or send me a PM, hell send me smoke signals or a carrier pigeon if you’d rather, just get in touch, I will go wherever there are people who are willing to participate in some small way on my journey, and when I get there I ask nothing more than the chance to sit down face to face and discuss what tickling means to you. I will record my discoveries on here (providing those I meet are willing for that to happen) and it can therefore serve not only to help me understand the subject and it’s meaning to me better, but also to help provide information to others who are similarly searching for meaning in this area of their life.
To those who are willing to join in with this adventure I thank you in advance. It is not my overall goal but if it is a side product that others are inspired to take on similar voyages of discovery, or those who are timid or ashamed of their fetish are inspired to embrace it fully then that is fantastic! There will also inevitably be those who will be sceptical of both my reasons and the enormous ambition of my goal. To those people I leave you with the following quote from the ancient Chinese philosopher Mao Tse Tung that to me best sums up how I felt about tickling previously and how I feel now:
“We think too small, like the frog at the bottom of the well. He thinks the sky is only as big as the top of the well. If he surfaced he would have an entirely different view.”
Thank you for taking the time to read this and I really hope to hear from many of you soon
I have been loitering around these here parts for many years now, and even been a member on here for several of those years. Despite that fact, there are very few members on here who would have any idea who I am and it is my desire to change that. If you will kindly indulge me, I intend to explain how I plan to go about doing that, and my reasons behind it. I will warn in advance that once I get going this may become a bit of an essay so I apologise in advance to those who are very hungry or are bursting for a wee!
Allow me first to provide a bit of background on myself. Like so many people on this planet I am currently wrestling with some of the bigger concepts that surround our lives, namely the pursuit of an overall balance in my life that makes me happy and allows me to best give back to the world around me. This is something that permeates throughout every facet of my life; my career path has now reached a point where I’m content with the direction I’m going. As far as my working life goes, I believe passionately in helping those who are less fortunate than myself, and I am currently finding great fulfillment in that, working as a support worker and studying for a degree in Health and Social Care, with the aim to become a qualified counsellor and ultimately run my own counselling practice. Having reached this point where I know what I want to do for the rest of my life and have a clear gameplan has brought me huge joy, however it has also made me very aware of how little clarity I have in other areas of my life that is preventing me from living my life fully. For example, although I have done my fair share of travelling, I still have no idea whereabouts in this world I would ultimately like to settle. As you can see from my profile I currently reside in England, have done most of my life, and it may well be where I ultimately end up settling, but I feel I won’t know that until I’ve explored the world and what it has to offer a lot more. Another area that plays a huge parts in my thoughts, feelings and desires every day that I have not come close to gaining clarity on yet is tickling.
Tickling has been a presence in my mind and my every day thoughts for as long as I can remember. I can recall centring games as a child around tickling people and getting other people to tickle me, and that childlike fascination has never gone away. As a teenager and throughout my adult life so far there has however materialised a lot of guilt associated with this fascination, something that I know many people who share our fetish or indeed anything outside the parameters of ‘vanilla’ often have to deal with. The feeling that there’s something wrong with you, and the desire to hide that aspect of your personality. Although I have revealed it to and explored it with a select few people over the last several years, it is still something that I have kept hidden from the majority of people. Often this would take the guise of me attempting to downplay it in my own mind and convince myself that it was something I could change if I just pretended it wasn’t there. Of course that has never been possible, and in the last year I have grown to fully accept and love my fetish and what it brings to my life, which has led me to the point I am at now.
As I sit here now and type this, my mind is flooded with the possibilities that are available now that I have finally embraced something that is such an important part of me. I have gained huge levels of self awareness as relates to this part of me, and I have realised that a lot of my problems leading up to this point in my life in finding where tickling fits in has been as a result of two fundamental errors. Firstly, of the few people I have tried to explain my feelings too, even fewer shared any such passion (or indeed anything other than fear or disdain) for tickling, and the majority were unable or unwilling to try to view things from a viewpoint other than their own. My second error is that I realise I have been sitting around on this tiny island waiting for people who share my passion to turn up at my doorstep. Not literally of course, but the fact is I have made minimal effort to actually reach out to people who would be far more likely to share and understand my passion. So here is where you guys come in. I am now at a point where I have freed myself from the shackles and restrictions I had placed on my own mind and am finally ready to truly explore what tickling means to me and to so many other people around the world. The answer of course has been staring me in the face every time I have come on this forum in the last 10 years, so many people who share these feelings and who are exploring the same questions and seeking or have found the same understanding are right here on the TMF. So right now I am inviting anyone and everyone on this forum to share with me in my journey to find out where this subject that I am so very passionate about and that runs through every fibre of my being, fits into my overall life. And yes we could do that sitting behind our computer screens, we are incredibly fortunate that we live in an age where so many people with a similar interest can connect so easily with one another. However for me this just isn’t enough. The awakening of this awareness I have described above in this already phenomenally long post (I am so sorry to those of you who have made it this far!) has aroused a deep desire to truly experience what tickling means to people from all different walks of life. I am very fortunate at the moment in that I am currently a university student which provides a very flexible schedule for the next little while. I have a summer stretching ahead where I am not bound to anything until October, and I plan to begin my exploration of the world I live in during this time. I will then return to complete my degree before setting off once again on my travels to find my home for the rest of my life. I would therefore love to take this opportunity over the next few years to meet as many people on this forum as is humanly possible. I mean everyone! Men. Women. Young. Older. Lers. Lees. Those for whom tickling is a central part of their life and those for whom it is a passing interest. Those who are entirely open about their fetish and those who like me for so long have hidden it away. Those who have tickled and been tickled thousands of times, and those who have never tickled or been tickled but have always wondered. Those who run companies that distribute tickling videos, and those who buy those videos religiously.
Right now the world is an overwhelmingly exciting blank canvas to me. Although I have vague ideas of places I might visit, the reality is I am happy to go anywhere where I will have the opportunity to meet people on this forum, so get in touch! Post on this thread or send me a PM, hell send me smoke signals or a carrier pigeon if you’d rather, just get in touch, I will go wherever there are people who are willing to participate in some small way on my journey, and when I get there I ask nothing more than the chance to sit down face to face and discuss what tickling means to you. I will record my discoveries on here (providing those I meet are willing for that to happen) and it can therefore serve not only to help me understand the subject and it’s meaning to me better, but also to help provide information to others who are similarly searching for meaning in this area of their life.
To those who are willing to join in with this adventure I thank you in advance. It is not my overall goal but if it is a side product that others are inspired to take on similar voyages of discovery, or those who are timid or ashamed of their fetish are inspired to embrace it fully then that is fantastic! There will also inevitably be those who will be sceptical of both my reasons and the enormous ambition of my goal. To those people I leave you with the following quote from the ancient Chinese philosopher Mao Tse Tung that to me best sums up how I felt about tickling previously and how I feel now:
“We think too small, like the frog at the bottom of the well. He thinks the sky is only as big as the top of the well. If he surfaced he would have an entirely different view.”
Thank you for taking the time to read this and I really hope to hear from many of you soon
