For the last couple of days I have been in a deep depression due to love problems concerning me and the girl I have been in love with for four years. Just recently I found out she has never really loved me and that all my dreams of the future with her have been just that...dreams.
She and I had a trust that will take years for me to form with anyone else. We knew EVERYTHING about each other. The trust factor with her became so important that it showed me something about how essential it is for its connection with tickling.
Yesterday I was feeling very bad, so I called up my local Dominatrix and asked for a tie-and-tickle session. Even though her technique was good she could not get even a smile out of me...it just did not tickle. I was sort of ashamed of going to a Dom for that, but I was in a very low part of my depression.
That experience taught me how much trust I had in the girl I loved...she could tickle me just by grazing a finger over my stomach and I'd already be giggling happily. But with anyone else I could not feel that way, could not feel that feeling we have come to love at the hands of others.
That girl and me have broken up for good today. She said she no longer loves me. Just last week, while in Chile, she had "hot passionate sex" with another guy. She and I are never going to talk nor see each other again for my own health and sanity. Four years gone.
And now I begin from zero and have shown myself that tickling and trust really are intertwined. I just hope I do not have to wait four years again before someone can make me feel good again...
And yes, there is more to tickling and I know there are things that are essential in a relationship...but I put trust before love any day. Perhaps this is for the best for me, but it sure does pain me greatly.
This post acts, for me anyway, as a way to express to myself what losing her means in the context of tickling...and although there is much, MUCH more to a relationship than that, it was something that I could only have with her due to that trust factor. I shall miss it as I shall miss her.
Thanks,
- Chaneda
PS. If anyone else has ever had tickling issues involving trust this would be a great place to discuss that. Thanks!
She and I had a trust that will take years for me to form with anyone else. We knew EVERYTHING about each other. The trust factor with her became so important that it showed me something about how essential it is for its connection with tickling.
Yesterday I was feeling very bad, so I called up my local Dominatrix and asked for a tie-and-tickle session. Even though her technique was good she could not get even a smile out of me...it just did not tickle. I was sort of ashamed of going to a Dom for that, but I was in a very low part of my depression.
That experience taught me how much trust I had in the girl I loved...she could tickle me just by grazing a finger over my stomach and I'd already be giggling happily. But with anyone else I could not feel that way, could not feel that feeling we have come to love at the hands of others.
That girl and me have broken up for good today. She said she no longer loves me. Just last week, while in Chile, she had "hot passionate sex" with another guy. She and I are never going to talk nor see each other again for my own health and sanity. Four years gone.
And now I begin from zero and have shown myself that tickling and trust really are intertwined. I just hope I do not have to wait four years again before someone can make me feel good again...
And yes, there is more to tickling and I know there are things that are essential in a relationship...but I put trust before love any day. Perhaps this is for the best for me, but it sure does pain me greatly.
This post acts, for me anyway, as a way to express to myself what losing her means in the context of tickling...and although there is much, MUCH more to a relationship than that, it was something that I could only have with her due to that trust factor. I shall miss it as I shall miss her.
Thanks,
- Chaneda
PS. If anyone else has ever had tickling issues involving trust this would be a great place to discuss that. Thanks!
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