I'm trying to do what my mom does, and live life one day at a time, but, as one can imagine, it's very difficult, especially with the Dr visit this upcoming Monday, and the fear of what he's going to tell us.
Then, I start to think about the year 2011, and, it scares the shit out of me. Primarially because I'm terrified that my mom isn't going to live through that year. My mom insists that if she is alive and fairly okay in 2011, that we are moving back to New York. Fine. I already told her. I'll go anywhere she wants, as long as she doesn't leave me now, or in the short term.
2011.. It just sounds... bad to me.
My aunt is into astrology, and she said there is something called a Saturn return, where a major change in one's life happens every twelve years. In 1999, I moved here from New York. In 2011, my mom wants to move back to New York. If she heaven forbid doesn't make it through 2011, I have to go back to New York anyway, as I have opportunities there that I don't have here.
I just read online that a certain forecast predicts the end of the world to come on December 21, 2012. I've never been one to believe in that. Many times when I was younger, they always said "The world is coming to an end on this day". It never happened. From everything scientific I've read, the world won't come to an end until the sun burns out, which isn't supposed to be for another.. 5 billion years.
The old saying is: The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. For some reason, 2011 is just scaring holy hell out of me. I hope I'm not having a premenition, that God Forbid turns into a prophecy.
Mitch
Then, I start to think about the year 2011, and, it scares the shit out of me. Primarially because I'm terrified that my mom isn't going to live through that year. My mom insists that if she is alive and fairly okay in 2011, that we are moving back to New York. Fine. I already told her. I'll go anywhere she wants, as long as she doesn't leave me now, or in the short term.
2011.. It just sounds... bad to me.
My aunt is into astrology, and she said there is something called a Saturn return, where a major change in one's life happens every twelve years. In 1999, I moved here from New York. In 2011, my mom wants to move back to New York. If she heaven forbid doesn't make it through 2011, I have to go back to New York anyway, as I have opportunities there that I don't have here.
I just read online that a certain forecast predicts the end of the world to come on December 21, 2012. I've never been one to believe in that. Many times when I was younger, they always said "The world is coming to an end on this day". It never happened. From everything scientific I've read, the world won't come to an end until the sun burns out, which isn't supposed to be for another.. 5 billion years.
The old saying is: The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. For some reason, 2011 is just scaring holy hell out of me. I hope I'm not having a premenition, that God Forbid turns into a prophecy.
Mitch
