I was on my way to work tonight, rocking out in my car as I always do, when Hoobastank - The Reason came on. It's not really a rock-out kinda song, so I almost changed it. Then the first lyric played, and for some reason, even though I'd heard the song a million times, it touched me differently, and I decided to listen to the entire thing. The song was almost 3/4 of the way over before I realized I had tears streaming down my cheeks, but I felt amazing.
I had attributed my confusion and frustration I've been experiencing the past few weeks to the obvious changes in my life: breaking up with Michael, the decision to move out on my own, graduating college and getting my first big-girl job... I didn't realize that the most important changes, and the most difficult ones, are ones that need to take place within myself, changes that are completely intangible.
I was always looking for some motivation, some push, some reason to change the things about myself that I want to be different. I was always trying to find something or someone to change for. I was always looking for a deadline, an event, a moment when the changes will matter, when I would finally reap the benefits of the hardwork I knew was going to be necessary to make the changes I needed to make. But I never could find it. No reason was ever good enough, and I put myself through alot of pain, alot of self-hatred, wishing that I could make these changes, and wondering why I couldn't.
Listening to these lyrics, I felt like I finally figured it out. The only thing that's important, the only motivation that I need, is me. I finally realized that wanting to make the change is all that's important, because I am the person who is worth it. I was always looking outside of myself, to find somebody or something worth changing for. I am worth changing for. I am worth the frustration and the shitty days and the hard work that's going to go into making the necessary changes. I am my own motivation. My happiness, my self esteem, the rest of my life - those are my deadlines, my events, and my reasons - and that's all I need. Just me.
Hoobastank - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you.
I had attributed my confusion and frustration I've been experiencing the past few weeks to the obvious changes in my life: breaking up with Michael, the decision to move out on my own, graduating college and getting my first big-girl job... I didn't realize that the most important changes, and the most difficult ones, are ones that need to take place within myself, changes that are completely intangible.
I was always looking for some motivation, some push, some reason to change the things about myself that I want to be different. I was always trying to find something or someone to change for. I was always looking for a deadline, an event, a moment when the changes will matter, when I would finally reap the benefits of the hardwork I knew was going to be necessary to make the changes I needed to make. But I never could find it. No reason was ever good enough, and I put myself through alot of pain, alot of self-hatred, wishing that I could make these changes, and wondering why I couldn't.
Listening to these lyrics, I felt like I finally figured it out. The only thing that's important, the only motivation that I need, is me. I finally realized that wanting to make the change is all that's important, because I am the person who is worth it. I was always looking outside of myself, to find somebody or something worth changing for. I am worth changing for. I am worth the frustration and the shitty days and the hard work that's going to go into making the necessary changes. I am my own motivation. My happiness, my self esteem, the rest of my life - those are my deadlines, my events, and my reasons - and that's all I need. Just me.
Hoobastank - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you.
