It occurred to me recently that the coming year could be our last.Will 2012 be mankinds final stand? Will we all witness the demise of this great planet? 
Personally I'd be indifferent either way....lol.If the end of it all did happen to occur,how could you not be supremely impressed with those who prophesied it.Talk about hitting the nail on the head.They must have had someone on the inside because that's very useful information right there. 🙂
With all that out of the way I can move onto more useless ramblings.I'm kind of in the same position as last week,mind running rampant with caffeine and sugar.I've drank coffee off and on for years but it's only recently that I've developed a deeper understanding and respect for caffeine as a drug and a stimulant.It most certainly sharpens things and brings you up a notch in some ways.I was in the gym earlier today and I'm like damn.Just standing there in between sets and it felt like I was sprinting with my heart slammin' off my chest. There was a time I thought caffeine was beneficial before a workout but I've come to the conclusion,for me at least,that it's detrimental to the task at hand.But,it does taste pretty good and get's you all warm on these cold winter days.
Earlier this week,Monday I believe,I had a couple extra dollars so I'm like fuck it,I'm getting out of here for a little while.I gassed up the ride,got a coffee 🙄 and got to the gettin'. There's one ride in particular that I enjoy taking and depending on how far I go it's like between 60 and 90 minutes round trip.It's takes me up by the Mass. border,out of this city and into the hills.I've come to appreciate those little hour escapades as short, yet timeless slivers of serenity.While I was out I took this pic.....
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Pretty huh? Yeah,I like it.I messed with the editing a little on this one. It was funny...lol...I was driving along and it looked kinda cool so I was like fuck it.I turned around and parked in this little post office that just happened to be across the way.I got out the car and while I was waiting to cross the street there were people driving by and looking at me like I had three fuckin' heads.They were probably thinking ''Damn,reckon this fella ain't from round here.'' It was comical.
Later that day I called my mother to see f she wanted to go the Home Depot because I've been doing little things here and there at her place and wanted her thoughts on several things.Just small things,5,10 dollars at a time is all I can afford now.So I drive up to her place to pick her up and as we're walking out she trips and falls on the stairs.I help her up and I'm like ''You're bleeding somewhere.'' I set her down on the stairs and her shin is cut open,right to the bone.I'm like ''don't look at,you're going to have to go the hospital.'' So we went and got her all stitched up. My relationship with my mother isn't the greatest,it's not the worst either.More or less the whole family is like that,disconnected. Sitting there in the hospital,it was very apparent that I get that part of myself from her.That stoic demeanor.She just sittin' there,leg busted open,blood soaked limb and she's got her legs crossed,looking like she's waiting to get her hair done.Tough.My old man once told me a story about her father,whom I never met. I guess when he was young,my grandfather that is,grew up in a city that is across the river from where I am,tough little city.Apparently that man would walk those city streets and nobody would think twice about crossing him wrong.I would have liked to have that known guy.
Switching directions,I got my follow up report from the medical examiner that I was required to see a couple weeks ago.It was an appointment set up by the insurance carrier handling my case to more than likely get leverage to wipe their hands of this.It actually went well for me,he gave me a rating of permanent partial disability,which is good. They were probably hoping for him to say ''He's good to go,he can do it all.'' Hopefully that will keep them off my nuts for a liitle while as I try to get this computer training hammered home.So far that's going pretty good,better than I had expected. I had this past week off beacuse of the holiday but have to get back to the grind next week. This computer knowledge is my ticket to a better way so I gotta get after it but can't follow in the footsteps of the past.I can't run myself into the ground and then kick myself when I'm there.I could feel myself heading in that direction about a week into it and I'm like homie you can't be doing that shit anymore.So I'm going to try and keep it real from here on out.
Around the time I figured out how to manipulate the photos on my computer,there was a similar lesson in this course that I'm taking so it worked out good.The timing was right on.I had a picture of myself that played around with.It was interesting manipulating my own photo and going through all of the possibilities.I was like damn,so that's what I'd look like with dark hair or a tan...lol.As far manipulating photos of people,I'm going to have to keep that to a minimum due to being color blind and the fact that I can't see colors for shit.Here's one pic that I really liked....
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I love the demeanor in that pic.When I was messing with that photo it sparked an idea that I'll try to bring to fruition in time.It would mark the the ''Dawn of a New Day.''
With this year just about closed,I've just finished a really book by an author named Debbie Ford entitled ''The Dark Side of the Light Chasers.It was one of the better books I've read this year and it contained a lot of useful information that I'll work on incorporating into my ways this coming year.In reading a lot of these self help books,I'm seeing a lot of thoughts and philosophies that I came to realize on my own.It's really stregnthened some of my convictions that I've developed over time.With that said,lesson learned.It's easier to pick up a book than it is to walk through fire to learn a lesson or to gain insight when it comes to some things.
A new year,new roads to travel,new horizons to venture towards,new hours to live through.I'm eager to capture as many cool photos as I can this year.I've been seeing so much killer photography online and aspire to capture images like those someday.It'll be much easier when I have a job and I'm out of the apartment more than I am.I have a few songs picked out that I'd like to have accompany some sick pics.I'm thinking about ''This is Absolution'' by Killswitch and ''With a Thousand Words to Say But One'' by Darkest Hour as a couple possibilites.Both of those songs are aggressive and would put the casual viewer off so I want to try and gather some images that would give them no choice but to be captivated.Especially Darkest Hour because there are no clean vocals at all but the song is incredible.I love the lyrics,''so lets go out west and bask in the overcast,and walking through the rain we'll see the beauty in life again''.Sick.Undoing Ruin is seriously such an underrated album.
Then I was going back and forth between two songs by Mercenary.I couldn't choose between ''11 Dreams'' or ''Loneliness'' They're both long songs so that's a challenge in itself because you don't want the viewer to get bored.In the end I chose ''11 Dreams'' because overall it's a more powerful song throughout and more dynamic in terms of different sounds.
Also ''Aries'' by Unearth. That's a short song but it carries a bit of significance.Sitting here it's all a mystery as to where Ill be this coming year and how the finished endeavors will turn out.
Before I end this post I wanted to quickly comment on a legend of the fight world.Last night Fedor Emelianenko won his second consecutive fight after losing three straight.This is a man who went undefeated for a decade,a fuckin' decade in the most unpredictable sport ever and after losing three straight was written off and kicked in the nuts by fly by night fans and most of the media.Last night,this once in a lifetime fighter proved that despite being in the fight game for as long as he has,he is still improving upon his already incredible skillset.He displayed the best technical,precise striking of his career with a straight right hand that looked like a bullet.No doubt,good for him.I would love nothing more than to see him make his way to the UFC,win the the title and put an exclamation point on his already legendary career.
A quick word,I don't if people read these things but if anyone does,I realize that I make frequent errors throughout some of these posts.Why I don't fix them you ask? I'd rather not get into it,I'd just sound stupid.
I'm about to bring this to a close and begin my night.I'm going to do the same exact fuckin' thing I did last week because it was much needed.Just lay,and chill,and relax and watch several music dvd's.Alice in Chains Unplugged again because it's awesome,maybe Killswitch,Dropkick or Life of Agony as well.No fuckin' doubt.With that said,I'll close this post with some music.....
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...... a bid farewell to 2011,and a welcome to the new year with a style of music they may describe my personality best,something that I need to reconnect to and reincorporate into my life going forward,I need to embrace in the most positive of ways the part of me that is nothing more than a mother fuckin' punk. 😀
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Happy New Year!......to the TMF and all of it's members.
Personally I'd be indifferent either way....lol.If the end of it all did happen to occur,how could you not be supremely impressed with those who prophesied it.Talk about hitting the nail on the head.They must have had someone on the inside because that's very useful information right there. 🙂With all that out of the way I can move onto more useless ramblings.I'm kind of in the same position as last week,mind running rampant with caffeine and sugar.I've drank coffee off and on for years but it's only recently that I've developed a deeper understanding and respect for caffeine as a drug and a stimulant.It most certainly sharpens things and brings you up a notch in some ways.I was in the gym earlier today and I'm like damn.Just standing there in between sets and it felt like I was sprinting with my heart slammin' off my chest. There was a time I thought caffeine was beneficial before a workout but I've come to the conclusion,for me at least,that it's detrimental to the task at hand.But,it does taste pretty good and get's you all warm on these cold winter days.
Earlier this week,Monday I believe,I had a couple extra dollars so I'm like fuck it,I'm getting out of here for a little while.I gassed up the ride,got a coffee 🙄 and got to the gettin'. There's one ride in particular that I enjoy taking and depending on how far I go it's like between 60 and 90 minutes round trip.It's takes me up by the Mass. border,out of this city and into the hills.I've come to appreciate those little hour escapades as short, yet timeless slivers of serenity.While I was out I took this pic.....
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Pretty huh? Yeah,I like it.I messed with the editing a little on this one. It was funny...lol...I was driving along and it looked kinda cool so I was like fuck it.I turned around and parked in this little post office that just happened to be across the way.I got out the car and while I was waiting to cross the street there were people driving by and looking at me like I had three fuckin' heads.They were probably thinking ''Damn,reckon this fella ain't from round here.'' It was comical.
Later that day I called my mother to see f she wanted to go the Home Depot because I've been doing little things here and there at her place and wanted her thoughts on several things.Just small things,5,10 dollars at a time is all I can afford now.So I drive up to her place to pick her up and as we're walking out she trips and falls on the stairs.I help her up and I'm like ''You're bleeding somewhere.'' I set her down on the stairs and her shin is cut open,right to the bone.I'm like ''don't look at,you're going to have to go the hospital.'' So we went and got her all stitched up. My relationship with my mother isn't the greatest,it's not the worst either.More or less the whole family is like that,disconnected. Sitting there in the hospital,it was very apparent that I get that part of myself from her.That stoic demeanor.She just sittin' there,leg busted open,blood soaked limb and she's got her legs crossed,looking like she's waiting to get her hair done.Tough.My old man once told me a story about her father,whom I never met. I guess when he was young,my grandfather that is,grew up in a city that is across the river from where I am,tough little city.Apparently that man would walk those city streets and nobody would think twice about crossing him wrong.I would have liked to have that known guy.
Switching directions,I got my follow up report from the medical examiner that I was required to see a couple weeks ago.It was an appointment set up by the insurance carrier handling my case to more than likely get leverage to wipe their hands of this.It actually went well for me,he gave me a rating of permanent partial disability,which is good. They were probably hoping for him to say ''He's good to go,he can do it all.'' Hopefully that will keep them off my nuts for a liitle while as I try to get this computer training hammered home.So far that's going pretty good,better than I had expected. I had this past week off beacuse of the holiday but have to get back to the grind next week. This computer knowledge is my ticket to a better way so I gotta get after it but can't follow in the footsteps of the past.I can't run myself into the ground and then kick myself when I'm there.I could feel myself heading in that direction about a week into it and I'm like homie you can't be doing that shit anymore.So I'm going to try and keep it real from here on out.
Around the time I figured out how to manipulate the photos on my computer,there was a similar lesson in this course that I'm taking so it worked out good.The timing was right on.I had a picture of myself that played around with.It was interesting manipulating my own photo and going through all of the possibilities.I was like damn,so that's what I'd look like with dark hair or a tan...lol.As far manipulating photos of people,I'm going to have to keep that to a minimum due to being color blind and the fact that I can't see colors for shit.Here's one pic that I really liked....
View attachment 282876
I love the demeanor in that pic.When I was messing with that photo it sparked an idea that I'll try to bring to fruition in time.It would mark the the ''Dawn of a New Day.''
With this year just about closed,I've just finished a really book by an author named Debbie Ford entitled ''The Dark Side of the Light Chasers.It was one of the better books I've read this year and it contained a lot of useful information that I'll work on incorporating into my ways this coming year.In reading a lot of these self help books,I'm seeing a lot of thoughts and philosophies that I came to realize on my own.It's really stregnthened some of my convictions that I've developed over time.With that said,lesson learned.It's easier to pick up a book than it is to walk through fire to learn a lesson or to gain insight when it comes to some things.
A new year,new roads to travel,new horizons to venture towards,new hours to live through.I'm eager to capture as many cool photos as I can this year.I've been seeing so much killer photography online and aspire to capture images like those someday.It'll be much easier when I have a job and I'm out of the apartment more than I am.I have a few songs picked out that I'd like to have accompany some sick pics.I'm thinking about ''This is Absolution'' by Killswitch and ''With a Thousand Words to Say But One'' by Darkest Hour as a couple possibilites.Both of those songs are aggressive and would put the casual viewer off so I want to try and gather some images that would give them no choice but to be captivated.Especially Darkest Hour because there are no clean vocals at all but the song is incredible.I love the lyrics,''so lets go out west and bask in the overcast,and walking through the rain we'll see the beauty in life again''.Sick.Undoing Ruin is seriously such an underrated album.
Then I was going back and forth between two songs by Mercenary.I couldn't choose between ''11 Dreams'' or ''Loneliness'' They're both long songs so that's a challenge in itself because you don't want the viewer to get bored.In the end I chose ''11 Dreams'' because overall it's a more powerful song throughout and more dynamic in terms of different sounds.
Also ''Aries'' by Unearth. That's a short song but it carries a bit of significance.Sitting here it's all a mystery as to where Ill be this coming year and how the finished endeavors will turn out.Before I end this post I wanted to quickly comment on a legend of the fight world.Last night Fedor Emelianenko won his second consecutive fight after losing three straight.This is a man who went undefeated for a decade,a fuckin' decade in the most unpredictable sport ever and after losing three straight was written off and kicked in the nuts by fly by night fans and most of the media.Last night,this once in a lifetime fighter proved that despite being in the fight game for as long as he has,he is still improving upon his already incredible skillset.He displayed the best technical,precise striking of his career with a straight right hand that looked like a bullet.No doubt,good for him.I would love nothing more than to see him make his way to the UFC,win the the title and put an exclamation point on his already legendary career.
A quick word,I don't if people read these things but if anyone does,I realize that I make frequent errors throughout some of these posts.Why I don't fix them you ask? I'd rather not get into it,I'd just sound stupid.
I'm about to bring this to a close and begin my night.I'm going to do the same exact fuckin' thing I did last week because it was much needed.Just lay,and chill,and relax and watch several music dvd's.Alice in Chains Unplugged again because it's awesome,maybe Killswitch,Dropkick or Life of Agony as well.No fuckin' doubt.With that said,I'll close this post with some music.....
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...... a bid farewell to 2011,and a welcome to the new year with a style of music they may describe my personality best,something that I need to reconnect to and reincorporate into my life going forward,I need to embrace in the most positive of ways the part of me that is nothing more than a mother fuckin' punk. 😀
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Happy New Year!......to the TMF and all of it's members.
