Barely surviving.

Having anxiety is like having the biggest weight on your shoulders. This is not even going to be incoherent, because I'm struggling so much. Everything is making me cry and break down. I am so used to be such a strong person and the one person I can rely on, is away with family. He told me that he may have to be away next weekend too because his sister is pressuring him to go something with her, and its taken every ounce of my strength to not go up to him and say, no I need you more. Now to drown my sorrows.