I think its about time for another bitching blog today.
I also just puked
during my drawing class today and ended up leaving early. Yay?
A lot of people love being single. A lot of people love being in relationships. A lot of people can get a boyfriend / girlfriend in the snap of a finger. A lot of people can't.
So. Instead of me whining and complaining that I am going to be single for the rest of my life, become a nun, and move to ... uhm ... whereever nuns go .. Nebraska? I have decided to enjoy the single life, no matter how lame it is. And by lame I mean I go to an art school where all the men are either gay, taken, or about to come out of the closet. All of my close friends go to school out of state so going out and partying is not an option. All of my friends that live in Ohio, I kid you not, have boyfriends and girlfriends. And trust me, I wish I was making that up. So you see, I would enjoy the single life ... I really would. If I had a life to begin with. Being lonely sucks.
Well so much for me not whining and complaining 😀
There is a positive though: Spring Break. I am going up with my friend who has a boyfriend, and the friend we are visiting has a boyfriend so I am freely allowed to party and hook up as much as I want ... and I intend to.
I gotta admit ... I feel pretty embarrassed when people ask me, "You've never had a boyfriend?! You are lying!" ... why? :/ Do I look like the type of girl that WOULD have a boyfriend? Do I give off some vibe? I don't get it. If I am giving off those vibes ... then why don't I have a boyfriend? And does me NEVER having a boyfriend make me a loser? Sometimes I think it does. It's not that I am undatable ... I don't think ... I am just super picky. And I ALWAYS want what I can't have. That is another problem all together.
And now thanks to my love of tickling ... I pretty much can't like a guy unless he likes to tickle me.
Don't get me wrong. It's not like I have too high of standards. I am not looking for Edward Cullen, I promise. I do not live in a fantasy world. Besides ... any guy in this world could never compare to him ... so stop trying!
Another thing that sucks ... Not liking anyone. During High school I usually always had someone to crush on. Actually, I pretty much ruined myself during highschool. You see, there was this guy .. a grade ahead of me, and for some unknown reason I "loved" that guy. I mean I still don't even know why I fell this hard for him. This lasted for 3 years. 3. I spent my freshman, sophomore, and junior year only having eyes for this guy ... who dated a girl I dislike with a passion [after they broke up he ended up having to go to therapy because she messed him so bad ...Hm.]. I compared every guy to him. It was dumb. I only wanted him. But apparently leading me on was more fun for him. Did I mention he was a total dork? Yeah, not some popular jock or anything like that. Not the class clown. He was awkward, shy, and completely dorky. He was a theater kid for goodness sakes! I never go for those guys. Never. But for some reason ... I don't even know! Still baffles me. I think what happened was at Ski Club my freshman year we sat on top of a hill and just talked for 2 hours about stuff. It was really cute. I haven't had anything like that happen with anyone else since then. Basically, he did something cute and won me over. But it's all good now. I'm over him. Yeah. Totally over him.
But back to the point: it sucks not having a crush. Like just someone to make you all giddy inside and excited to see them. Yeah. I want that. Please?
I am gonna stop bitching now. I know the answers to all my questions. I've heard them over and over from friends. I am still young. There are plenty of guys out there. I need to stop being so picky. I need to go out more. Me being single is mostly, if not all, my fault and I perfectly aware of that ... its just easier to bitch. 😛
The end!
I also just puked
during my drawing class today and ended up leaving early. Yay?A lot of people love being single. A lot of people love being in relationships. A lot of people can get a boyfriend / girlfriend in the snap of a finger. A lot of people can't.
So. Instead of me whining and complaining that I am going to be single for the rest of my life, become a nun, and move to ... uhm ... whereever nuns go .. Nebraska? I have decided to enjoy the single life, no matter how lame it is. And by lame I mean I go to an art school where all the men are either gay, taken, or about to come out of the closet. All of my close friends go to school out of state so going out and partying is not an option. All of my friends that live in Ohio, I kid you not, have boyfriends and girlfriends. And trust me, I wish I was making that up. So you see, I would enjoy the single life ... I really would. If I had a life to begin with. Being lonely sucks.
Well so much for me not whining and complaining 😀
There is a positive though: Spring Break. I am going up with my friend who has a boyfriend, and the friend we are visiting has a boyfriend so I am freely allowed to party and hook up as much as I want ... and I intend to.
I gotta admit ... I feel pretty embarrassed when people ask me, "You've never had a boyfriend?! You are lying!" ... why? :/ Do I look like the type of girl that WOULD have a boyfriend? Do I give off some vibe? I don't get it. If I am giving off those vibes ... then why don't I have a boyfriend? And does me NEVER having a boyfriend make me a loser? Sometimes I think it does. It's not that I am undatable ... I don't think ... I am just super picky. And I ALWAYS want what I can't have. That is another problem all together.
And now thanks to my love of tickling ... I pretty much can't like a guy unless he likes to tickle me.
Don't get me wrong. It's not like I have too high of standards. I am not looking for Edward Cullen, I promise. I do not live in a fantasy world. Besides ... any guy in this world could never compare to him ... so stop trying!
Another thing that sucks ... Not liking anyone. During High school I usually always had someone to crush on. Actually, I pretty much ruined myself during highschool. You see, there was this guy .. a grade ahead of me, and for some unknown reason I "loved" that guy. I mean I still don't even know why I fell this hard for him. This lasted for 3 years. 3. I spent my freshman, sophomore, and junior year only having eyes for this guy ... who dated a girl I dislike with a passion [after they broke up he ended up having to go to therapy because she messed him so bad ...Hm.]. I compared every guy to him. It was dumb. I only wanted him. But apparently leading me on was more fun for him. Did I mention he was a total dork? Yeah, not some popular jock or anything like that. Not the class clown. He was awkward, shy, and completely dorky. He was a theater kid for goodness sakes! I never go for those guys. Never. But for some reason ... I don't even know! Still baffles me. I think what happened was at Ski Club my freshman year we sat on top of a hill and just talked for 2 hours about stuff. It was really cute. I haven't had anything like that happen with anyone else since then. Basically, he did something cute and won me over. But it's all good now. I'm over him. Yeah. Totally over him.
But back to the point: it sucks not having a crush. Like just someone to make you all giddy inside and excited to see them. Yeah. I want that. Please?
I am gonna stop bitching now. I know the answers to all my questions. I've heard them over and over from friends. I am still young. There are plenty of guys out there. I need to stop being so picky. I need to go out more. Me being single is mostly, if not all, my fault and I perfectly aware of that ... its just easier to bitch. 😛
The end!
- So...yeah.
Wednesday, August 3rd 2011
6:06PM
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