Granted, I guess you cant call me the "caregiver" anymore, because my mom has been out of the house for six weeks, but, my father said something to me last night.
One of my biggest flaws is that my mind races. I worry first and foremost about my mom, then about moving, money, my lease, the nursing home, etc, etc etc.
When I started spouting off about worrying about money, bills, meeting with the nursing home, my lease, the management showing my apartment when they find out I'm leaving, etc etc. My father, in a sincere manner said to me "Mitch, you have to worry about yourself".
I know he's right, but, right now, myself, is the last thing I'm worried about. I worry about my mom, all the time, because I cant be there with her. Every time the phone rings, my heart goes into my mouth. I have a meeting with the nursing home director today, and that is worrying me, because I dont know what he;'s going to say to me. I really dont want the complex management in my apartment, because as I've posted before, even though i've made progress with cleaning up, the place is still a mess, and I'm afraid I';m going to get tossed. My dad says even if they try to evict me, I can get a lawyer to fight it, because I'm still paying the rent, and it takes a long time to get a tenant out, especially one thats still paying the rent. By the time a judge would throw me out of here, my mom will probably be gone. so I can make arrangement with the management or court for me to leave voluntarially.
My weight has gone down a little, which is good. I'm debating whether to go to the Dr. If I drop a few more lbs, I may go, depending on how my mom is. If God Forbid she declines.. or goes into a coma.. I wont be able to face my own doctor visits.
I;m also worrying/hoping that they get my mom into the Lancaster facility, because its costing me a king's ransom to get to Reading three times a week. I have to go at least that much, because lately, my mom seems to want to see me. If she is transferred here, I'll go every day.
Not to mention.. I have a meeting with our lawyer on Friday. I havent yet told him that my mom is going to pass. I just havent gotten around to it. I dont know how that affects things.
Worry about myself.. It would be advisable if I could, and I'm going to try to.. but it just seems I have too much else going on, to think about myself right now.
Mitch
One of my biggest flaws is that my mind races. I worry first and foremost about my mom, then about moving, money, my lease, the nursing home, etc, etc etc.
When I started spouting off about worrying about money, bills, meeting with the nursing home, my lease, the management showing my apartment when they find out I'm leaving, etc etc. My father, in a sincere manner said to me "Mitch, you have to worry about yourself".
I know he's right, but, right now, myself, is the last thing I'm worried about. I worry about my mom, all the time, because I cant be there with her. Every time the phone rings, my heart goes into my mouth. I have a meeting with the nursing home director today, and that is worrying me, because I dont know what he;'s going to say to me. I really dont want the complex management in my apartment, because as I've posted before, even though i've made progress with cleaning up, the place is still a mess, and I'm afraid I';m going to get tossed. My dad says even if they try to evict me, I can get a lawyer to fight it, because I'm still paying the rent, and it takes a long time to get a tenant out, especially one thats still paying the rent. By the time a judge would throw me out of here, my mom will probably be gone. so I can make arrangement with the management or court for me to leave voluntarially.
My weight has gone down a little, which is good. I'm debating whether to go to the Dr. If I drop a few more lbs, I may go, depending on how my mom is. If God Forbid she declines.. or goes into a coma.. I wont be able to face my own doctor visits.
I;m also worrying/hoping that they get my mom into the Lancaster facility, because its costing me a king's ransom to get to Reading three times a week. I have to go at least that much, because lately, my mom seems to want to see me. If she is transferred here, I'll go every day.
Not to mention.. I have a meeting with our lawyer on Friday. I havent yet told him that my mom is going to pass. I just havent gotten around to it. I dont know how that affects things.
Worry about myself.. It would be advisable if I could, and I'm going to try to.. but it just seems I have too much else going on, to think about myself right now.
Mitch
