Well tonight sucked major ass. I am trying tell myself you can't learn from shit if the shit never happens. I gladly/thankfully didn't cry as much as I normally would over this shit. I can't say I'm not a little bummed and confused. Well I guess now I should explain and advice would be awesome. Warning this will be long, but I have to start from the begging.
So there was this guy I had met off of FetLife. He was so cute, a paino performance major, from WV, had a huge foot fetish and said he would love tickling, but needed to try it. I got him to join this site. He found me on Fet. We had both posted in a foot fetish group and he added me as a friend, Then he pm'ed me ans said we have similar interests let's chat, so I gave him my MSN and we hit it off right a way, We were so flirty. It was awesome because we could talk about kink and vanilla stuff too. Then we started Skyping and it was wonderful. It felt like a dream come true. He would serenade me, show awesome card tricks, we would talk about music, then talk about kink. We started talking in Dec. It felt like love at first Skype(Okay I realize that sounds dumb, but it really did).
Well we kept chatting and getting closer. We finally had set up a date to meet. We were both so excited. We had talked about all the games we were going to play and how much fun his first play session would be, We had also talked about a ton of fun vanilla stuff to do I think we were trying for sometime in Feb. We had gotten really close. Hell one night I showed myself topless to him on Skype. I would dress up for him in sexy clothes and he would wear nothing, but his boxers. We confessed how much we wanted to fuck each other, We were hungry for each other. He brought up relationship not I.
Well about two-three weeks before the weekend we were suppose to meet he disappeared. I got so upset and felt I had been played. I got so upset I had to go home the weekend we were suppose to meet. I was in such a bad mood. I got in a wreck on I-95 South. It wasn't my fault, but my passengers side got totaled. If it had been the drivers side I might be dead now. Thank god it was his fault and I got compensation for it, which allowed me to go to NEST! I was so mad at myself though I couldn't believe I let some ass-wipe get to me.
Well it was the middle of March and I am in a voice lesson. All of a sudden I get a text message and it is from him. I wanted to die when I saw it. He siad he was so sorry and hoped I wasn't mad at him. He saw all of my texts and he had been in the hospital for colon cancer! He hoped I wasn't mad. Well how could I be!? I found out he had crohn's disease. Five percent of his colon was removed. He was back and I was happy. We Skyped again. He kept saying how much he liked me. We tried to meet again.
Well March and April was a busy month. I had the opera and a full recital. We planed for dates when he could come down. We were so excited and couldn't wait. We were really aching badly for each other. Then he disappears again, Well this time I wasn't as crushed. I just assumed he was an ass-wipe. Well he comes back. He was in Australia. Well he was born in Yorkshire England and his aunt was from Australia She had a baby and they flew to see her. He said he was sorry. He was back again and I was happy, The Skyping resumed.
Well he told me he would meet me in the summer, so I set up a date in June. He promised he would meet me. By now we are dying to taste each other. We kept confessing our infatuations over each other, We got naked for each other on Skyoe and played naughty games. Hell we had cyber sex! He sent me nude pictures of him. I was getting so excited and felt he was the one.
Well tonight the shit hit the fan. He had stopped talking to me and I was getting mad. He is on Skype tonight and his status says <3 Erin! Well I went who the hell was Erin! I went to his Facebook and searched Erin. Low and behold I found her his girlfriend! I was so livid!
He was on Skype so I told him I knew everything. I said, "I hate players and being lied to!" I said, "You have a girlfriend." He said ,"Yes I do now. I found someone closer. Its just so hard to not be able to hold someone, I care about you. I like you and you are a GORGEOUS girl. I just need someone who I can hold and someone I can kiss." We kept talking and he kept asking me not to get angry or talk to her. He said he would tell her about me and his dark side. He also said this about her,"The thing is...shes a christian girl... like full blown and I don't want to lose something good, you know..." I asked if he was Christian and if I was bad and he said no to both questions. I said I was trying not to feel used and he said, "Don't feel used I really liked you. I promise." I said this all felt awkward. He wanted to know winy my response:
"Becuase you say you really liked me, we had been trying to meet for so long, had sex conversations, sent naughty pictures, we were finally going to meet, and at the drop of a hat you decide to date someone else. Why because I wasn't there to kiss or hold on to, but you really liked me. I know there is probably more to it than that. I don't know how long you've known her either."
Well he had known her since freshman year in college, I feel there must have been something between them all a long, but if there has been why lead me on!?
Well this where I am confused. It sounded like he was genuinely sorry for all of this. He wants to still talk to me, but just be friends. I just don't know if it is a good idea. I feel I'll never forget about the pictures or the sex talks. Hell I'll have to always wear shoes if we Skype! I can't believe he'll just easily forget about it too. To talk or not to talk that is the question? I mean in one way I want to be his friend and help him out when he tells his girlfriend about his kink side. I told him not to wait! Don't keep skeletons in the closet! Tell her ASAP and if she doesn't like it you'll have to decide if you love her enough to forget about kink! Any advice would be great.
So there was this guy I had met off of FetLife. He was so cute, a paino performance major, from WV, had a huge foot fetish and said he would love tickling, but needed to try it. I got him to join this site. He found me on Fet. We had both posted in a foot fetish group and he added me as a friend, Then he pm'ed me ans said we have similar interests let's chat, so I gave him my MSN and we hit it off right a way, We were so flirty. It was awesome because we could talk about kink and vanilla stuff too. Then we started Skyping and it was wonderful. It felt like a dream come true. He would serenade me, show awesome card tricks, we would talk about music, then talk about kink. We started talking in Dec. It felt like love at first Skype(Okay I realize that sounds dumb, but it really did).
Well we kept chatting and getting closer. We finally had set up a date to meet. We were both so excited. We had talked about all the games we were going to play and how much fun his first play session would be, We had also talked about a ton of fun vanilla stuff to do I think we were trying for sometime in Feb. We had gotten really close. Hell one night I showed myself topless to him on Skype. I would dress up for him in sexy clothes and he would wear nothing, but his boxers. We confessed how much we wanted to fuck each other, We were hungry for each other. He brought up relationship not I.
Well about two-three weeks before the weekend we were suppose to meet he disappeared. I got so upset and felt I had been played. I got so upset I had to go home the weekend we were suppose to meet. I was in such a bad mood. I got in a wreck on I-95 South. It wasn't my fault, but my passengers side got totaled. If it had been the drivers side I might be dead now. Thank god it was his fault and I got compensation for it, which allowed me to go to NEST! I was so mad at myself though I couldn't believe I let some ass-wipe get to me.
Well it was the middle of March and I am in a voice lesson. All of a sudden I get a text message and it is from him. I wanted to die when I saw it. He siad he was so sorry and hoped I wasn't mad at him. He saw all of my texts and he had been in the hospital for colon cancer! He hoped I wasn't mad. Well how could I be!? I found out he had crohn's disease. Five percent of his colon was removed. He was back and I was happy. We Skyped again. He kept saying how much he liked me. We tried to meet again.
Well March and April was a busy month. I had the opera and a full recital. We planed for dates when he could come down. We were so excited and couldn't wait. We were really aching badly for each other. Then he disappears again, Well this time I wasn't as crushed. I just assumed he was an ass-wipe. Well he comes back. He was in Australia. Well he was born in Yorkshire England and his aunt was from Australia She had a baby and they flew to see her. He said he was sorry. He was back again and I was happy, The Skyping resumed.
Well he told me he would meet me in the summer, so I set up a date in June. He promised he would meet me. By now we are dying to taste each other. We kept confessing our infatuations over each other, We got naked for each other on Skyoe and played naughty games. Hell we had cyber sex! He sent me nude pictures of him. I was getting so excited and felt he was the one.
Well tonight the shit hit the fan. He had stopped talking to me and I was getting mad. He is on Skype tonight and his status says <3 Erin! Well I went who the hell was Erin! I went to his Facebook and searched Erin. Low and behold I found her his girlfriend! I was so livid!
He was on Skype so I told him I knew everything. I said, "I hate players and being lied to!" I said, "You have a girlfriend." He said ,"Yes I do now. I found someone closer. Its just so hard to not be able to hold someone, I care about you. I like you and you are a GORGEOUS girl. I just need someone who I can hold and someone I can kiss." We kept talking and he kept asking me not to get angry or talk to her. He said he would tell her about me and his dark side. He also said this about her,"The thing is...shes a christian girl... like full blown and I don't want to lose something good, you know..." I asked if he was Christian and if I was bad and he said no to both questions. I said I was trying not to feel used and he said, "Don't feel used I really liked you. I promise." I said this all felt awkward. He wanted to know winy my response:
"Becuase you say you really liked me, we had been trying to meet for so long, had sex conversations, sent naughty pictures, we were finally going to meet, and at the drop of a hat you decide to date someone else. Why because I wasn't there to kiss or hold on to, but you really liked me. I know there is probably more to it than that. I don't know how long you've known her either."
Well he had known her since freshman year in college, I feel there must have been something between them all a long, but if there has been why lead me on!?
Well this where I am confused. It sounded like he was genuinely sorry for all of this. He wants to still talk to me, but just be friends. I just don't know if it is a good idea. I feel I'll never forget about the pictures or the sex talks. Hell I'll have to always wear shoes if we Skype! I can't believe he'll just easily forget about it too. To talk or not to talk that is the question? I mean in one way I want to be his friend and help him out when he tells his girlfriend about his kink side. I told him not to wait! Don't keep skeletons in the closet! Tell her ASAP and if she doesn't like it you'll have to decide if you love her enough to forget about kink! Any advice would be great.
