I left off mentioning The Three Only Things. The Three Only Things is a fascinating book by Robert Moss about dreams,coincidence and imagination. Recently I had begun looking into and researching different types of herbs for their health benefits.No,not that type of herb 😛 ,even though I wouldn't mind some green bud right now. In time. Anyway,a few of the herbs I looked into were known to have an impact on your dreams,one being valerian. From then on,it seemed that all of a sudden,everywhere I looked dreams were being mentioned,multiple articles online and the such.
In the days to follow,I ended up purchasing a bottle of valerian root from the pharmacy.Not for the dream aspect but for the possible relaxation and sleep benefits. I took them the first night and it did help me fall asleep. The next morning I woke up like any other day but had the notion to go to the library. I hadn't been to the library in years,even though it is right down the road. The idea came to mind,but with it also came the thought that in doing so it might change my life.It was strange.It's like,I thought about it, then I was like no,but then I felt that sense to just do it,like something just comes over you.
So I head down there,get signed up again because it's been a long time,and proceed to search for anything interesting that might present itself.I came across one book about the nuclear disaster in Chelyabinsk in the former Soviet Union. I've always had an interest in nuclear disasters for some reason,I've read a ton on Chernobyl.So I grab that book and look around for one more since the limit would be two books for my first visit. I'm going through all the aisles looking for something that might peak my interest and get all the way to last aisle on the floor I was on when I see a book on dreams laying off to the side. At this point I'm thinking this is very strange.For the past few days 'dreams' has been shoving itself in my face.I pick up the book, briefly read the back cover and decided fuck it,I'll just grab it.So I had my two books and headed back down Second Street.
Later that day I began to read the book on the Soviet disaster. Over the next two days I got about halfway through the book and become disinterested.It wasn't doing it for me so I decide to try the other book. I had no expectations regarding this book whatsoever,none at all.After I finished the introduction I knew that this book would undoubtedly impact my life.I was immediately sucked right in. Without getting to into it,the book touches on understanding your dreams and what's to be learned from them,the thought of coincidence and how things happen and certain rhythyms and symbols in life.It's a very fascinating book. I'm layin' there and reading and thinking about the coincidence of how I came across the book.The herbs and seeing 'dreams' mentioned everywhere,then waking up with the thought of going to the library basically coming out of nowhere,then dismissing the thought only to be overcome with an undeniable intuition to just go.So I'm just chillin' there thinking and as I'm thinking,I turn the page and he proceeds to talk about driving through my city.What........the fuck? I'm looking around, I'm like yo,is somebody fucking with me...lol...It was weird.I don't live in a real well known or commonly spoke about city so seeing that pop up right then and there was fuckin' crazy.
So in my last blog entry I posted my first video featuring the first collection of photos I have taken.The name of the song in the video is ''Embrace the Nothing.'' I always close my blog entries with music,I find it fitting. For my last post I chose the song ''Divinity of Loneliness''. I chose that song because early that day I had gone out for a walk with the intentions of taking some photos.Before I left,I was looking through my cd's trying to decide what to listen to when I came across an album I hadn't listened to in ages,I mean a long time.. Later that evening when I was making my entry I decided to close with a song I had listened to earlier off of that album.I get the whole entry complete and decided to listen to the song once more before I submitted the post.As the song is coming to a close,I didn't notice this at first,but the last lyrics in that song are 'embrace the nothing'. Wtf? He screams it three times. I'm listening and I hear him say the words but it didn't click until the last time he screamed it.It was almost like he was trying to come across.Like listen mother fucker,how many times do I have to scream this? How often do you here the phrase 'embrace the nothing'? Not often. I just find that interesting because the odds of that happening are fuckin' astronomical. Coincidence I guess. I felt compelled to mention that.
Beofre I went on a rant I was in process of listing my goals and will proceed to do so. Again,some are material and some immaterial. A job, obviously, but I don't want to go in depth as far as that goes. I want to move out of this apartment.Too much of hard times just being couped up in this building. Realistically I can't move until I have a job and can save some money but I would like it to be by next summer. As far as where,I'm not sure.Ultimately I'd like to someday own my own house.That's kind of what I was saving my money for originally before this shit happened.It was only 30 grand that I lost,I'm anxious to move on from zero and start all over again. For now though,I'd like to relocate to a different city and some new scenary. Some place with an open view of the sky if possible. I bought a telescope not this past summer but the summer prior and haven't even used it yet.It's a pretty good size and kind of a pain to lug around so a place where I could go out my back door or on a balcony would be even better.
What else? Material stuff? I'd like an early 90's Mustang GT.I love that square body style with the kit. Yeah. Black with black and grey cloth interior,302,five speed,sick exhaust.I might have to go up to my old shop and come out of retirement.I'd be like yo,how about you let me use the bender and the welder so I can make something pretty. Hell yeah,true duals from the motor back with flowmaster mufflers. I could probably find one of those for 5-6 grand. Maybe I'll make it happen.I'd have to customize the stereo system but would have to think how.Sound clarity would definately be a priority but I'm not sure how extreme I'd do the subs. They have limited space in the rear so maybe three 12's if they'd fit. If not though,I could always rip out the back seat and through 4 15's on a wall. 🙂 The first car I ever owned was a 1986 civic and I had 4 15's on a wall.
What else? I'm not really a material type person and what I really want I can't have. I just want my old life back,at least parts of it,the ability to do certain things. That's a great lead in to my immaterial goals. I want to find balance in this new me.To be in a better place not only for me but the people around me as well. Through whatever, I always tried and still try to be there for the few close people I have in my life but for a long time now parts of me haven't been there. It's like I'm there but I'm not.I just know that the time is going to come and I'm going to have to show some people the way.I have a lot of good to offer and I want to be all there if need be.I used to be a very positive person and I'd like to embody and project that again.
There's a few things for now I guess and in time I'll build on that.I forgot to mention there's like 10-15 cd's and a book that I've wanted for a while so I'll add them to the material stuff.Before I end this I wanted to post my thoughts on the fight tomorrow.Cain vs Junior is a fantastic matchup and one that fight fans has been looking forward to for quite some time.This is truely the best heavyweight bout,as far as talent goes,that we've seen in a while.Maybe the best since Barnett and Minotauro fought in Pride back in 2006.The HW division is possibly the weakest division as far as depth of talent so when a fight like this comes along it's creates quite the buzz and people take notice.
Both fighters are undefeated inside the Octagon and have looked impressive in victory.I've been a fan of Cigano for a while and like him to take the belt. While Cain is an impressive athlete,I'm not completely sold on the hype surrounding him but maybe he'll prove me wrong. His cardio is praised as amazing and otherworldy but in his nine fights, he's only been outside the first round three times with one of those going the full three rounds and the other two ending in the second.Cain also hasn't competed since UFC 121 and he will be returning from an extended layoff due to injury only to face the toughest opponent of his career.
On the other hand,JDS is a knockout machine who consistantly shows improvement in his overall skillset.In his last fight with Carwin,Junior not only punished him on the feet but dispalyed some great takedowns late in the third round which is an aspect of his game that we hadn't seen previously. I believe Junior's devastating punching power combined with great takedown defense and an underappreciated level of athleticism will earn him the victory on Saturday night.Cigano by T(KO) but it should be fantastic fight and one that many fight fans are salivating for. Then following the UFC's groundbreaking network debut,we'll be treated to a fight inside the ring featuring the greatest boxer competing in the sport today, Manny Pacquiao.
Time for my favorite part of the post,the music.I'll close this with a fuckin' kickass song by Hotrod Frankie and a classic from The Man in Black.
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In the days to follow,I ended up purchasing a bottle of valerian root from the pharmacy.Not for the dream aspect but for the possible relaxation and sleep benefits. I took them the first night and it did help me fall asleep. The next morning I woke up like any other day but had the notion to go to the library. I hadn't been to the library in years,even though it is right down the road. The idea came to mind,but with it also came the thought that in doing so it might change my life.It was strange.It's like,I thought about it, then I was like no,but then I felt that sense to just do it,like something just comes over you.
So I head down there,get signed up again because it's been a long time,and proceed to search for anything interesting that might present itself.I came across one book about the nuclear disaster in Chelyabinsk in the former Soviet Union. I've always had an interest in nuclear disasters for some reason,I've read a ton on Chernobyl.So I grab that book and look around for one more since the limit would be two books for my first visit. I'm going through all the aisles looking for something that might peak my interest and get all the way to last aisle on the floor I was on when I see a book on dreams laying off to the side. At this point I'm thinking this is very strange.For the past few days 'dreams' has been shoving itself in my face.I pick up the book, briefly read the back cover and decided fuck it,I'll just grab it.So I had my two books and headed back down Second Street.
Later that day I began to read the book on the Soviet disaster. Over the next two days I got about halfway through the book and become disinterested.It wasn't doing it for me so I decide to try the other book. I had no expectations regarding this book whatsoever,none at all.After I finished the introduction I knew that this book would undoubtedly impact my life.I was immediately sucked right in. Without getting to into it,the book touches on understanding your dreams and what's to be learned from them,the thought of coincidence and how things happen and certain rhythyms and symbols in life.It's a very fascinating book. I'm layin' there and reading and thinking about the coincidence of how I came across the book.The herbs and seeing 'dreams' mentioned everywhere,then waking up with the thought of going to the library basically coming out of nowhere,then dismissing the thought only to be overcome with an undeniable intuition to just go.So I'm just chillin' there thinking and as I'm thinking,I turn the page and he proceeds to talk about driving through my city.What........the fuck? I'm looking around, I'm like yo,is somebody fucking with me...lol...It was weird.I don't live in a real well known or commonly spoke about city so seeing that pop up right then and there was fuckin' crazy.
So in my last blog entry I posted my first video featuring the first collection of photos I have taken.The name of the song in the video is ''Embrace the Nothing.'' I always close my blog entries with music,I find it fitting. For my last post I chose the song ''Divinity of Loneliness''. I chose that song because early that day I had gone out for a walk with the intentions of taking some photos.Before I left,I was looking through my cd's trying to decide what to listen to when I came across an album I hadn't listened to in ages,I mean a long time.. Later that evening when I was making my entry I decided to close with a song I had listened to earlier off of that album.I get the whole entry complete and decided to listen to the song once more before I submitted the post.As the song is coming to a close,I didn't notice this at first,but the last lyrics in that song are 'embrace the nothing'. Wtf? He screams it three times. I'm listening and I hear him say the words but it didn't click until the last time he screamed it.It was almost like he was trying to come across.Like listen mother fucker,how many times do I have to scream this? How often do you here the phrase 'embrace the nothing'? Not often. I just find that interesting because the odds of that happening are fuckin' astronomical. Coincidence I guess. I felt compelled to mention that.
Beofre I went on a rant I was in process of listing my goals and will proceed to do so. Again,some are material and some immaterial. A job, obviously, but I don't want to go in depth as far as that goes. I want to move out of this apartment.Too much of hard times just being couped up in this building. Realistically I can't move until I have a job and can save some money but I would like it to be by next summer. As far as where,I'm not sure.Ultimately I'd like to someday own my own house.That's kind of what I was saving my money for originally before this shit happened.It was only 30 grand that I lost,I'm anxious to move on from zero and start all over again. For now though,I'd like to relocate to a different city and some new scenary. Some place with an open view of the sky if possible. I bought a telescope not this past summer but the summer prior and haven't even used it yet.It's a pretty good size and kind of a pain to lug around so a place where I could go out my back door or on a balcony would be even better.
What else? Material stuff? I'd like an early 90's Mustang GT.I love that square body style with the kit. Yeah. Black with black and grey cloth interior,302,five speed,sick exhaust.I might have to go up to my old shop and come out of retirement.I'd be like yo,how about you let me use the bender and the welder so I can make something pretty. Hell yeah,true duals from the motor back with flowmaster mufflers. I could probably find one of those for 5-6 grand. Maybe I'll make it happen.I'd have to customize the stereo system but would have to think how.Sound clarity would definately be a priority but I'm not sure how extreme I'd do the subs. They have limited space in the rear so maybe three 12's if they'd fit. If not though,I could always rip out the back seat and through 4 15's on a wall. 🙂 The first car I ever owned was a 1986 civic and I had 4 15's on a wall.
What else? I'm not really a material type person and what I really want I can't have. I just want my old life back,at least parts of it,the ability to do certain things. That's a great lead in to my immaterial goals. I want to find balance in this new me.To be in a better place not only for me but the people around me as well. Through whatever, I always tried and still try to be there for the few close people I have in my life but for a long time now parts of me haven't been there. It's like I'm there but I'm not.I just know that the time is going to come and I'm going to have to show some people the way.I have a lot of good to offer and I want to be all there if need be.I used to be a very positive person and I'd like to embody and project that again.
There's a few things for now I guess and in time I'll build on that.I forgot to mention there's like 10-15 cd's and a book that I've wanted for a while so I'll add them to the material stuff.Before I end this I wanted to post my thoughts on the fight tomorrow.Cain vs Junior is a fantastic matchup and one that fight fans has been looking forward to for quite some time.This is truely the best heavyweight bout,as far as talent goes,that we've seen in a while.Maybe the best since Barnett and Minotauro fought in Pride back in 2006.The HW division is possibly the weakest division as far as depth of talent so when a fight like this comes along it's creates quite the buzz and people take notice.
Both fighters are undefeated inside the Octagon and have looked impressive in victory.I've been a fan of Cigano for a while and like him to take the belt. While Cain is an impressive athlete,I'm not completely sold on the hype surrounding him but maybe he'll prove me wrong. His cardio is praised as amazing and otherworldy but in his nine fights, he's only been outside the first round three times with one of those going the full three rounds and the other two ending in the second.Cain also hasn't competed since UFC 121 and he will be returning from an extended layoff due to injury only to face the toughest opponent of his career.
On the other hand,JDS is a knockout machine who consistantly shows improvement in his overall skillset.In his last fight with Carwin,Junior not only punished him on the feet but dispalyed some great takedowns late in the third round which is an aspect of his game that we hadn't seen previously. I believe Junior's devastating punching power combined with great takedown defense and an underappreciated level of athleticism will earn him the victory on Saturday night.Cigano by T(KO) but it should be fantastic fight and one that many fight fans are salivating for. Then following the UFC's groundbreaking network debut,we'll be treated to a fight inside the ring featuring the greatest boxer competing in the sport today, Manny Pacquiao.
Time for my favorite part of the post,the music.I'll close this with a fuckin' kickass song by Hotrod Frankie and a classic from The Man in Black.
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