...Twas a foolish man, who learned from past mistakes naught.
It's a fine Thursday morning as I gaze upon a frosty beer,waiting to be consumed. 🙂...Twas also a foolish who spilled some beer on his lap,WTF? 😱
It's like 2:30 AM,I'm drinking,my lap is wet,and I'm listening to Eminem's ''25 To Life''. That's what's what.I attended and participated,if you can call it that,in an Aikido class today,or actually yesterday now.Wow I'm drunk.Anyways,I tried this thing out and I don't know what to make of it.I don't fuckin' know.I don't know anything anymore...lol.I knew the sensei prior,which is how I learned of it, and told him what the deal was.I'm like listen,my neck is ruined,my back is gonna be reconstructed shortly, but despite it all,I need something positive in my life.That sounds all to familiar,and it didn't work out to well last time.
I don't what to do. It was nice putting the gi back on but it brought back a lot. In some ways it was a reminder,a harsh reminder, of ....fuckin' reality I guess. It's like I'm sentenced to live and rot in this broken fuckin' body. Now it's buried beneath a mountain of bullshit,but somewhere I still have a trace of ambition left.You know,that old drive,that old fierce hunger that translates into all areas of life.I'm forced to contain it, and it's dyin',along with the rest of me.
Mirrors can be all telling.I was in the changing room at the place tonight,yesterday,whatever,and I looked bad,really fuckin' bad.A pain ridden face,skinny as all fuckin' hell,that's all I saw.I tell myself that I'm in good shape but I'm not.All things considered,I work out what I can and as hard as I can,but it ain't good,on any level.
That's it. I'm gonna drink what I got left,maybe not sleep tonight,and go to my appointment in the morning.I suppose I should close this with some music....This a good one,great group, from I think Germany.This vid is fuckin' awesome,hypnotizing.
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It's a fine Thursday morning as I gaze upon a frosty beer,waiting to be consumed. 🙂...Twas also a foolish who spilled some beer on his lap,WTF? 😱
It's like 2:30 AM,I'm drinking,my lap is wet,and I'm listening to Eminem's ''25 To Life''. That's what's what.I attended and participated,if you can call it that,in an Aikido class today,or actually yesterday now.Wow I'm drunk.Anyways,I tried this thing out and I don't know what to make of it.I don't fuckin' know.I don't know anything anymore...lol.I knew the sensei prior,which is how I learned of it, and told him what the deal was.I'm like listen,my neck is ruined,my back is gonna be reconstructed shortly, but despite it all,I need something positive in my life.That sounds all to familiar,and it didn't work out to well last time.
I don't what to do. It was nice putting the gi back on but it brought back a lot. In some ways it was a reminder,a harsh reminder, of ....fuckin' reality I guess. It's like I'm sentenced to live and rot in this broken fuckin' body. Now it's buried beneath a mountain of bullshit,but somewhere I still have a trace of ambition left.You know,that old drive,that old fierce hunger that translates into all areas of life.I'm forced to contain it, and it's dyin',along with the rest of me.
Mirrors can be all telling.I was in the changing room at the place tonight,yesterday,whatever,and I looked bad,really fuckin' bad.A pain ridden face,skinny as all fuckin' hell,that's all I saw.I tell myself that I'm in good shape but I'm not.All things considered,I work out what I can and as hard as I can,but it ain't good,on any level.
That's it. I'm gonna drink what I got left,maybe not sleep tonight,and go to my appointment in the morning.I suppose I should close this with some music....This a good one,great group, from I think Germany.This vid is fuckin' awesome,hypnotizing.
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