Alright...I don't usually blog...but I seriously need to just get things out of my head for right now.
First order of business:
I was "outed". Basically, a bad judgement in trust lead to a betrayal by a "friend", and now I'm the talk of the town. Honestly, this seemed like a much bigger deal 2 days ago, but right now I don't even care about it anymore, because
Second order of business:
So I was out with my boyfriend last evening. We were at a community theatre production and he kept getting phone calls from his uncle. On the fourth call he realized he needed to answer and he was given probably the worst news anyone could ever receive in a phone call. His father had been murdered. I'm not going to get into details because I feel like I shouldn't even be putting this out on a public forum, but I DO need to vent.
I don't even know where to begin. First off, this is a new relationship so I don't know exactly where I stand in this boy's life. I've offered to help in any way possible, but I feel like I'm doing absolutely NOTHING to help him. I can't even begin to fathom what he's experiencing right now. I guess all I can do is thank God for the fact that my parents are alive and healthy. The whole situation is so tragic and it makes me wonder how someone could possibly take another person's life. It's also scary close to home, ya know? You read these things in the paper and see them on the news, but you never think it will happen to someone you care about or you are close to. I just wish there was something I could do to help. I feel like I'm just sitting here doing nothing as I watch him writhe in agonizing pain. I really don't know what the point of this post is. I guess I'm just realizing how truly blessed I am. It feels like all the petty shit means nothing now. This is real life, and horrible things can happen to anyone.
yeah...I guess that's it. Now I need to figure out something to go do so I stay out of the way and remain helpful...whatever that means.
First order of business:
I was "outed". Basically, a bad judgement in trust lead to a betrayal by a "friend", and now I'm the talk of the town. Honestly, this seemed like a much bigger deal 2 days ago, but right now I don't even care about it anymore, because
Second order of business:
So I was out with my boyfriend last evening. We were at a community theatre production and he kept getting phone calls from his uncle. On the fourth call he realized he needed to answer and he was given probably the worst news anyone could ever receive in a phone call. His father had been murdered. I'm not going to get into details because I feel like I shouldn't even be putting this out on a public forum, but I DO need to vent.
I don't even know where to begin. First off, this is a new relationship so I don't know exactly where I stand in this boy's life. I've offered to help in any way possible, but I feel like I'm doing absolutely NOTHING to help him. I can't even begin to fathom what he's experiencing right now. I guess all I can do is thank God for the fact that my parents are alive and healthy. The whole situation is so tragic and it makes me wonder how someone could possibly take another person's life. It's also scary close to home, ya know? You read these things in the paper and see them on the news, but you never think it will happen to someone you care about or you are close to. I just wish there was something I could do to help. I feel like I'm just sitting here doing nothing as I watch him writhe in agonizing pain. I really don't know what the point of this post is. I guess I'm just realizing how truly blessed I am. It feels like all the petty shit means nothing now. This is real life, and horrible things can happen to anyone.
yeah...I guess that's it. Now I need to figure out something to go do so I stay out of the way and remain helpful...whatever that means.
