I made a mistake

I recently joined TMF I was trying hard to make friends and befriended a very nice woman, name will not be mentioned. I thought she wanted a friend but after awhile felt I was a joke to her. I enjoyed her because I can't talk about my tickling fetish to anyone. She understood. But something went wrong. I became clingy, obsessive, whiny, and a jerk. I emailed her once 9 times in one day. Things turned sour in a matter of 3 days. I couldn't make friends but seemed to have no problem making enemies. I made a second enemy 2 days ago. It is obvious I'm approaching TMF the wrong way. I can't open up at home and need TMF as an outlet. I'm sorry for those I wronged but unfortunately they will not hear of it. I'm uncomfortable in the chat room when they are present for fear I again will say the wrong thing. I guess what I'm trying to say is relax and have fun. How does the saying go you can catch more flies with vinegar than honey. I hope I can start new and given a second chance