It's weird, y'know? Among other things, I do consider myself to be a completely kinky bastard, and I've had things done to me that many people on this site would shudder at the mere mention of (needles being pushed through my nipples, anyone?). And, let's be honest, I tend to be quite blazé about it all.
"Oooo, BDSM this, kinky activities that..."
And so on, and so forth.
But for all the stuff that I've done, tickling is something that I find (relatively) difficult to talk about in real life, because it's something so inherently wired into my psyche, because I'm afraid I'll be judged about the pleasure I get from it, etc. You know, the stuff that a lot of us on this forum struggle with because this tickling is a sexual activity for us, and as such we have similar insecurities about it.
I have another kink that I'm similarly quiet about, not only because of the same reasons that I keep schtum about tickling, but because until recently, I was blocking that part of my sexuality out of my mind, possibly due to shame.
I'm a Crossdresser!
At least, I want to be.
Having few items of womens clothing available to me, it's not exactly something I've been able to indulge in. I'm hopeless at putting makeup on, and anytime I've gotten someone to put eyeliner on me I can't stop flinching because I don't like things going in my eye. Especially pencils.
That said, I want to explore this oldskool fetish of mine a bit further, to the point that, sans beard, I could pass somewhat as a not-incredibly-ugly woman. 😀
It's taken me a long time to get to the point of admitting this kink to myself, and I've still got ways to go before I become properly comfortable with it, but it's a start, and that's something.
Thanks for taking the time to read, feel free to PM me with any questions/advice etc. 🙂
