So I'll be attending NEST for the first time. This is going to be my very first gathering so aside from the natural fear or uneasiness that comes from that. I hold even more nervousness than most people probably realize.
Am I excited? of course. I have always wanted to attend a gathering, just never thought I'd ever make one and then there's the OMG nerves that drive me insane.
I don't except anyone to understand where I am coming from. My mind can be a scary place sometimes and most of my fears can be labeled as "insane or crazy" by most people's standards.
It's been years since I joined this place under a screen name that to this day eludes me. Since that time I have made a lot of connections with people so I should be happy right? I get to meet these people so there shouldn't be any worry.
I am terrified that once people meet me in person whether I have connected with them or not their going to see me differently and change their opinion they once had of me. CRAZY RIGHT? I am afraid of being rejected, which is stupid because that happens in every day life all the time but it really bothers me. I am trying to shake it but I can't.
I know for a fact that when the pilot tells us that we will be landing in Philly, that I am going to freak. LOL! I just have alot of nerves. I am hoping they'll be relieved but until then I can only guess how its going to feel.
I'm just going to do my best to keep calm and hope that its good enough and pray that my fear will be relieved.
Thanks to those who read about this and my crazy mind. I am just nervous. surely you can understand at least partly where I am coming from. I'm just hoping for the best.
-Chey
Am I excited? of course. I have always wanted to attend a gathering, just never thought I'd ever make one and then there's the OMG nerves that drive me insane.
I don't except anyone to understand where I am coming from. My mind can be a scary place sometimes and most of my fears can be labeled as "insane or crazy" by most people's standards.
It's been years since I joined this place under a screen name that to this day eludes me. Since that time I have made a lot of connections with people so I should be happy right? I get to meet these people so there shouldn't be any worry.
I am terrified that once people meet me in person whether I have connected with them or not their going to see me differently and change their opinion they once had of me. CRAZY RIGHT? I am afraid of being rejected, which is stupid because that happens in every day life all the time but it really bothers me. I am trying to shake it but I can't.
I know for a fact that when the pilot tells us that we will be landing in Philly, that I am going to freak. LOL! I just have alot of nerves. I am hoping they'll be relieved but until then I can only guess how its going to feel.
I'm just going to do my best to keep calm and hope that its good enough and pray that my fear will be relieved.
Thanks to those who read about this and my crazy mind. I am just nervous. surely you can understand at least partly where I am coming from. I'm just hoping for the best.
-Chey
