heather went to michigan yesterday to visit family and friends. i couldn't go with because we couldn't afford it. so i'm stuck in the house for 4 days with two cats that hate each other and are constantly trying to kill one another. saturday night i worked, came home sunday morning, took heather to the airport, got 4 hours of sleep and then was up until 1030 sunday night. i was awkaen by the cats fighting at 5am this morning and have been up since. its now almost 1am, tuesday morning and, while completely fucking exausted to the point of mental breakdown, i can't bring myself to go to bed. first of all, i sleep on the couch when heather's not here. i simply can not sleep in the bed. you'd think that after 16 years of being together, married for coming up on 13 years, that it'd be no problem for me to sleep in my bed. but when she's not here, i worry about her so muc and i miss her terribly. i don't sleep right, i don't eat right, i hardly do anything. i have separation anxiety like a damn dog! anyway, looks like it'll be a long night. i'm supposed to go to bootcamp in the morning but i don't think that's happening.
i can't wait until wednesday night when she comes home 🙁
i can't wait until wednesday night when she comes home 🙁
