I want to run away really, really, REALLY badly.
I don't know where ... I don't care where. I just want to get on a bus and just ... go. Start over. Just for awhile. A month.
That would be fabulous.
I'd leave my family a note. Yeah, a note. A real long note explaining everything. I would tell them not to worry or look for me. I'd assure them I would be back and that I can do this. That I need to do this. Hell, I'm the weird one in my family anyways ... they have to be expecting this from me.
I would get into the band scene. I would go to local concerts with unknown bands. Every night just escape to the music world. I could film it, too. Just film the whole experience.
Since it'd only be for a month ... I'd stay at a cheap motel. I'd get a crappy day job at some Walgreen's. It wouldn't even matter. Because I wouldn't be here. I'd be there ... away from it all.
To be able to just dive into that lifestyle. Just forget everything about my past. Forget about my future. Just live in the moment. Never caring or worrying about ... anything.All my emotions, thoughts, feelings ... I would leave them in Columbus. I wouldn't dare take them with me.
I bet it'd make me so much more independent. I could grow up so much. Not depend on my mom to get me through everything. I could do it all. I would change so much ... but for the better.
Fuck it.
I'm gonna do it. One day.
I don't know where ... I don't care where. I just want to get on a bus and just ... go. Start over. Just for awhile. A month.
That would be fabulous.
I'd leave my family a note. Yeah, a note. A real long note explaining everything. I would tell them not to worry or look for me. I'd assure them I would be back and that I can do this. That I need to do this. Hell, I'm the weird one in my family anyways ... they have to be expecting this from me.
I would get into the band scene. I would go to local concerts with unknown bands. Every night just escape to the music world. I could film it, too. Just film the whole experience.
Since it'd only be for a month ... I'd stay at a cheap motel. I'd get a crappy day job at some Walgreen's. It wouldn't even matter. Because I wouldn't be here. I'd be there ... away from it all.
To be able to just dive into that lifestyle. Just forget everything about my past. Forget about my future. Just live in the moment. Never caring or worrying about ... anything.All my emotions, thoughts, feelings ... I would leave them in Columbus. I wouldn't dare take them with me.
I bet it'd make me so much more independent. I could grow up so much. Not depend on my mom to get me through everything. I could do it all. I would change so much ... but for the better.
Fuck it.
I'm gonna do it. One day.
- So...yeah.
Wednesday, August 3rd 2011
6:06PM
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