Another holiday season is upon us already.Although this isn't quite my favorite time of the year,I do want to start this post off on a thankful note.At times, life can seem like nothing more than a cold,hard,miserable existance,a burden that's seems more trouble than it's worth.If you choose to continue with it,you come to realize that things could always be worse,and more than likely things will eventually be worse.There's some motivational speaking if I ever heard any. 
With that thought in mind,I'm thankful for the way things are.I'm thankful that the people in my life,at least for the most part,have a comfortable level of stability in their lives.They're all healthy,with stable incomes and maintaining meaningful,fulfilling lives.I'm thankful that I still have a place to live,especially with the cold,unforgiving Northeast winter approaching. Sometimes I'm amazed that I've managed to keep this apartment as long as I have despite not having a job or real income in over two years.It's been a lot of cottage cheese dinners,that's for sure.My outlook may be pessimistic but it's genuine,Im thankful things aren't worse than they are.
On less serious note,I'm thankful for all of the websites that offer illegal streams of pay per views.Without them,many a Saturday night would be far less eventful.I'm thankful for the people at Dunkin' Donuts who get the French Vanilla's right.I'm also thankful that the lady across the street backed into my car a few weeks ago resulting in me recieving a check from her insurance company.Without that,my savings account statement would still have read, .11.
So I went to my mothers today for a Thanksgiving meal,just her and I. Personally I'm not a big holiday person,I never was.The season brings a special feeling unique to itself,but those which raise feelings of confliction in me. Anyway,we ate then I finally finished up the last bit of work that I had started over the summer.When I was working and before I got hurt I bought her like $1500 worth of hardwood floors that she wanted for her place.I got hurt and it all sat there for two years collecting dust,it pissed me off to look at.So this past summer I said fuck it,let me just deal with it and get it done.I chipped away at it little by little,two hours this day,three hours this day,I could only work so long before it was too much.
Aside from the floor,I steamed down the old wallpaper which turned out to be a real fuck story.WTF?You wanna talk about a cocksucker.Fuck.If getting that shit down wasn't bad enough,the walls underneath were straight fucked up.What I thought would be maybe one day of steaming that shit down and then painting,truly turned into a fuckin' task.Just me working a couple hours a few days a week,to put simply,it was a fuckin' bitch.Despite the fact that it was all a first me,installing the flooring,stripping the walls,repairing and sanding the walls,it all came out pretty good.On a scale of 1-10 I would give it a 8 - 8.5 and that's mainly because of what I was working with.That place is an older building and crooked as all hell,nothing is straight in there.There are some other projects I'm going to do but this last bitch is done.There's another thing I'm thankful for. 🙂
So I'm coming home from her place and when I get here the guy next door is also pulling up with several people in his SUV,two dudes a blonde girl. He's a bit older than me,in his late forties I think,and he's gay as all hell,but he's a cool dude.Anyway,I'm like what's up man?So we're talking for a second and while we're talking this girl is gawking my way.Like blatantly obvious,looking like she wants to gobble me up for Thanksgiving dessert.Well I don't if this one dude was her man or if he wanted to be her man,but he caught it to and was getting sour.He starts to put on a mean mug and try to look all hard.Get the fuck outta here.Talk about giving thanks,that dude would be thankful there's a hospital close by that could attempt to pull my foot out of his bitch ass for grilling me.Don't hate on me because your girl thinks I'm gorgeous.
Last week I went out to start accumulating photos for a new video,something that I've really come to enjoy.I took this pic which I thought was pretty wild....
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He was cool,I made a new friend.We were just talking and he was like,''You got any weed?''and I was like,''Pfft,I wish I had some fuckin' weed.We'd be smoking that shit right now.''..lol...It didn't quite go like that,but that would have made for a cool story huh? With that said,there's something I need to get off of my chest,a small rant but I'll keep it cool.
I'm sick of not being able to smoke pot.Seriously.For the last two and half years I've been unable to smoke weed with a free conscience(spelling) and it pisses me off.I've smoked maybe an eighth of pot since July of 2009 and quite frankly I'm not happy about it.Between not having a job and needing to be clean if one presents itself and dealing with my comp case in court and not knowing if they would want to drug test me,it sucks.I would truly and deeply enjoy smoking some of the greenest bud,wrapped ever so perfectly in the finest vanilla dutch that I could find in the nearest corner store.WTF? The doctors can give me all of these painkillers that are eating my insides, but I can't smoke some fuckin' weed. Fuck you. I truly look forward to the day when I can smoke some green bud in peace and look back at these shitty days. Years spent in pain,broke as fuck,life a mess and maybe a little weed would have helped.Would it have solved my problems,no and wouldn't expect it to,but,the perspective change may have helped me better assess and analyze the situation,just look at things differently.That's it,I don't even want to think about it anymore.
My last entry was a quick write up on then upcoming fight between Shogun and Hendo.What a fight that turned out to be,one of the best fights EVER.Shgoun almost pulled it off at the end which would have been miraculous,but a memorable fight nonetheless.I'll close this post with pair of great metal songs gone acoustic......
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With that thought in mind,I'm thankful for the way things are.I'm thankful that the people in my life,at least for the most part,have a comfortable level of stability in their lives.They're all healthy,with stable incomes and maintaining meaningful,fulfilling lives.I'm thankful that I still have a place to live,especially with the cold,unforgiving Northeast winter approaching. Sometimes I'm amazed that I've managed to keep this apartment as long as I have despite not having a job or real income in over two years.It's been a lot of cottage cheese dinners,that's for sure.My outlook may be pessimistic but it's genuine,Im thankful things aren't worse than they are.
On less serious note,I'm thankful for all of the websites that offer illegal streams of pay per views.Without them,many a Saturday night would be far less eventful.I'm thankful for the people at Dunkin' Donuts who get the French Vanilla's right.I'm also thankful that the lady across the street backed into my car a few weeks ago resulting in me recieving a check from her insurance company.Without that,my savings account statement would still have read, .11.
So I went to my mothers today for a Thanksgiving meal,just her and I. Personally I'm not a big holiday person,I never was.The season brings a special feeling unique to itself,but those which raise feelings of confliction in me. Anyway,we ate then I finally finished up the last bit of work that I had started over the summer.When I was working and before I got hurt I bought her like $1500 worth of hardwood floors that she wanted for her place.I got hurt and it all sat there for two years collecting dust,it pissed me off to look at.So this past summer I said fuck it,let me just deal with it and get it done.I chipped away at it little by little,two hours this day,three hours this day,I could only work so long before it was too much.
Aside from the floor,I steamed down the old wallpaper which turned out to be a real fuck story.WTF?You wanna talk about a cocksucker.Fuck.If getting that shit down wasn't bad enough,the walls underneath were straight fucked up.What I thought would be maybe one day of steaming that shit down and then painting,truly turned into a fuckin' task.Just me working a couple hours a few days a week,to put simply,it was a fuckin' bitch.Despite the fact that it was all a first me,installing the flooring,stripping the walls,repairing and sanding the walls,it all came out pretty good.On a scale of 1-10 I would give it a 8 - 8.5 and that's mainly because of what I was working with.That place is an older building and crooked as all hell,nothing is straight in there.There are some other projects I'm going to do but this last bitch is done.There's another thing I'm thankful for. 🙂
So I'm coming home from her place and when I get here the guy next door is also pulling up with several people in his SUV,two dudes a blonde girl. He's a bit older than me,in his late forties I think,and he's gay as all hell,but he's a cool dude.Anyway,I'm like what's up man?So we're talking for a second and while we're talking this girl is gawking my way.Like blatantly obvious,looking like she wants to gobble me up for Thanksgiving dessert.Well I don't if this one dude was her man or if he wanted to be her man,but he caught it to and was getting sour.He starts to put on a mean mug and try to look all hard.Get the fuck outta here.Talk about giving thanks,that dude would be thankful there's a hospital close by that could attempt to pull my foot out of his bitch ass for grilling me.Don't hate on me because your girl thinks I'm gorgeous.
Last week I went out to start accumulating photos for a new video,something that I've really come to enjoy.I took this pic which I thought was pretty wild....
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He was cool,I made a new friend.We were just talking and he was like,''You got any weed?''and I was like,''Pfft,I wish I had some fuckin' weed.We'd be smoking that shit right now.''..lol...It didn't quite go like that,but that would have made for a cool story huh? With that said,there's something I need to get off of my chest,a small rant but I'll keep it cool.
I'm sick of not being able to smoke pot.Seriously.For the last two and half years I've been unable to smoke weed with a free conscience(spelling) and it pisses me off.I've smoked maybe an eighth of pot since July of 2009 and quite frankly I'm not happy about it.Between not having a job and needing to be clean if one presents itself and dealing with my comp case in court and not knowing if they would want to drug test me,it sucks.I would truly and deeply enjoy smoking some of the greenest bud,wrapped ever so perfectly in the finest vanilla dutch that I could find in the nearest corner store.WTF? The doctors can give me all of these painkillers that are eating my insides, but I can't smoke some fuckin' weed. Fuck you. I truly look forward to the day when I can smoke some green bud in peace and look back at these shitty days. Years spent in pain,broke as fuck,life a mess and maybe a little weed would have helped.Would it have solved my problems,no and wouldn't expect it to,but,the perspective change may have helped me better assess and analyze the situation,just look at things differently.That's it,I don't even want to think about it anymore.
My last entry was a quick write up on then upcoming fight between Shogun and Hendo.What a fight that turned out to be,one of the best fights EVER.Shgoun almost pulled it off at the end which would have been miraculous,but a memorable fight nonetheless.I'll close this post with pair of great metal songs gone acoustic......
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