Not much good, actually!!! We 'lers are a sneaky lot, are we not? We literally are the snakes in the grass, the wolves in the woods, the up-to-no-good pigs every parent warns their daughters about. No one wants to see their daughters get tickled by some guy. They all know what tickling leads to. That's probably how they wound up having a daughter in the first place!!!
I'm about to play the victim in the next few posts, be warned, and I've spent most of the ensuing years proudly clinging on to the fact that I never cheated on a girlfriend. "Well, hey....at least I never cheated!" But what I see now, very clearly is that I never had any compunction hitting on people who were already in a relationship, including stealing them away from their boyfriends, or even fiancees! This has been revelatory, how many times I did this. I had no idea I was like this. None. I always thought I respected people's relationships!!! So what goes around comes around. I'll try to keep that in mind as I write the next bunch of posts, lest I fall in to "poor me".
I was a terrible boyfriend. At least sexually, matched up with a vanilla. I was so wrapped up with my tickle muses, I didn't always try to find out what they wanted. My last two long-term girlfriends both asked me to try anal sex with them, for instance, which is not my thing at all. I indulged each one of them exactly once. One of them wanted it so rough to the point of slapping and choking, which is not my thing and which I didn't indulge. Pulling her hair and biting her neck was about as much pain as I was able to administer.
But once I got the taste for hearing her talk about it, I would ask for it more than I should have. It should have been an occasional thing, a treat for me, something she did on her own volition. Maybe I'm randy and she's tired and so she appeases me by whispering in my ear. There were times I asked, and both girlfriends were so giving and accommodating, I should have just let them slip into it and surprise me. Instead of: "oh my god, tell me that hot story again....when the two guys got you on the bed....."
Selfish. Selfish behavior. I was young and stupid, I was in my 20s, that's all I can say. This wasn't ALL I was, or all I am. I also should remember that! In some ways, I was a heroic boyfriend! And I still am in close contact with every one of my ex-gfs, so maybe I should also take that into account before I go crucifying myself! They all came back to me, one by one. Hmmm. Hey, that's encouraging! That must mean something, right?
Every girl I ever had - even fleeting affairs - would always say "You're not like the other guys." Like the "Thriller" video, lol! They were right! They must have sensed that I wasn't checking out their breasts every two seconds, that I didn't have what all the other guys had on their brain. What they didn't know is that I had something else on the brain. So I really wasn't so different after all.
That "you're not like the other guys" thing, that's a big part of the luck I had with the opposite sex. And it also was usually my downfall! I might intrigue them, "what's this guy's deal?", and then..."oh.....so that's what you're into, is it?" lol. "So that's why you're not like the other guys...."
Have I learned anything else?
Tickling seems to follow me where ever I go, so many weird things that happened over the years....it makes you start to believe in the supernatural! Does this kind of stuff happen to you? I call to order food....the waitress taking my order starts getting tickled. I'm on the train with my girlfriend.....the train conductor tickles her. Stuff like that. People just starting to talk about it out of the blue.
I also need to come to terms with why it is I'm so interested in the girl I am in a relationship being tickled by other people. I think if you're a 'ler, you're naturally a voyeur. When you're tickling her, you often looking at her and taking it in, dispassionately. We're "removed", if we weren't "removed", we would stop the tickling at the first sign of distress. Also the discovery of a girls ticklishness is so freaking hot, and you can only go through that moment once.
Ah whatever, that's for another post, I'm getting tired of writing. Have I learned any good things about myself through doing this blog?
Hmmmm.
I don't think so!
I'm about to play the victim in the next few posts, be warned, and I've spent most of the ensuing years proudly clinging on to the fact that I never cheated on a girlfriend. "Well, hey....at least I never cheated!" But what I see now, very clearly is that I never had any compunction hitting on people who were already in a relationship, including stealing them away from their boyfriends, or even fiancees! This has been revelatory, how many times I did this. I had no idea I was like this. None. I always thought I respected people's relationships!!! So what goes around comes around. I'll try to keep that in mind as I write the next bunch of posts, lest I fall in to "poor me".
I was a terrible boyfriend. At least sexually, matched up with a vanilla. I was so wrapped up with my tickle muses, I didn't always try to find out what they wanted. My last two long-term girlfriends both asked me to try anal sex with them, for instance, which is not my thing at all. I indulged each one of them exactly once. One of them wanted it so rough to the point of slapping and choking, which is not my thing and which I didn't indulge. Pulling her hair and biting her neck was about as much pain as I was able to administer.
But once I got the taste for hearing her talk about it, I would ask for it more than I should have. It should have been an occasional thing, a treat for me, something she did on her own volition. Maybe I'm randy and she's tired and so she appeases me by whispering in my ear. There were times I asked, and both girlfriends were so giving and accommodating, I should have just let them slip into it and surprise me. Instead of: "oh my god, tell me that hot story again....when the two guys got you on the bed....."
Selfish. Selfish behavior. I was young and stupid, I was in my 20s, that's all I can say. This wasn't ALL I was, or all I am. I also should remember that! In some ways, I was a heroic boyfriend! And I still am in close contact with every one of my ex-gfs, so maybe I should also take that into account before I go crucifying myself! They all came back to me, one by one. Hmmm. Hey, that's encouraging! That must mean something, right?
Every girl I ever had - even fleeting affairs - would always say "You're not like the other guys." Like the "Thriller" video, lol! They were right! They must have sensed that I wasn't checking out their breasts every two seconds, that I didn't have what all the other guys had on their brain. What they didn't know is that I had something else on the brain. So I really wasn't so different after all.
That "you're not like the other guys" thing, that's a big part of the luck I had with the opposite sex. And it also was usually my downfall! I might intrigue them, "what's this guy's deal?", and then..."oh.....so that's what you're into, is it?" lol. "So that's why you're not like the other guys...."
Have I learned anything else?
Tickling seems to follow me where ever I go, so many weird things that happened over the years....it makes you start to believe in the supernatural! Does this kind of stuff happen to you? I call to order food....the waitress taking my order starts getting tickled. I'm on the train with my girlfriend.....the train conductor tickles her. Stuff like that. People just starting to talk about it out of the blue.
I also need to come to terms with why it is I'm so interested in the girl I am in a relationship being tickled by other people. I think if you're a 'ler, you're naturally a voyeur. When you're tickling her, you often looking at her and taking it in, dispassionately. We're "removed", if we weren't "removed", we would stop the tickling at the first sign of distress. Also the discovery of a girls ticklishness is so freaking hot, and you can only go through that moment once.
Ah whatever, that's for another post, I'm getting tired of writing. Have I learned any good things about myself through doing this blog?
Hmmmm.
I don't think so!
