Lately I've been spending some time in the chatroom, and I've been asked a few times why I go by shy_tickler. Well the short answer is I am very shy about my love of tickling. In most other aspects of my life I am very confident, and when I am engaged in tickling I am very dominant, it's mostly that I am terrified of people I know finding out.
I was raised Roman Catholic, so basically anything that felt good was bad. LOL I was sure that just my desire to render some ticklish girl helpless and tickle her crazy was a one way ticket to Hell. Then when I was around 15 years old my father found something I wrote about tickling, and he confronted me about it like I had some sort of mental illness....deviant was one of the words he used to describe me. He said I was sick, and that there was something wrong with me.....pervert was another word he used. He often used it to shame me when listing all the reasons I was strange and weird.
I struggled with trying to make sense of my love of tickling for a long time. I even tried to repress it, because I was sure no one else in the history of the world has ever felt the way I did about tickling (this was all before the internet). I really do consider myself a nice guy, I don't like confrontation, I go out of my way to do the right thing........so where did my desire to tie and tickle torture someone come from??? I finally figured out that it doesn't matter, this is who I am, and that as far as kinks go, tickling is pretty tame!
So there it is, that's why I go by shy_tickler. I'm doing well on getting past my issues of shame regarding tickling, but I'm not all the way there yet. At least now I know I'm not alone, and I'm not any more of a freak than anyone else - everybody has some little kink!
I was raised Roman Catholic, so basically anything that felt good was bad. LOL I was sure that just my desire to render some ticklish girl helpless and tickle her crazy was a one way ticket to Hell. Then when I was around 15 years old my father found something I wrote about tickling, and he confronted me about it like I had some sort of mental illness....deviant was one of the words he used to describe me. He said I was sick, and that there was something wrong with me.....pervert was another word he used. He often used it to shame me when listing all the reasons I was strange and weird.
I struggled with trying to make sense of my love of tickling for a long time. I even tried to repress it, because I was sure no one else in the history of the world has ever felt the way I did about tickling (this was all before the internet). I really do consider myself a nice guy, I don't like confrontation, I go out of my way to do the right thing........so where did my desire to tie and tickle torture someone come from??? I finally figured out that it doesn't matter, this is who I am, and that as far as kinks go, tickling is pretty tame!
So there it is, that's why I go by shy_tickler. I'm doing well on getting past my issues of shame regarding tickling, but I'm not all the way there yet. At least now I know I'm not alone, and I'm not any more of a freak than anyone else - everybody has some little kink!
