In response to Aimee's blog since I'm blocked from commenting apparently:
Would you leave this lifestyle if someone you loved told you to? Would you leave if you thought leaving would make the person you love happy? Would you choose love over tickling?
I've never felt like I was in love until I started dating the guy I'm with now.
I've never taken relationships seriously. Being with someone forever was never something I thought about. It was all going to end eventually so the fight wasn't worth it.
I lied about where I was going when I went to NEST. I lied about what I did that weekend and who I did it with. I lied my ass off and I didn't care.
When you find someone that makes you feel like you can't breathe when the thought of them leaving enters your mind, it changes everything you believed to be true.
I could give up tickling, sure. But I don't believe I could fall in love with someone who wanted me to do that.
Vinnie is a huge part of my life right now and I'd be in a worse place without him. He's not comfortable with the community aspect of the forum and many times over the past year I've contemplated my involvement. Perhaps it was too much. Unhealthy even.
If he told me it made him uncomfortable that I came to the forum, I'd compromise with him. I'd still talk to those people I'm close to outside of the forum on AIM or something and it would be hard to not be as involved, but I would do it.
Some may think that's silly, but it's reality. Relationships that mean something are about compromise and this place is a fantasyland. Gatherings aren't real life. They're a couple hours or a couple days taken out of reality. And I don't look down upon the people who attend or the people who live and breathe the TMF at all.
I just know that tickling is something easily explained. The community isn't. And lying to someone you're in love with is an awful feeling. Being away from them for a weekend, knowing they're driving themselves crazy with worry isn't great either and I'm not sure I can do that anymore.
People will say, "You can find someone better." Well, I've found something unbelievable and it might not last, but I really hope that it does. I'm not going to ruin what I have, what's perfect in every sense of the word, because he doesn't understand what a "tickling community" is.
People are going to disagree with this and that's fine. They aren't living my life. I just have to make decisions that are right for me.
Would you leave this lifestyle if someone you loved told you to? Would you leave if you thought leaving would make the person you love happy? Would you choose love over tickling?
I've never felt like I was in love until I started dating the guy I'm with now.
I've never taken relationships seriously. Being with someone forever was never something I thought about. It was all going to end eventually so the fight wasn't worth it.
I lied about where I was going when I went to NEST. I lied about what I did that weekend and who I did it with. I lied my ass off and I didn't care.
When you find someone that makes you feel like you can't breathe when the thought of them leaving enters your mind, it changes everything you believed to be true.
I could give up tickling, sure. But I don't believe I could fall in love with someone who wanted me to do that.
Vinnie is a huge part of my life right now and I'd be in a worse place without him. He's not comfortable with the community aspect of the forum and many times over the past year I've contemplated my involvement. Perhaps it was too much. Unhealthy even.
If he told me it made him uncomfortable that I came to the forum, I'd compromise with him. I'd still talk to those people I'm close to outside of the forum on AIM or something and it would be hard to not be as involved, but I would do it.
Some may think that's silly, but it's reality. Relationships that mean something are about compromise and this place is a fantasyland. Gatherings aren't real life. They're a couple hours or a couple days taken out of reality. And I don't look down upon the people who attend or the people who live and breathe the TMF at all.
I just know that tickling is something easily explained. The community isn't. And lying to someone you're in love with is an awful feeling. Being away from them for a weekend, knowing they're driving themselves crazy with worry isn't great either and I'm not sure I can do that anymore.
People will say, "You can find someone better." Well, I've found something unbelievable and it might not last, but I really hope that it does. I'm not going to ruin what I have, what's perfect in every sense of the word, because he doesn't understand what a "tickling community" is.
People are going to disagree with this and that's fine. They aren't living my life. I just have to make decisions that are right for me.
