Hey lee' n' lers,
Well, lately I have been making a return to all the things I should be doing, going to church, reading my Bible, etc. I know that the Bible says that is is sinful to lust after the flesh, and in the back of my mind I've always know that, but I guess I'm just now making an upfront connection between that and the foot tickling fetish I have nurtured for so many years. So, there seems to be a major confliction there. I just cannot imagine turning my back on this part of me, to deny it as something shameful. Are there any other christians out here that have gone through or are going through this same thing? Just looking for some input, from anybody really.
Ok, OP, this is what I think you should do: Choose to walk your own path and find your OWN definition of what it means to be a Christian; organized religion can fuck the hell off for reasons JUST like this!
I actually used to be a Christian myself when I was a wee little lad, but then I realized (like rhiannon mentioned) that the Bible is written by men. It is my belief that religious organizations such as the Vatican or whatnot, only exist to exploit people's faiths and gain money/power off of them. Furthermore I think the part about it being wrong to "lust for flesh" is in there only because it's "convenient". Back in the days they had limited resources, and if everyone had sex they would inevitably get kids since birthcontrol was absolutely unheard of, and then the population would increase too fast and everyone would starve, basically.
So yeah, don't take anything in there literally, because the writings are adapted to a society that thought that the Earth was flat and that science was a tool of satan. Hell, the Bible has probably been altered several times throughout history for purposes just like these, and that's why I ask of you: Please, please DON'T listen to the "religious elite", because as soon as there is a way to get money and power out of something, man will ALWAYS find a way to fuck it up with their greed. If you still want to be a Christian, then fine, but I think you are more likely to find the "true" faith by looking for it on your own.
You might think I'm being extremely cynical here, but let's look at it from a different perspective then: If you really think about it, you will be able to pretty easily tell what would be considered good and what would be considered bad... It's something a child could figure out most of the time, so why do you need a bunch of priests to help you with it? The answer is simple, you don't.
Is it wrong to kill? Yes, because someone suffers from it. Is it wrong to steal? Yes, because someone suffers from it. Is it wrong to indulge your fetish? No, not so long as it's consensual with anyone else who's involved. It is rather so, that if you deny your sexuality, then YOU suffer from it. And so to put this in the simplest way possible: "Now that can't be right!"
Give Satanism a chance. If God doesn't approve of your fetish, then go through one of his competitors just to piss him off.
Satanists aren't specifically anti-Christianity though. I should know, since I recently became one.
We're not devil-worshippers either. Maybe the LaVeyan Satanists are, on some level, but those guys are idiots. I'm shamed to say that I actually argued FOR them in some random thread here a while back, but that was before I had really taken a closer look at what they believe in. I was wrong, they're just a club of weak and gullible people who want to pretend that they're better than everyone else. Ugh... <_<
But seriously though, I'm a member of an order (currently pretty "underground") with it's own brand of Satanism, and to us it's more of a philosophy than a religion, so yay, it's win! Oh and sorry for wandering off topic I suppose. XD