I don't like my fetish

[JosephineBlack]

Wow, so... there's a lot to digest. No on can tell you how to feel, you're entitled to it. There's definitely aspects of the "fetish" that frustrate me, that sometimes leave me feeling out of control. Labels are just that - terms that people have come up with to explain things, but sexuality is an individual thing. Will you find your exact match, I don't know - I haven't found mine either. But what hurts is hearing how painful your experiences have been to this point - how much pain it feels like you direct towards yourself. I hope most of all that you can find some peace with yourself, just the way you are. That you can be patient with yourself, and forgive yourself for all the things that feel so wrong. I wish for you to find acceptance and to finally feel comfortable in your own skin, exactly as you are.

If you ever want to vent, feel free to send me a message. I can't relate exactly to your experiences, but I can be a good listener.