1.) Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing the right things right.
2.) Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Not always. But most of the time, yes.
3.) At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
I'd have to say NEST this year. Wasn't a good summer for feeling passionate or alive.
4.) Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
Yes, if only rarely.
5.) Who do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
My friends and most of my family. I place much greater value on the happiness of those I love than on my own. I try to express my love whenever I am able, whether it be by spending time with friends and family, seeing a shitty play with my sister, helping my best friends plan their wedding, or being there for a loved one in need. My door has always been open to those I love. Money, space, time, distance, none of it matters if someone I care for needs my help, my advice, my support or simply someone to talk to.
6.) Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Depends on the decision. Small decisions, like what movie to watch or where to go to eat, I don't care either way. But if it's a big decision, while I may seek advice from others, I will be the one making the decision.
7.) Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
A lot of foolish daydreams that only bring disappointment. A lot of anger at the world, for all the sufferig I can do nothing to fix. Hurt that will never be resolved, but will continue to drag me down forever if I don't let it go.
8.) What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
The latter. I have no taste for breaking hearts. It leaves a pit in my stomach, and guilt for hurting someone who cares about me gnaws at me for days.
9.) What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
My friends. I'll die before I give up on even one.
10.) What is your deepest regret?
I wish I had lived a life without regret. I wish I had taken all of the chances that shook me into silence. I wish, so many times, that I had spoken up. I wish I hadn't pushed anyone away. I wish I had been more open. I wish I had been more careful. I wish I had been less selfish. I wish I'd checked the window. I wish I hadn't made her hate me.
I can't get rid of my regrets. I can only live, trying not to make any more.