CapturedDoll
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So I'm bringing this up because of an experience I just had 2 nights ago. And if it can help someone else I'd like to share my story.
First off let me say I was diagnosed with Type 2 Bipolar Disorder about 5 years ago. And it's been an uphill battle ever since. I've been on medication since then. But medication doesn't always help me. Like the other night...
I got into an argument with my Gf. And I was already wasted on beer. I had been in a good mood all day up until this point. And then that happened. Suddenly I was so upset I started to lash out and cry my eyes out. And this kept going and going until I finally walked inside, grabbed a knife, and plunged into my chest.
I didn't go to the hospital because I can't afford it. And I'm taking care of the wound on my own. So far so good. I just hope its not infected. So far it doesn't seem to me.
Besides helping people, I just needed to vent this. Thankfully I have my Bf to help me. I DO have a Therapist who's great but I can only talk to him once a month because of the program I'm on to be able to afford my medication.
So since I have a bunch of friends here I feel safe enough to talk about this here. I wasn't going to but like I said if I can help peole with this post I'm more than happy to do it. Plus I'm still extremely depressed still.
If you are suicidal... there is help available. I can't say I'm out of my negative head space yet but I'm working on it.
Thanks for listening.
Doll
First off let me say I was diagnosed with Type 2 Bipolar Disorder about 5 years ago. And it's been an uphill battle ever since. I've been on medication since then. But medication doesn't always help me. Like the other night...
I got into an argument with my Gf. And I was already wasted on beer. I had been in a good mood all day up until this point. And then that happened. Suddenly I was so upset I started to lash out and cry my eyes out. And this kept going and going until I finally walked inside, grabbed a knife, and plunged into my chest.
I didn't go to the hospital because I can't afford it. And I'm taking care of the wound on my own. So far so good. I just hope its not infected. So far it doesn't seem to me.
Besides helping people, I just needed to vent this. Thankfully I have my Bf to help me. I DO have a Therapist who's great but I can only talk to him once a month because of the program I'm on to be able to afford my medication.
So since I have a bunch of friends here I feel safe enough to talk about this here. I wasn't going to but like I said if I can help peole with this post I'm more than happy to do it. Plus I'm still extremely depressed still.
If you are suicidal... there is help available. I can't say I'm out of my negative head space yet but I'm working on it.
Thanks for listening.
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