First of all, let me just say that I'm the weirdest fucker I know. There's no self-incrimination in that statement. I've worked long and hard to embrace my weirdness and love it. Of course, I'm here because I have our common fetish, and like so many here, I have a foot fetish as well. I also have a cuckold fetish -- something that rarely mixes wtih a tickling fetish. It does exist, though, and I've read some wonderful stories here and I've even connected with some people here on that topic. The desire to see a partner tickled by someone else, someone I would feel intense jelousy towards, is a huge turn on for me. The thought of being bound and forced to watch it is even better.
But that's not what I came here to talk about. I have another fantasy that's even stranger. I've seen this hinted at in other forums, but never the way I've imagined it. I thought about putting this in the general forum, but decided to put it in here since there is a conenction to our shared fetish.
I call this it the Clockword Orange fantasy. It's simple, I'm tied to a bed and I'm left alone, forced to watch hours of porn -- our kind, of course, both in the form of still image slidehsows and videos. I don't go to the extreme of having my eyes pried open so I can't look away, but I have no control over how long the experience lasts, nor can I touch or stimulate myself in any way. I have to just watch. When I'm really in an extreme mood, I sometimes imagine being in a room with one or more other like-minded fetishists who also have to watch, our mutual arousal feeding the overall evergy in the room.
I've considered setting something up myself -- a self-bondage kind of thing. It can definitely be done, but I'm too scared to totally bind myself with no way out, even temporarily using an ice lock or a timed electronic restraint. I have visions of dying a grizzly death in a house fire and bringing shame to my loved ones by dying in what's obviously an auto-erotic experience gone wrong.
If I'm the only one who's had this extreme kind of fantasy, I'm ok with that. I just thought I would throw it out there as a conversation piece to see if it rang anyone else's bell.
But that's not what I came here to talk about. I have another fantasy that's even stranger. I've seen this hinted at in other forums, but never the way I've imagined it. I thought about putting this in the general forum, but decided to put it in here since there is a conenction to our shared fetish.
I call this it the Clockword Orange fantasy. It's simple, I'm tied to a bed and I'm left alone, forced to watch hours of porn -- our kind, of course, both in the form of still image slidehsows and videos. I don't go to the extreme of having my eyes pried open so I can't look away, but I have no control over how long the experience lasts, nor can I touch or stimulate myself in any way. I have to just watch. When I'm really in an extreme mood, I sometimes imagine being in a room with one or more other like-minded fetishists who also have to watch, our mutual arousal feeding the overall evergy in the room.
I've considered setting something up myself -- a self-bondage kind of thing. It can definitely be done, but I'm too scared to totally bind myself with no way out, even temporarily using an ice lock or a timed electronic restraint. I have visions of dying a grizzly death in a house fire and bringing shame to my loved ones by dying in what's obviously an auto-erotic experience gone wrong.
If I'm the only one who's had this extreme kind of fantasy, I'm ok with that. I just thought I would throw it out there as a conversation piece to see if it rang anyone else's bell.