Eternal Tomboy
TMF Master
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- Aug 5, 2001
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Like many of you, I remain closeted about my kink with 99% of the people in my life. Even friends that I normally share everything else with, this ONE secret always felt too intimate (and embarrassing) to share. I will talk about vanilla sex without a hint of shyness, but every time the conversation turns to kinks (as is sometimes the case when my girlfriends get together and have a few drinks), I will trip over my tongue and become mute. Since I was a little girl, I was never able to say the word tickle (or any variation of it) outloud. I know it's a common hang-up around here, but I've gotten to the point where it's starting to REALLY bother me because it's been inhibiting a lot of conversations - even with the 'lers I'm playing with.
Well, tonight I went out to dinner with a couple of very close girlfriends. They have been aware of the fact that I've been having these mysterious meet-ups with a few guys from the internet (don't know why I was totally fine about sharing THAT info, lol), but they didn't know what I was doing. The Q&A started and they couldn't understand how I could be meeting these guys and NOT having sex or even getting naked.
I finally got tired of tap dancing around the conversation. And then it just happened.... for the first time in FORTY-FIVE YEARS, I said the words "I enjoy getting tied down and tickled" OUTLOUD!!!! And surprisingly, the world didn't tilt off its axis or implode. The conversation went on and I was totally fine. BETTER than fine - I was spectacular! It was one of the most liberating things I've ever done (not sure if that's pathetic or not, lol). They asked some questions, I answered them (and repeated the dreaded t-word a couple more times!!), and it was fucking AMAZING.
The closet doors are open, people - and I'm coming out!
Well, tonight I went out to dinner with a couple of very close girlfriends. They have been aware of the fact that I've been having these mysterious meet-ups with a few guys from the internet (don't know why I was totally fine about sharing THAT info, lol), but they didn't know what I was doing. The Q&A started and they couldn't understand how I could be meeting these guys and NOT having sex or even getting naked.
I finally got tired of tap dancing around the conversation. And then it just happened.... for the first time in FORTY-FIVE YEARS, I said the words "I enjoy getting tied down and tickled" OUTLOUD!!!! And surprisingly, the world didn't tilt off its axis or implode. The conversation went on and I was totally fine. BETTER than fine - I was spectacular! It was one of the most liberating things I've ever done (not sure if that's pathetic or not, lol). They asked some questions, I answered them (and repeated the dreaded t-word a couple more times!!), and it was fucking AMAZING.
The closet doors are open, people - and I'm coming out!
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