Hello everyone,
I’d like to introduce myself. I’m a 18-year-old guy who enjoys tickling guys. This will be my first confession, maybe something like a practise for a real world.
Since I was 5-6 year old I liked tickling more than anyone else. And I didn’t even know what is sexuality and all… At first, when I begun to compreheand what am I, I ignored it, thinking that somehow it will change, it has to change, when I grow up. My head was full of dreams of me being with a girlfriend, enjoying as much as the others do… But that didn’t happen. I had girlfriends, but it just couldn’t work. So I turned to the only true thing I felt.
I started arranging schemes, and feeling really bad about it, for trying to tickle my schoolmates. But it didn’t really work, ever, because tickling over here is considered explicitely sexual, and I was afraid to be cast out of the gang if accused as gay, whom they treat really bad.
It has been very tough these 2-3 recent months. I keep trying, failing, my feelings to everything fade and I don’t know what to do with my life. I tried to start a conversation about this with my father, but after a few hints he just didn’t want to listen to it anymore. I’ll keep on, I think, and hope for better to come.
For those who read this through, those who don’t judge and blame for the reasons that are understandable (how many times I wished this to change, for me just to be normal), I just wanted to see if there is anyone else like me, facing same problems, maybe someone who is about my age (or not), so I could talk to him, share some of my misfortune and joy, and also hear of other peoples experiances. It would have been a lot easier for me to cope with this, to let it out of myself. I don’t have anyone to talk about it over here.
So, anyone who wants to exchange letters with me, can write me at [email protected]. I’m looking forward to your letter.
I’d like to introduce myself. I’m a 18-year-old guy who enjoys tickling guys. This will be my first confession, maybe something like a practise for a real world.
Since I was 5-6 year old I liked tickling more than anyone else. And I didn’t even know what is sexuality and all… At first, when I begun to compreheand what am I, I ignored it, thinking that somehow it will change, it has to change, when I grow up. My head was full of dreams of me being with a girlfriend, enjoying as much as the others do… But that didn’t happen. I had girlfriends, but it just couldn’t work. So I turned to the only true thing I felt.
I started arranging schemes, and feeling really bad about it, for trying to tickle my schoolmates. But it didn’t really work, ever, because tickling over here is considered explicitely sexual, and I was afraid to be cast out of the gang if accused as gay, whom they treat really bad.
It has been very tough these 2-3 recent months. I keep trying, failing, my feelings to everything fade and I don’t know what to do with my life. I tried to start a conversation about this with my father, but after a few hints he just didn’t want to listen to it anymore. I’ll keep on, I think, and hope for better to come.
For those who read this through, those who don’t judge and blame for the reasons that are understandable (how many times I wished this to change, for me just to be normal), I just wanted to see if there is anyone else like me, facing same problems, maybe someone who is about my age (or not), so I could talk to him, share some of my misfortune and joy, and also hear of other peoples experiances. It would have been a lot easier for me to cope with this, to let it out of myself. I don’t have anyone to talk about it over here.
So, anyone who wants to exchange letters with me, can write me at [email protected]. I’m looking forward to your letter.
