CapturedDoll
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Hello peeps, I hope everyone is well.
So this post has been a long time coming. I had truly hoped I wouldn’t have to make this at all.
So the past 3+years I have had a growing Litany of symptoms that has now led me to be told by my Gynologist back in January that I had started Peri Menopause. The pain has been unbearable for a very long time. Sleepless nights, hot flashes every night and during the day. Heavier and heavier periods Every month including last year my period climbing up to not just one a month, but 3. This last month I have been bleeding continuously. And the long term depression I’ve been in every month on and off has truly been a nightmare. Forgetfullness. Literal brain fog. And Insomnia. This has been going on for so long.
Just to be sure nothing else was wrong she sent me in for x-rays, blood tests etc. Especially since my Biological Mother passed away from Ovarian Cancer. Well, now that I have gone through all the tests (not all technically, I have other tests to be done on other parts of me coming in the next few months. Such as a mammogram which JUST came back to me normal thankfull!! Good news see? 🙂
But In the meantime…
So as it turns out I have tumours inside my uterus and cysts on my ovaries. It was finally recommended to me to have the full surgery. I never thought in my life I’d had a full Hysterectomy. (You can get partial. I didn’t know that before.) But now me. The whole enchilada is leaving the building. With everything I know now… I’m both scared but with hope for some relief. But not too much hope lest I’m disappointed. Seems to be 50/50 on womens experiences with this.
I’ve never been put under before. Never had more than tonsil surgery at 6! So that alone terrifies me.
It’s also going to be very uncomfortable knowing people are going to be doing major things to me and inside my body. Talk about feeling out of control and helpless. And invaded in a sense. I feel like Im in a horror movie! Unfortuanetly I’m the star in this. And it’s real.
So, It was scheduled for the end of this month but for some reason was rescheduled for November. Well guess what? I got the news early Monday that I’m still scheduled for next Monday. So not only have I been scrambling to make sure everything I need to get done is done. Which is a lot! Ill be down and recovering for quite a while. Tuesday I had to go to the dentist and have 3 back/ bottom teeth removed. I’d long put that off. I was told I needed to because IF my teeth were infected, and I had the surgery- it might lead to sepsis. So unbelievably I got an appt to have it all done the next day. Omg what a nightmare both in the chair and since then. Though today I’m not as bad finally. But its a lot to do to go through in one week. Including the armed robbery yesterday which really made me feel sick.
So, all this time these past few years, all this. And then I had to help a friend out for 5 months which was a bit of an ordeal. Him taking over the Dungeon was finally done because what was the point? I was in too much pain to do fucking zip. And one of my pug babies is pretty ill as well with a multitude of issues now at 5 ½. Its been absolutely heartbreaking. But Im doing the best I can to help her and keep her happy. Which takes up a lot of time everyday too. Besides just loving her time. And spend time with my other sweethearts as well.
So as much as I want to do all these projects I have started throughout these years, Which I truly do have every intention to follow through. You should see what I have already done and shot for the Don project. I was having so much fun last week! I actually felt decent enough to work on it. But as you can see I have been unable to even want to sit down and do it this week. How? I wish more than anything I had the time to get at least part 1 finished. But it’s just not meant to be right now. I’m out of time. I have too much still do to prepare for Mon.
So recovery will be long. 6-8 weeks. So I can’t do anything further for awhile. I can’t even drive! But Ill try to give some updates on my health progress. And maybe, just maybe, there’s a bright light waiting at the end of this long tunnel I’ve been on for so long. I just want to feel good on a fairly consistent basis. Not all this pain etc all the time.
So wish me luck, and hopefully I’ll see yall on the flipside to report back in!
<3 Always
Doll
P.S I can't really respond to messages for the most part. Haven't been able to for awhile. I hope you understand. Ill be able to again when the dust settles.
So this post has been a long time coming. I had truly hoped I wouldn’t have to make this at all.
So the past 3+years I have had a growing Litany of symptoms that has now led me to be told by my Gynologist back in January that I had started Peri Menopause. The pain has been unbearable for a very long time. Sleepless nights, hot flashes every night and during the day. Heavier and heavier periods Every month including last year my period climbing up to not just one a month, but 3. This last month I have been bleeding continuously. And the long term depression I’ve been in every month on and off has truly been a nightmare. Forgetfullness. Literal brain fog. And Insomnia. This has been going on for so long.
Just to be sure nothing else was wrong she sent me in for x-rays, blood tests etc. Especially since my Biological Mother passed away from Ovarian Cancer. Well, now that I have gone through all the tests (not all technically, I have other tests to be done on other parts of me coming in the next few months. Such as a mammogram which JUST came back to me normal thankfull!! Good news see? 🙂
But In the meantime…
So as it turns out I have tumours inside my uterus and cysts on my ovaries. It was finally recommended to me to have the full surgery. I never thought in my life I’d had a full Hysterectomy. (You can get partial. I didn’t know that before.) But now me. The whole enchilada is leaving the building. With everything I know now… I’m both scared but with hope for some relief. But not too much hope lest I’m disappointed. Seems to be 50/50 on womens experiences with this.
I’ve never been put under before. Never had more than tonsil surgery at 6! So that alone terrifies me.
It’s also going to be very uncomfortable knowing people are going to be doing major things to me and inside my body. Talk about feeling out of control and helpless. And invaded in a sense. I feel like Im in a horror movie! Unfortuanetly I’m the star in this. And it’s real.
So, It was scheduled for the end of this month but for some reason was rescheduled for November. Well guess what? I got the news early Monday that I’m still scheduled for next Monday. So not only have I been scrambling to make sure everything I need to get done is done. Which is a lot! Ill be down and recovering for quite a while. Tuesday I had to go to the dentist and have 3 back/ bottom teeth removed. I’d long put that off. I was told I needed to because IF my teeth were infected, and I had the surgery- it might lead to sepsis. So unbelievably I got an appt to have it all done the next day. Omg what a nightmare both in the chair and since then. Though today I’m not as bad finally. But its a lot to do to go through in one week. Including the armed robbery yesterday which really made me feel sick.
So, all this time these past few years, all this. And then I had to help a friend out for 5 months which was a bit of an ordeal. Him taking over the Dungeon was finally done because what was the point? I was in too much pain to do fucking zip. And one of my pug babies is pretty ill as well with a multitude of issues now at 5 ½. Its been absolutely heartbreaking. But Im doing the best I can to help her and keep her happy. Which takes up a lot of time everyday too. Besides just loving her time. And spend time with my other sweethearts as well.
So as much as I want to do all these projects I have started throughout these years, Which I truly do have every intention to follow through. You should see what I have already done and shot for the Don project. I was having so much fun last week! I actually felt decent enough to work on it. But as you can see I have been unable to even want to sit down and do it this week. How? I wish more than anything I had the time to get at least part 1 finished. But it’s just not meant to be right now. I’m out of time. I have too much still do to prepare for Mon.
So recovery will be long. 6-8 weeks. So I can’t do anything further for awhile. I can’t even drive! But Ill try to give some updates on my health progress. And maybe, just maybe, there’s a bright light waiting at the end of this long tunnel I’ve been on for so long. I just want to feel good on a fairly consistent basis. Not all this pain etc all the time.
So wish me luck, and hopefully I’ll see yall on the flipside to report back in!
<3 Always
Doll
P.S I can't really respond to messages for the most part. Haven't been able to for awhile. I hope you understand. Ill be able to again when the dust settles.
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