do i really want it?

[j0jab0]

i used to hate being tickled but after something that happened to me now i seem to love it so much that i would do almost anything to be tickled. i always wanted to be tied and tickled but i feel like if i REALLY was tied up i would revert back to hating to be tickled does this make sence??

 

[xSamanthax]

Makes plenty of sense. I have a love/hate thing with tickling too, lol.

What do you hate about it? Would being tied up amplify that? Or minimize it?

Example: One thing I hate, is being out of control of my body. So being tied up or held down actually helps - as I won't flop around like a fish, lol. I hate it when that happens, lol.

Might try some light bondage first - with a 'ler who you trust and who understands your concerns and is willing to take baby steps with the bondage aspects of it.

 

[j0jab0]

thanks for your input
i think i would like being tied up so i don't have control but then i just keep thinking that what if i can't take it and i never want to be tickled again
sometimes i like being able to move just to give me a break even for a split second

 

[xSamanthax]

That's where having a good foundation of communication with your 'ler comes into play.

You seem to be concerned about being pushed past your threshhold - it doesn't have to be like that. If you can't take it, you use your safeword and your 'ler stops until you are ready to go again. You are still in control of the situation, even if tied up. Being tied up just keeps your body under control.

Like I said, baby steps. Maybe try very light bondage (just your feet if they are ticklish, for example), for a very short time. See how it goes and take it from there. Being a bit nervous about bondage is pretty normal. Finding a good 'ler that you connect with goes a long way.

 

[rhiannon]

Like Samantha says, there's always your safeword. You can make the tickling stop immediately if you wish!