I'm with someone now who pushes me constantly. He found me on FetLife, and he wasn't into tickling, so I never expected our play to reach the level of intensity that it has. He loves tickling now, but before we met he was generally more into control and dominance. So he uses what I love to get what he loves. It's perfect
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Because we play more often than I have before, he's had time to explore my body and get to know it inside and out. He's found spots that I typically do my best to hide because they really are hard for me to tolerate, and ones that I didn't even know were there in the first place. And because we play more intimately and with more variety than I have before, he combines sensations in a way that completely blows my mind. I lose control more frequently and more sincerely than I ever have in the past, and psychologically that feeling takes me to new places. It's dizzying and intoxicating and excruciating and disorienting, and I usually am hoping that we finish soon thereafter. Usually we do, but not always as soon as I would like! LOL Oftentimes we play more playfully. The intensity is still there, but not so much that I'm really desperate for it to stop. I can just have fun and enjoy it. But very often he'll refer back to something that happened (usually something he made me say

) in a previous session or gently graze over a spot that he won't go after, but will just touch to remind me that it's there and he knows it and the only reason I'm not losing my mind and on the verge of tears is because that's how he wants it this time.
Whew...