Feel Lost, Depressed, Very Blah!

[Leeshy]

I've been a member here for I guess about 2 years now, and hardly ever post, but just felt the need or urge to just vent slightly, hope it's ok.

I just moved to CA (well 5 months ago), after meeting and eventually falling in love with someone online (actually met here), and that part is great, our relationship is wonderful. I just am having a lot of trouble hanging out here in the house all day alone, plus I also suffer from depression, so that is making things a bit worse for motivation of any kind. I also can't seem to find a job to save my life here, and in not having a job, I owe pretty much everyone I know a pretty decent amount of money. Pretty much the only bright spot of my day is when "my honey" comes home from work. I know everyone keeps telling me I'm just going through a rough spot and things will get better, but I'm still waiting. I guess it's also that I'm still adjusting living here, after living my whole life in another state 3000 miles away, kind of a big adjustment. I guess deep down I know that what people are saying to me is right, and things will eventually work themselves out, they better or else I'll have to be committed (sort of a joke).

I'm just kind of going stir crazy, with no job, no money and having the no money part doesn't help with just driving around and exploring, since gas prices are unbelievable, I can't afford to do that right now.

Ok, sorry - enough feeling sorry for myself I guess, at least for now. I don't expect any responses to this thread, it was just a way for me to vent. But I do plan on posting kind of regularly now, that might help me a bit from being bored.

Thanks

 

[slap'n'ticklee]

Hey there, its good that you've made a step in talking about how your feeling, I believe from reading your post that your loved ones are aware? If they are thats a great start. It will get better, you sound like you know what your about and its just the circumstances at present that are stopping you in doing what you want.

I wish you all the best and hope you are able to get a job soon, as that will be a great way to start your life in your new location. At least you have the support of your family etc.

I was in a similar position a few years ago, where I got depressed as I was made redundant from a job and gained a lot of weight, thus not wanting to leave the house, let alone look for another job, it got very bad for me then. You have to believe in yourself and move on, I managed to shake it off and hope you can to, you just need a break and one will surely come...

Take care and see ya around

 

[isabeau]

aww this thread is so sweet yet sad...i'm sorry you are depressed..moving, especially from as far away as you have will definitely have an effect on your moods...and also a strange new place...must be true love to motivate you to pack up everythiing and head cross country...i won't say hang in there it will get better...but i believe in time it will...by all means post more...i know i used the forum as an outlet through a bad year..hang on to your honey, sounds like a good honey to me....and if you need to vent more, feel free to pm me..

 

[cloudgazer2k]

i have been searching for a new job to replace the one i have now for quite some time. even with the job i have, i rarely have any spare cash. one good idea is to hit the 'net really, really hard and search for an occupation that best suits you. or, better yet, do what i am doing and find the website for the city you live in. there is almost always something for everyone when it comes to city jobs, and they tend to take good care of you.

good luck to you in the future.

 

[aun_existe_amor]

I'm sorry I can't help you much, just offer the chance to talk to someone who will listen, but you have helped me by posting this. I met my fiance here. I live in England and he lived in Colorado but moved here to live with me. He hasn't got a job yet and we haven't got much money. You helped me to understand a bit of how he might feel. Maybe I can be a bit more supportive of him now I can understand a bit more of how he must feel. Thank you 🙂

 

[Bugman]

I've been a member here for I guess about 2 years now, and hardly ever post, but just felt the need or urge to just vent slightly, hope it's ok.

I just moved to CA (well 5 months ago), after meeting and eventually falling in love with someone online (actually met here), and that part is great, our relationship is wonderful. I just am having a lot of trouble hanging out here in the house all day alone, plus I also suffer from depression, so that is making things a bit worse for motivation of any kind. I also can't seem to find a job to save my life here, and in not having a job, I owe pretty much everyone I know a pretty decent amount of money. Pretty much the only bright spot of my day is when "my honey" comes home from work. I know everyone keeps telling me I'm just going through a rough spot and things will get better, but I'm still waiting. I guess it's also that I'm still adjusting living here, after living my whole life in another state 3000 miles away, kind of a big adjustment. I guess deep down I know that what people are saying to me is right, and things will eventually work themselves out, they better or else I'll have to be committed (sort of a joke).

I'm just kind of going stir crazy, with no job, no money and having the no money part doesn't help with just driving around and exploring, since gas prices are unbelievable, I can't afford to do that right now.

Ok, sorry - enough feeling sorry for myself I guess, at least for now. I don't expect any responses to this thread, it was just a way for me to vent. But I do plan on posting kind of regularly now, that might help me a bit from being bored.

Thanks

It's always ok to post,and vent here,even if you are not that active on the forum.We are all one big family in that regard.I would offer one bit of advice if i may.Try not to let the forum,or the computer in general become a timepit,and deter you from your goals.

It's very easy for that to happen when you are lonely,depressed,and without work or money.Do use it for the resource it is to help you find a position.Best of luck to you,and let us know how things are going.

 

[Leeshy]

Thanks

Just a thank you to those who responded, thanks. I know things will get better, they have to, they better. And yes it is definitely true love that is helping me survive this pretty bad time. I just really need to find a job, then other things will fall into place, I know I'll find something eventually. Thanks again for your support.

 

[Bugman]

Not to be shy,you are among friends here. 😀