In person tickling vs tickling content

[yinzer]

I figured since my "part one" obviously resonated so much with everyone (haha), how could I not do a kind of "part 2" on this topic? 😆

Since I first discovered there was a such thing as tickling content, it instantly became my way of expressing something within me, that, for a long time, made me feel guilty, crazy, weird, etc., while at the same time excited, limerent, unique (which that feeling quickly left once online haha), really just a mashup of both positive and negative emotions that are practically endless and virtually ineffable. Now, especially as I've gotten older, you can add creepy to the list. It's not even that I think I'm creepy, but it's just my anxieties reading into how I might be perceived by others I guess? When I was younger, I never wanted to be seen as 'that' guy, meaning the creepy old geezer that made me cringe with his behavior every time he saw an attractive younger woman. I think I'd rather suffer castration (yikes!), if that's what it takes to keep me from becoming that guy!

So for years and years, I absolutely treated tickling and my other related fetishes as something to be ashamed of, something to hide from the rest of the world at all costs. I was mortified anyone I knew would discover this about me, and not long after I got online, this fear became a reality when another university student actually did find this out about me. I didn't understand how computers, much less the intricacies of the internet, worked at that time, and he did. He'd evidently tracked my activity on our shared dorm desktop computer and let me know one day in his comical way, coming over to me when I was sitting at the computer playing a computer game, and putting his foot up on a chair and strangely not really saying anything, but just giving me this kind of wink wink and acting like he was going to remove his sock to let me know he knew, at very least, about my foot fetish. I can't even remember exactly what he did, but it was obvious to me what he was getting at, and I felt about as embarrassed as I'd ever been in my life! He was a silly jokester for sure, constantly trying to be funny, sometimes succeeding, more often not, but I had to admit he 'outed' and humiliated me in a pretty funny way, and I was just thankful at the time we were the only 2 present when he did this! 😂 I figured for sure he'd tell everyone, and he maybe did, but it never came up again, not with him or anyone else. I continued to do everything I could to keep my fetishes secret from the people I knew, and only later in my 30's revealed my foot fetish to women I dated, still never letting any of them know about my tickling or nylon fetishes (I've only told one woman I'd dated for a very short time about these other fetishes, and this came years later still).

All of this to say, tickling has always been something for me to experience pretty much in the most private way possible, and for the most part, continues to be that way for me to this day, and nothing seems to accomplish this better than simply streaming tickling content online in the privacy of my home. Being that I've never had a regular tickle/play partner in romantic relationships, or a tickle partner at all for that matter, needless to say, watching videos online has gotten me thru the day to day for a long time. But as I think almost anyone who has these fetishes probably knows, this is deeply unsatisfying for obvious reasons, watching others experiencing something you want to be experiencing, trying to experience it vicariously thru them. Visuals are huge for me, and possibly just as essential is the physical intimacy that in person tickling naturally includes, and passively experiencing tickling content of course excludes this extremely important element.

So, as I mentioned in my previous post, I just recently started booking in person tickling sessions this past year with professionals when I can, but just as obvious the advantages this has over streaming content, are the disadvantages. It typically lasts one hour of one day, so what to do till the next session months later? How often one can do this really depends on their circumstances, but as I mentioned in my previous post, for me it's quarterly at best, and I'm guessing for most of us it's not practical to these frequently, if at all.

It's pretty remarkable how closely related these things are, and yet how vastly different the experience is between them. One you can experience at will at your convenience, the other only when practical. One is visual only, while the other can include physical intimacy...

And finally (tho please let me know other things I'm probably missing here!), one other thing to compare/contrast that quickly comes to mind is the cost of these options. I've never been one to spend a ton of $ on video clips like I'm guessing some people must, the main reason being I was so poor for the longest time and couldn't afford it (which probably also explains why I never sought out in person sessions), as it would've interfered with even the most basic costs of living for me in the past - and being financially responsible was maybe one of my few redeeming qualities I had 😆 But I've also always had a very addictive personality, and as I mentioned in the previous post, this tickling fetish clearly has addictive elements, to say the least. The fact there is this need for novelty keeps us on a constant chase for new content, be it a different model, different tickling positions, different camera angles, and the list seems virtually infinite. Currently, the only tickling content I'm actively purchasing is a monthly subscription with UK Tickling which gives me access to a huge library of archived clips, as well as fairly regular updates, which of course are (not surprisingly) never enough! But ultimately, while I value and am relying on both in an effort to satisfy (or hopefully more likely to quell) this addiction, I'd say I prefer spending my $ on actual physical sessions when possible, using the streaming content in the interim. And while the sessions are a quick expense, a kind of one and done, and the video content tends to be a slower attrition of the bank accounts, they can both really add up in costs over time!

So now that I've rambled my personal backstory and copes way more than originally intended here, I'd really like to know more about others and their perspectives on these things? Do you see your fetish as a potential addiction like I do, or maybe even experienced them that way at some point like I have? This doesn't mean it has to be that way any more than a person that enjoys an occasional drink is an alcoholic! I can honestly say I'm trying to enjoy and experience my fetishes in the healthiest ways possible now, as I'm sure many do, but for me the struggle still clearly continues! And I feel like I need to recognize the potential unhealthy behavior this often leads to, hopefully avoiding behaviors associated with it that I also see as harmful when it leads to things like obsessive thinking or spending $ we don't have, foolishly chasing it right into a metaphorical black hole of hell.

(P.S. I'm going to post this here in the tickling discussion forum for now, but having the realization it's feeling more like a better fit for a blog post, so I'm open to having it moved if that makes more sense? And for anyone managing to make it this far, thanks for reading!) Either way, I hope it fits for a discussion of sorts somewhere 😂

 

[WickedTouch]

I figured since my "part one" obviously resonated so much with everyone (haha), how could I not do a kind of "part 2" on this topic? 😆

Since I first discovered there was a such thing as tickling content, it instantly became my way of expressing something within me, that, for a long time, made me feel guilty, crazy, weird, etc., while at the same time excited, limerent, unique (which that feeling quickly left once online haha), really just a mashup of both positive and negative emotions that are practically endless and virtually ineffable. Now, especially as I've gotten older, you can add creepy to the list. It's not even that I think I'm creepy, but it's just my anxieties reading into how I might be perceived by others I guess? When I was younger, I never wanted to be seen as 'that' guy, meaning the creepy old geezer that made me cringe with his behavior every time he saw an attractive younger woman. I think I'd rather suffer castration (yikes!), if that's what it takes to keep me from becoming that guy!

So for years and years, I absolutely treated tickling and my other related fetishes as something to be ashamed of, something to hide from the rest of the world at all costs. I was mortified anyone I knew would discover this about me, and not long after I got online, this fear became a reality when another university student found this out about me. I didn't understand how computers, much less the intricacies of the internet, worked at that time, and he did. He'd evidently tracked my activity on our shared dorm desktop computer and let me know one day in his comical way, coming over to me when I was sitting at the computer one day playing a computer game, and putting his foot up on a chair and strangely not really saying anything, but just giving me this kind of wink wink and acting like he was going to remove his sock to let me know he knew, at very least, about my foot fetish. I can't even remember exactly what he did, but it was obvious to me what he was getting at, and I felt about as embarrassed as I'd ever been in my life! He was a silly jokester for sure, constantly trying to be funny, sometimes succeeding, more often not, but I had to admit he 'outed' and humiliated me in a pretty funny way, and I was just thankful at the time we were the only 2 present when he did this! 😂 I figured for sure he'd tell everyone, and he maybe did, but it never came up again, not with him or anyone else. I continued to do everything I could to keep my fetishes secret from the people I knew, and only later in my 30's revealed my foot fetish to women I dated, still never letting any of them know about my tickling or nylon fetishes (I've only told one women I'd dated for a very short time about these other fetishes, and this came years later still).

All of this to say, tickling has always been something for me to experience pretty much in the most private way possible, and for the most part, continues to be that way for me to this day, and nothing seems to accomplish this better than simply streaming tickling content online in the privacy of my home. Being that I've never had a regular tickle/play partner in romantic relationships, or a tickle partner at all for that matter, needless to say, watching videos online has gotten me thru the day to day for a long time. But as I think almost anyone who has these fetishes probably knows, this is deeply unsatisfying for obvious reasons, watching others experiencing something you want to be experiencing, trying to experience it vicariously thru them. Visuals are huge for me, and possibly just as essential is the physical intimacy that in person tickling naturally includes, and passively experiencing tickling content of course excludes this extremely important element.

So, as I mentioned in my previous post, I just recently started booking in person tickling sessions this past year with professionals when I can, but just as obvious the advantages this has over streaming content, are the disadvantages. It typically lasts one hour of one day, so what to do till the next session months later? How often one can do this really depends on their circumstances, but as I mentioned in my previous post, for me it's quarterly at best, and I'm guessing for most of us it's not practical to these frequently, if at all.

It's pretty remarkable how closely related these things are, and yet how vastly different the experience is between them. One you can experience at will at your convenience, the other only when practical. One is visual only, while the other can include physical intimacy...

And finally (tho please let me know other things I'm probably missing here!), one other thing to compare/contrast that quickly comes to mind is the cost of these options. I've never been one to spend a ton of $ on video clips like I'm guessing some people must, the main reason being I was so poor for the longest time and couldn't afford it (which probably also explains why I never sought out in person sessions), as it would've interfered with even the most basic costs of living for me in the past - and being financially responsible was maybe one of my few redeeming qualities I had 😆 But I've also always had a very addictive personality, and as I mentioned in the previous post, this tickling fetish clearly has addictive elements, to say the least. The fact there is this need for novelty keeps us on a constant chase for new content, be it a different model, different tickling positions, different camera angles, and the list seems virtually infinite. Currently, the only tickling content I'm actively purchasing is a monthly subscription with UK Tickling which gives me access to a huge library of archived clips, as well as fairly regular updates, which of course are (not surprisingly) never enough! But ultimately, while I value and am relying on both in an effort to satisfy (or hopefully more likely to quell) this addiction, I'd say I prefer spending my $ on actual physical sessions when possible, using the streaming content in the interim. And while the sessions are a quick expense, a kind of one and done, and the video content tends to be a slower attrition of the bank accounts, they can both really add up in costs over time!

So now that I've rambled my personal backstory and copes way more than originally intended here, I'd really like to know more about others and their perspectives on these things? Do you see your fetish as a potential addiction like I do, or at least experienced them that way at some point like I have? This doesn't mean it has to be that way any more than a person that enjoys an occasional drink is an alcoholic! I can honestly say I'm trying to enjoy and experience my fetishes in the healthiest ways possible now, as I'm sure many do, but for me the struggle still clearly continues! And I feel like I need to recognize the potential unhealthy behavior this often leads to, hopefully avoiding behaviors associated with it that I also see as harmful when it leads to things like obsessive thinking or spending $ we don't have, foolishly chasing it right into a metaphorical black hole hell.

(P.S. I'm going to post this here in the tickling discussion forum for now, but having the realization it's feeling more like a better fit for a blog post, so I'm open to having it moved if that makes more sense? And for anyone managing to make it this far, thanks for reading!) Either way, I hope it fits for a discussion of sorts somewhere 😂

Thank you for sharing your interesting thoughts and being vulnerable about your experiences. The college story made me empathetically cringe—yikes! I still work hard to keep it very private in most of my personal life, much like most people do with any other sexual interest. It is somewhat less embarrassing to me than it used to be, but it still affects me in that way for sure. I’ve grown to understand that in some ways that enhances it, as it gives it a certain power, allure, or charge that makes it feel more exciting.

There have been times of my life where I’ve thought of it as a sort of addiction, but I think I’ve changed my perspective of how I feel it is and has been for me personally. Firstly, I want to acknowledge that someone’s relationship to just about anything can be an unhealthy one, to include developing compulsive and addictive tendencies to those things. For me, it’s become more clear how integral to the unique signature of my sexuality tickling is, expressions of one’s own sexuality itself being an important component of one’s needs and overall wellness. I think there have been times where I did not have a healthy relationship with tickling, but that was not necessarily a raw addiction so much as it was me seeking an outlet to express a very important part of who I am. Those outlets often took the form of online RP, consuming various content, and fantasizing about things that never truly were satisfying. In fact, I think they became compulsions because they hijacked those deep neural wirings that promise to deliver a more meaningful reward, but the reward never came. It’s easy to keep chasing that kind of signal because It’s more convenient, faster, and has a quick burst of feel good that comes with it, but at the cost of long-term dissatisfaction.

I worked very hard to break that cycle and connect and play with real people. For me, that satisfied a need and very quickly my relationship with tickling became something that felt like it complimented my life more than something that controlled it. I’ll be the first to admit that I am overwhelmingly blessed to be married to a wonderful woman who is also a ticklephile, but building that relationship also did not come without sacrifice, work, and intention. The same applies for when both of us connect with, and eventually play with, others. We have to put a lot of energy into it, sometimes taking very long winding paths only to find dead ends. But when successful, we get a lot of reward that we don’t ever find in the form of content or anything online

. Today, some of the things we do find and share online act as compliments to our tickling interests and experiences, inspiring, motivating, and enhancing them. But that is more because we already engage with it in the real world, which is what we personally are driven to do and what makes us the most satisfied.

 

[yinzer]

Thank you for sharing your interesting thoughts and being vulnerable about your experiences. The college story made me empathetically cringe—yikes! I still work hard to keep it very private in most of my personal life, much like most people do with any other sexual interest. It is somewhat less embarrassing to me than it used to be, but it still affects me in that way for sure. I’ve grown to understand that in some ways that enhances it, as it gives it a certain power, allure, or charge that makes it feel more exciting.

There have been times of my life where I’ve thought of it as a sort of addiction, but I think I’ve changed my perspective of how I feel it is and has been for me personally. Firstly, I want to acknowledge that someone’s relationship to just about anything can be an unhealthy one, to include developing compulsive and addictive tendencies to those things. For me, it’s become more clear how integral to the unique signature of my sexuality tickling is, expressions of one’s own sexuality itself being an important component of one’s needs and overall wellness. I think there have been times where I did not have a healthy relationship with tickling, but that was not necessarily a raw addiction so much as it was me seeking an outlet to express a very important part of who I am. Those outlets often took the form of online RP, consuming various content, and fantasizing about things that never truly were satisfying. In fact, I think they became compulsions because they hijacked those deep neural wirings that promise to deliver a more meaningful reward, but the reward never came. It’s easy to keep chasing that kind of signal because It’s more convenient, faster, and has a quick burst of feel good that comes with it, but at the cost of long-term dissatisfaction.

I worked very hard to break that cycle and connect and play with real people. For me, that satisfied a need and very quickly my relationship with tickling became something that felt like it complimented my life more than something that controlled it. I’ll be the first to admit that I am overwhelmingly blessed to be married to a wonderful woman who is also a ticklephile, but building that relationship also did not come without sacrifice, work, and intention. The same applies for when both of us connect with, and eventually play with, others. We have to put a lot of energy into it, sometimes taking very long winding paths only to find dead ends. But when successful, we get a lot of reward that we don’t ever find in the form of content or anything online

. Today, some of the things we do find and share online act as compliments to our tickling interests and experiences, inspiring, motivating, and enhancing them. But that is more because we already engage with it in the real world, which is what we personally are driven to do and what makes us the most satisfied.

I really appreciate your input here, WT. As always, so thoughtful and well put! That experience of the university student mocking me about what I thought was such a safely guarded secret was semi-traumatic for sure, particularly since I was already so self-conscious and shy as it was 😆 When you say someone's relationship to just about anything can be an unhealthy one that leads to addictive tendencies, this is so true! It's really cool you've been able to not only meet, but marry someone who shares such an important part of who you are. You are fortunate, and probably somewhat lucky, but you also had to make the right choices and do the work for this to happen!

 

[maniactickler]

I spent thousands of dollars on sessions throughout the years. alot of it wasted on women who werent really that ticklish. also spent thousands on video tapes and CDs. i cant afford any of that anymore. maybe ill do one session every 2 or 3 years. but its not the same tickling someone for money. i would love to tickle random women spontaneously if given the opportunity. but those situations are very rare. so now im just a video clip junky. it gets me by, but i still crave real life situations. its just super frustrating, but such is life. id like this fetish to disappear because it consumes me 24/7. i just want to be free! 😩

 

[natscott6282]

since I learnt about consent and limits its content only as in chatting in depth about memories, experiences and fantasies

 

[yinzer]

I spent thousands of dollars on sessions throughout the years. alot of it wasted on women who werent really that ticklish. also spent thousands on video tapes and CDs. i cant afford any of that anymore. maybe ill do one session every 2 or 3 years. but its not the same tickling someone for money. i would love to tickle random women spontaneously if given the opportunity. but those situations are very rare. so now im just a video clip junky. it gets me by, but i still crave real life situations. its just super frustrating, but such is life. id like this fetish to disappear because it consumes me 24/7. i just want to be free! 😩

It sounds like you're in a really tough place, so I'm sorry this is what it's come to for you. Having needs and/or desires left unfulfilled with little to no outlet for them is truly a waking nightmare!

And I get what you're saying about tickling someone for $. It's definitely not ideal, but for me it beats the alternatives. Relying exclusively on video clips is its own kind of hell, and I think over time underscores addictive tendencies that lead to that trapped and 'wanting to be free' from it feeling, so I completely understand what you're saying there. I'm convinced this passion and drive we have within us that brought us all here isn't meant to be experienced alone.

 

[yinzer]

since I learnt about consent and limits its content only as in chatting in depth about memories, experiences and fantasies

Your experience with tickling sounds so different from mine, so I'm interested to try to understand where you're coming from with this. So you're saying you don't actually do in person tickling anymore because your only interest with that is noncon and torturing a person to their limits? So it's become all about fantasizing and reminiscing about your past experiences now?

 

[natscott6282]

Your experience with tickling sounds so different from mine, so I'm interested to try to understand where you're coming from with this. So you're saying you don't actually do in person tickling anymore because your only interest with that is noncon and torturing a person to their limits? So it's become all about fantasizing and reminiscing about your past experiences now?

basically yes, and discussing topics to do with this,
I’m on discord if u wanna discuss

 

[yinzer]

I've heard of discord, but not really familiar. What's the advantage there?

 

[natscott6282]

I've heard of discord, but not really familiar. What's the advantage there?

easy to chat and where theres soooo many ticklephiles chatting.

 

[yinzer]

Cool, I'll have to check that out.