Sunriseticklee
3rd Level Orange Feather
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So, you know that moment right when your ler is tying those knots extra tight, pulling on each restraint, and giving you that look that contains a mixture of part excitement, part mischievousness, and part dogged determination!!!! Oh goodness!
Lees! What are you thinking? What is going through your mind? What are you saying aloud?
This (something I wrote a couple of months ago) sums me up completely!
I am always scared...
And I don't mean the quaking, frozen in terror type of scared.
I mean that I am all full of bravado, sarcasm, and taunting on the outside, but on the inside I am jittery. The thought always crosses my mind... (one or all of these LOL)
"What if I can't take it?"
"What if he never stops?"
"What if I lose my mind?"
And for a second, if you turn your head you might miss it, there's that fear and excitement and adrenaline all twisted together like the rush your heart feels in the beat between the apex of the hill and the first drop of a roller coaster. (Which I am also terrified of, but still ride because... well... I'm all full of bravado, sarcasm, and taunting on the outside..... )
It is ALL in my eyes- that fear!
Yet, I love it. I love every intense, torturous moment of it. I love the warmth of his body pressing against mine. I love to feel his strength restricting my frantic movements, and sometimes dragging across the bed by my legs or my hips... (that is my undoing each and every time).
Explain how can he be so strong but his fingers so soft? So fast and so gentle? How does he know exactly what to do to me? How does he know that no matter I much I crumble, I cry, I beg that I don't really want him to stop?
Sigh... These are the thoughts that run through my head while I'm teasing my ler and begging (sometimes for the fun of it, and sometimes because he is utterly destroying me.)
Lees, what are you thinking when anticipation turns into reality? That's the question.
Lees! What are you thinking? What is going through your mind? What are you saying aloud?
This (something I wrote a couple of months ago) sums me up completely!
I am always scared...
And I don't mean the quaking, frozen in terror type of scared.
I mean that I am all full of bravado, sarcasm, and taunting on the outside, but on the inside I am jittery. The thought always crosses my mind... (one or all of these LOL)
"What if I can't take it?"
"What if he never stops?"
"What if I lose my mind?"
And for a second, if you turn your head you might miss it, there's that fear and excitement and adrenaline all twisted together like the rush your heart feels in the beat between the apex of the hill and the first drop of a roller coaster. (Which I am also terrified of, but still ride because... well... I'm all full of bravado, sarcasm, and taunting on the outside..... )
It is ALL in my eyes- that fear!
Yet, I love it. I love every intense, torturous moment of it. I love the warmth of his body pressing against mine. I love to feel his strength restricting my frantic movements, and sometimes dragging across the bed by my legs or my hips... (that is my undoing each and every time).
Explain how can he be so strong but his fingers so soft? So fast and so gentle? How does he know exactly what to do to me? How does he know that no matter I much I crumble, I cry, I beg that I don't really want him to stop?
Sigh... These are the thoughts that run through my head while I'm teasing my ler and begging (sometimes for the fun of it, and sometimes because he is utterly destroying me.)
Lees, what are you thinking when anticipation turns into reality? That's the question.