Mixed Feelings About My Tickle Fetish

[kcantankerous]

Hello,

I have went from zero fetish outlets to quite a bonanza (by my standards) starting roughly two years ago. I have tickled probably 30 unique women over the two year span. Out of all of them, I'd say two had legit tickle fetishes. The rest seemed to tolerate it. I am thankful for all the experiences. However, I am beginning to mentally shame myself - thus dilute an otherwise pleasurable experience for myself at any rate - when I think about those that simply tolerate it.

I talk and honor boundaries beforehand and communicate throughout with each session. I massage and worship as well, so they do hopefully receive some pleasure there. I love to induce laughter in women specifically. I love the direct link between my actions and their laughter. Yet, I think they would do without being tickled if there wasn't a financial transaction.

Ideally, to only tickle fetishists or those who actively seek helps me avoid the guilt. Those opportunities are few and far between. Does anyone grapple with these mixed feelings with having/practicing a tickling fetish?

Thanks

 

[TKL_M28_LI_NY]

I do. It's hard.

 

[mikeytheman921]

Pfft, i gave up on being a 'Ler long ago. I let women do the tickling these days.

Although i'm currently in a 4 year drought. Apparently no one is doing the tickling.

 

[RevyBL]

Never had any mixed feelings about my tickle fetish, had to many good experiences

 

[duderino84]

It's an ongoing conflict for as long as you have it. So see if you can find another vice, tickle women they want to be tickled (hint hint, common area) , or I guess deal with having a drought.

There's 3 choices in life.... enjoy yourself, work on yourself, or adjust yourself to pick.

 

[FFT32]

Never had any mixed feelings about my tickle fetish, had to many good experiences

Agreed. I have only had positive experiences as well. Be it luck, approach or fate and I feel very fortunate and appreciative for this.

 

[Crazy Wabbit]

Hello,

I have went from zero fetish outlets to quite a bonanza (by my standards) starting roughly two years ago. I have tickled probably 30 unique women over the two year span. Out of all of them, I'd say two had legit tickle fetishes. The rest seemed to tolerate it. I am thankful for all the experiences. However, I am beginning to mentally shame myself - thus dilute an otherwise pleasurable experience for myself at any rate - when I think about those that simply tolerate it.

I talk and honor boundaries beforehand and communicate throughout with each session. I massage and worship as well, so they do hopefully receive some pleasure there. I love to induce laughter in women specifically. I love the direct link between my actions and their laughter. Yet, I think they would do without being tickled if there wasn't a financial transaction.

Ideally, to only tickle fetishists or those who actively seek helps me avoid the guilt. Those opportunities are few and far between. Does anyone grapple with these mixed feelings with having/practicing a tickling fetish?

Thanks

I know this is apples and oranges compared to what you're talking about, however I often felt weird because of my fetish. Growing up, I didn't even know what a fetish was and felt like something was wrong with me. I consider Fetlife and TMF a safe place to talk about this because I'm happy to know there are others out there who share the same fetish as I do.

This is going to sound silly, however I lurked this site for years before registering. I had this fear that if there happened to be someone that knows me that also posts on this site would go out and spread this secret around until it got back to me. The thing of it is would be they'd be shooting themselves in the foot if they did because the people they would gossip to would wonder how themselves know what forums I frequent unless they shared the same kink (TMF) or another (FetLife) without being at the forum themselves? Besides that, if it happens, it happens. I already had a someone who I thought was a friend in real life find out by searching my computer and he ended up spreading it around.

Guess what? No one cares. So I really don't care anymore. The world didn't come to an end. As a matter of fact, one of the women he spread it to didn't think it was the least bit funny and thought it was cruel that he did that. So, that ended up backfiring on him. Yeah, it made me blush, it embarrassed me, sent me into a panic attack from hell and it made me mad, which was obviously what he set out to do. However, I got over it and life goes on.

In my case, I think a lot of it had to do with self confidence and how I felt about myself. It's come to a point where I've now embraced this rather than resist it and accepted it as a just other uniqueness I have about me.

 

[TheMasterTouch]

I already had a someone who I thought was a friend in real life find out by searching my computer and he ended up spreading it around.

Guess what? No one cares. So I really don't care anymore. The world didn't come to an end. As a matter of fact, one of the women he spread it to didn't think it was the least bit funny and thought it was cruel that he did that. So, that ended up backfiring on him. Yeah, it made me blush, it embarrassed me, sent me into a panic attack from hell and it made me mad, which was obviously what he set out to do. However, I got over it and life goes on.

In my case, I think a lot of it had to do with self confidence and how I felt about myself. It's come to a point where I've now embraced this rather than resist it and accepted it as a just other uniqueness I have about me.

I empathize with you, as I had a similar experience. In my case, I was outed during my divorce. The people she told included family members and mutual friends (one of which I worked with). One of my worst fears realized. But just as you discovered, everything turned out ok. Like you, I fully embrace this part of me and wouldn't trade it for anything.

Everyone has their "thing". I've introduced many women to this fetish, and most of them were completely open to it and enjoyed trying something new and different.

 

[terorizer]

Hello,

I have went from zero fetish outlets to quite a bonanza (by my standards) starting roughly two years ago. I have tickled probably 30 unique women over the two year span. Out of all of them, I'd say two had legit tickle fetishes. The rest seemed to tolerate it. I am thankful for all the experiences. However, I am beginning to mentally shame myself - thus dilute an otherwise pleasurable experience for myself at any rate - when I think about those that simply tolerate it.

I talk and honor boundaries beforehand and communicate throughout with each session. I massage and worship as well, so they do hopefully receive some pleasure there. I love to induce laughter in women specifically. I love the direct link between my actions and their laughter. Yet, I think they would do without being tickled if there wasn't a financial transaction.

Ideally, to only tickle fetishists or those who actively seek helps me avoid the guilt. Those opportunities are few and far between. Does anyone grapple with these mixed feelings with having/practicing a tickling fetish?

Thanks

I've always said that even among all of us with this particular kink, people relate to tickling in different ways. Not only are there different relations to tickling, but we also change sometimes and the way we relate to it can change as well. I know myself well enough to know pay for play situations would never really satisfy me, so though I've never had that experience, I can understand why you have mixed feelings, given the majority of your sessions have been with those only "indulging" for a financial gain. For some of us, there need only be tickling involved; others require some other element for fulfillment. There is no wrong - there's just what makes us unique.

 

[Crazy Wabbit]

I empathize with you, as I had a similar experience. In my case, I was outed during my divorce. The people she told included family members and mutual friends (one of which I worked with). One of my worst fears realized. But just as you discovered, everything turned out ok. Like you, I fully embrace this part of me and wouldn't trade it for anything.

Everyone has their "thing". I've introduced many women to this fetish, and most of them were completely open to it and enjoyed trying something new and different.

I'm sorry you had to go through that. Just realize that people that have a mean streak like that are not only toxic to be around, but miserable themselves. And they thrive on making others miserable as well. I'm glad everything turned out for you okay though.