Assuming that what you have to say here is honest -- and I have no reason to doubt its veracity, as I believe there are people out there like this -- I have the following thoughts to offer to you, also in all honesty. Take them as you will.
1.) You have your own problems. Try to limit your problems to yourself, rather than spread them around.
You don’t have to act in what you yourself recognize as “sick” and “twisted” ways. You may have such urges because of what you see as your failures and your choice to blame women for them, but you do not have to follow through with destructive desires. It is what you _do_ that makes you who you are.
You obviously feel hurt, angry and jealous of a world that you see as more successful than you are -- a world full of people that you see as having been more successful for years -- and so, seek retribution against it, and specifically against that which you see as preventing you from success -- in this case, women.
You probably think just about the whole world is having more sex than you, and so, feel alone and under-appreciated. It’s not uncommon to feel that way, I imagine, in an age of increasing social isolation and prolific internet porn, booty-shaking videos, and unending commercials for “Girls Gone Wild” -- the degree to which one is exposed may skew ones view as to their relative experience in comparison to the perceived “norm”.
You yourself feel manipulated. You’ve probably been told that you should just “be yourself” and/or treat women a certain way, and in adherence with what you’ve been taught, still find yourself lacking. You therefore believe what you’ve been taught, and how you’ve been raised, is in part, a sham. You feel women have held all the cards to what you want, feel drawn in by your feelings toward them, and then shut out by their refusals and rejections of you. For these reasons, you feel manipulated. You want others to feel manipulated and controlled, like you’ve felt. You want revenge.
You need to stop. You need to stop perceiving sex as a measure of your own worth, and vengeance as a measure of achievement.
2.) Your intents probably involve not only acquiring knowledge to manipulate, seduce and hurt women (specifically your "one-itis" -- but regardless of whether or not you accomplish your revenge against your target, your appetite you will likely find relieved only temporarily, and you will seek to continue satisfying your misogynistic leanings.). But given that you have posted here when there are countless other forums devoted to various practices, it’s not unreasonable to believe you plan on targetting the women of this forum once you’ve acquired a new user identity and what you deem sufficient knowledge to reach your goals.
This being so, you’re painting a big target on your back amid a population of people who preach caution and take pride in their ability to acutely read others, and their actions and reactions. Such people often make excellent judges of character as well, so I advise you to drop all intent of manipulation and harm, as you will be quickly found out, shut out, and rightly and harshly shunned if you seek to fulfill your stated aims among our highly-valued female participants.
While perhaps not being a sexual predator in the coercive/non-consensual sense, you are a potentially destructive emotional predator, and so long as harm remains your intention, you deserve no more respect than the former, in my book.
3.) Given your age and the terminology in your post, I can probably guess which books and resources you have and have not consulted on the topics of seduction and manipulation. But I’m not going to help you in that regard.
That said, those books I’ve read on the matter center around the conceit that “everyone wants to be seduced”, conveniently glossing over the fact that almost everyone wants MORE than to be seduced.
Even you want more than just sex or seduction. You want validation -- of your prowess, your attractiveness, and most of all, of yourself as a person, and you want it all immediately. You want to feel that it’s right and okay to be you -- who you are -- and you interpret the refusals as personal attacks, rejections of who you are, more than simple disinterest.
You want the chance to turn the tables on all those times you were rejected and relegated to “just a friend” status. You want to go back in time and have those chances over again with the women who refused you, and knowing that you can’t, you want revenge, and power where you’ve felt powerless.
You have let this become far too much of a fixation, and it is unfortunately coming to define you. That’s why you’re a failure -- at women as much as at life.
In focusing on the problem and letting it define you, you have become the problem, and your self-loathing is evidence of it.
So long as you stay the problem, your short-term successes will feed into your long-term failure. Every woman you might manage to successfully exact your revenge upon will send word to her friends and they to their friends, and again, you will be shut out from what you really want, be it simply sex or external validation of yourself as a human being.
But to receive validation as a human being, you have to decide again to become one. Idealizing virtues of vengeance does not a human being make.
Succumbing to your urge for vengeance and a desire to control and harm is what makes you a loser and a failure, not just from my perspective, but from the perspective of achieving what you really want.
4.) I’ve found myself the guy who winds up picking up the pieces after women have dealt with guys like you. But most guys who hurt women emotionally are blissfully oblivious of the extent to which they’ve affected them. People who go out with the explicit intention to do emotional harm are doubly damnable in my book, but are usually doing so because they themselves are broken. You fit this latter category.
So, against my better judgement, I’m going to invite you to PM me about whatever you wish to speak. My reply will be dependent on your courtesy and honesty. Mind you, I’ll offer no advice for seduction, but I’ll discuss with you paths toward becoming a happy, decent human being, and that, I think, is what you need more than anything.
You will find you’re much more able to count yourself a success in life and with women if you can come to like yourself. It is this, and not the fleeting satisfaction of schadenfreude that will make you a happier and redeemable human being.
A man who is happy with himself, decent and caring is naturally attractive. You can work on real seduction -- attracting people by emphasizing the qualities that naturally flow out of you, and teaching yourself how to truly love others -- only once you love yourself. Genuine attractiveness is what you seek, and that starts with you and your security with yourself -- not “peacocking”, clever lines and hypno-speak, or whatever other trappings and affectations you think might pass you off as likeable or interesting.
Love of self and self confidence aren’t something you wear, tack on or get from that book you just read. I know you’ve heard the “love yourself” spiel a million times, but it’s true, so get used to it, and seek a way to get there.
You strike me not as desperate so much as desperately unhappy. Let’s start there first. Remember how miserable “Mystery” was despite his conquests.
I don’t believe in an absolute evil defined by an omnipotent God, but I believe in and understand the evil that people perpetrate upon others for their own short-term satisfaction. Following the route of evil (what you rightly recognize as “sick” and “twisted”) is ultimately unfulfilling not because of some post-mortem supernatural retribution, but because it closes precisely the doors of interaction with other people you want to open and keep open. It is pragmatic to do good.
Consider my offer, and PM me if you’re interested in success as a human being. I'm no guru, but I may be able to help you start on a decent and fulfilling path. I think it's probably the best offer you'll find here.
You will be happier.
