Scary

[blootwentytoo1]

Even as I write this, I know it's going to sound ridiculous. Plus, i'm not sure what any of you can even say in response. If anything, we can just discuss good tickle vs. bad tickle.

I was going to buy mona blue's hypno-tickle torture session. I watched the preview a lot. It was clear that this session was going to be about "bad tickling". bad tickling being equivilent to pain - nauseating, migrane inducing, dizzyness...inducing, a feeling like your skin is being set on fire. Contrast this with "good tickling" which feels like...sex. You can't stand it because it's almost like a pleasure overload.

I've had bad tickle a few times, and I liked it in the sense that even though it was true bdsm - painful, it made me aroused. But good tickle is what my sexuality is based on. Now (and this sounds like a completely irrational fear) I'm paranoid that i've lost my ability to be good tickled from listening to and then creating masturbation fantasies ( :scared ) about that preview. I'm worried that from now on tickling might feel painful and awful, and give me roaring headaches, instead of being my favorite thing in the world.

I know, I'm probably just a moron, and in a day or two I'll forget all about this. But still, it's a scary thought, and I'd thought I'd share. Just how much is ticklishness mental/and can you really make someone hate it through hypnosis?

 

[blootwentytoo1]

and the reason I think I might have lost my "good ticklishness", is that every time I imagine getting tickled, I feel bad ticklish - headache, nausea, and pain. In my fantasies, that's all I can feel.